JP(Wolfman)John Peter Syliboy(Syliboy Warrior(DC Universe Online))

Yeah my musical influences was Muchloud and MuchMusic. I'd learned the hottest songs in rock and roll, grunge rock, alternative rock, heavy metal, soft rock. I know that I'd watched the Edge, Muchloud at 12 o'clock, the Wedge, Go With The Flow and Much News. I know there is a lot more shows on Muchmusic. Yeah my rocking twenties was with a CD collection and DVD collection. I was getting laid but I had some troubles. Knowing that women take advantage of your money and everything. I know that they will use any excuse to get my money but some would earn my trust. I know that I had a lot of women in my life. Learning hypersexuality and hyper-independence in ways where I had to deal with my own traumas and women's manipulations. With Muchloud I had a good place to go to where I'd learnt the hottest rocker. With Muchmusic it was all the right stuff. I know that they've been about the music. We all fucked up and people have hidden their fucked upness better than me a...

I've had a lot of bad experience with women, I know that I've had good experience too. But it depended on the woman that my good or bad time happened. I know that some women wants my money and wants me to be responsible without authority. So I am thinking that they wanted some kind of form of slavery. The works of black people on slavery, discriminations and prejudice is a excellent source of material. Knowing that I had a good collection of books I am reading.  Learning that women have or might have a bigger role in Christianity. I know that I want to study Greek, Egyptian, Latin, German, Poland and the languages of Earth. I have a Latin Dictionary, Italian Dictionary, French and I just need German Dictionary, Greek and Egyptian Dictionaries. I have a Latin Dictionary and I don't know where I'd put it. Oh! I found it on my other book shelf. I have three bookcases and I know that I believe in philosophy of religion. I know it's the intent behind the meaning of phil...

My paranoid ass when I was younger, was to keep secrets and my rudiments would be coping with guilt. I am an old veteran warrior about coping and suffering the consequences of the power of secrecy. People would lie and beat me for any information. Nobody would help me or want to listen to me. The rudimentary coping skills I employed was tolerance and forbearance. The megacognition I used to have about my imagination, thought processes, memory, attention, and other faculties that my step uncle have oppressed. The Power of secrecy was trauma-lense kind of justifications, rationalization and broken sense of justice and righteousness. My issues have been self perpetuating in ways where I couldn't tell my stepfather anything. He was helping me to deal with that kind of grip over my psyche. The emotional control over my child mind was powerful. I did not have any respect for my biological mother because she was a moral coward.  And my traumas from sexual abuses that she has allowed in ...

Learning all my life skills in books, learning what's necessarily needed to be said and what's necessarily needed to be read. I was an addict wasting my life away but I'd enjoyed the simplicity of my addictions. And the quietness of my solitude. I know that my greatest changes was moving out of the community and into an new environment. I couldn't make it where addiction thrived. I knew that I needed to have a good life. Even if that meant giving into this incel's hell. I could educate myself through books, eBooks, encyclopedias, magazines, comic books, pdfs and dictionaries. Change is a constant and I know that I had many changes over the years. Some good, some bad. Yes I've accomplished a level of education, training and driving level that I could use in Eskasoni. I know it's good to be alive. And having to went through all those changes. In the dynamics of psychology in change I know that Mawita'mk Society has been a big factor that has been paramou...

I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community but it isn't my hometown. I know that I have a good reputation for being a hard worker in ways of collecting pop bottles for recycling. But that was a small money scheme(work plan for money). I know that I love my life in We'koqma'q community because Eskasoni has been part bad and part good. But I enjoyed my visit with my friends the other day. Knowing that I have paranoid schizophrenia I know that I need routine and a good understanding people. Like PSWs and Community Support Workers. I have a level of independence where I might be able to manage my own life in Eskasoni. The services there are part of the communal infrastructure. Learning that I got Medical Transportation Clerk arranging my rides and accommodations for my appointments. I know that I have a good life here because I have an Office Manager. I know that here I am appreciated, care for and have the proper support system in place from Mawita'mk...

In real life we don't get to choose our hells. But we choose our companions and companies in life. I know that I'd moved away from Eskasoni 13 years ago. Got accomplished and had success in my life. Ta improve on my life I have to work towards physical improvements continually and steadily. And work towards physical fitness until I can get a handle on my drinking again. Grief seems like an common, strong sometimes and sadden feeling. The emptiness of losing out on opportunities to make a good relationship, is something that I always lose out on. My real dad didn't want to take responsibility for his actions. I wasn't worth dying for or fixing the relationship. My family is the Morrison family and Jown family. My real dad didn't fix the relationship between me and him. All he had to do was apologize for forcing me out of my place, punching me in my face. And taking my money on me since I was living my life in Cape Breton. And not helping me to get my GST checks and...