Learning My Personal Powers

I am learning about my personal powers and the world. I havent really understood why I have to keep everything a secret. I know that family issues should remain open and use work-oriented answers, solutions and tools. I know that I have been more than guilty and everyone still looks down on that. I agree that children shouldn't have to be exposed to dark things like that. I feel that I have to forget much of past because I am the Dark Comedian.

I know that I had a good life but I know there is dark little secrets in this world should only be for adults. I know that I want that good strengths to carry on and live my life. Learning my personal powers means to understand how I was raised. I know that there are deep-seated racism, sexism and other isms of today's society. I know that I have been exposed to the stereotypes and prejudice of women, men and societies.

Understanding the misapprehension of my family is understanding that I have to be the martyr of today's society. In some fashion or way I have to be but I know that I have to be the crooked martyr. The Dark Comedian who philosophize and rationalize in creative and resourceful ways of intelligence that I show  extreme independence. My uncles have worked on me since they have met me.

I know that usurpers of personal powers are corruptors of my generation. And I cannot fix it because it's a deepening of sexism and racism. I never wanted to lose my family and I always thought that my family would work hard each day. I know that I have been heavily criticized and accused. I know that I have to deal with my internal struggles and live with my choices. I am the enemy of myself and I don't want to be. I want to be well immersed into hiking experience, hunting, trapping, bushcraftship and other outdoor activities.

Learning about my personal powers of cognitive faculties I've learned emotional intelligence through relationships and therapy in an Indigenous perspective. I have learned a lot of healing and growing personally. I know that I want to be recreationally productive and studious in my recreational studies and researches. I know that I want to be creative and free in a resourceful way. I know that I have been adaptable and good in my diplomacy of my people and, of my personal responsibilities of my family. I know that I have to protect my sisters but I'm not training or exercising for it. I know that I'm physically weak against my enemies and I don't have any personal physical prowess.

I have seen the darkest hearts of man and I know that I have shown empathy in many ways. I know that usurpers of personal powers have the potential to abuse by powers.

I know that we have to unite as a people and reconciled the differences, variety and problems of our nation. I know that I had emotional empathy and usurpers of personal powers want me to see the disadvantages of my people as us being lazy. We are all Treaty people and I know that we haven't been working together. But we are the original healers, peacekeepers and scientists of our generations. We have a rich history in books and other things. I know that we have been living in a divorced reality in the deepest, deepest scintilla of deep-seated racism and sexism. I know that we are in a good battle of peacekeeping and they want us to give up.

I know that we have to work together as RCMP and other police forces of tribunal ties. I know that we have to work together as nation-to-nation relationship in an economic building of infrastructural development. And work within the nation of Canadian citizens.

We are all Treaty citizens of this nation and I know that we have to share the experience of national, regional, communal, territorial and provincial works of our great nation. We are the better people and we could have a United Nations and United Planets of Federation. We could work in this world and create a futuristic quality of love, happiness and appreciation of our national human diversity, spirit and love.

I know that my intellectual, internal struggles are about morality struggles, conflicts of interest like moral conflicts, self-perception conflicts, love conflicts, political conflicts, societal conflicts, family conflicts, religious conflicts and existential conflicts, crises of conscience and other internal struggles. I know that I have a lot of different types of relational issues with the nation, communities, families and institutions. I know that social entities had a culture.

I know that I have internal struggles and learning my personal powers is learning my connection with my family, culture, tradition and heritage. I know that I'll need to work within my bounds and parameters of my emotional intelligence through relationships and therapy. I know that Indigenous perspectives on life and healing is open to talking to mental health professionals.

I know that I'm guilty and I don't know where to start with redemptive works. I know that I have been learning certain techniques in DBT to train my mind in a good way. I know that I want to do original works of my psycho-anthroplogical studies of my families in Membertou, Chapel Island, Eskasoni, Paq'tnkek and We'koqma'q. I know there is family in Wagmatcook and I know those Mi'kma'ki districts. I know that we have to unite and work together. I always imagined a future similar to Star Trek.

I know that relationship issues and other issues like political conflicts and other conflicts have been a good example of the types of internal struggles in my life are always holding me down. I know that I have been living with issues of uncles and parents. I know that there was not a convincing argument and I know that my stepfather was hard on everyone. He wasn't a good example of leadership and family patriarch. I know that I want to be a good person and I know that learning my personal powers means learning the dysfunctionality of family usurpers of personal powers.

I know that I had a lot of family but the Morrison said that I couldn't rely on them. They did not want me to resent them but I couldn't rely on them. And I couldn't really get involved in after school programs. I know that I couldn't enjoy my teen sexuality. I couldn't enjoy my freedom. I was sheltered( restricted and oppressed in ways of personal powers).

I couldn't really get used of reality because my narrow scope of reality was that I had to have a good routine. I couldn't enjoy my teen sexuality because of Curly and other people. Because I was stuck in a miserable limbo of degenerative qualities. I know that I was dehumanized, deprived or neglected in ways or oppressed. I couldn't really work on my driver's license, car or career. Schooling or anything because the Morrison family piled on so many problems with me that I couldn't really get a word in edgewise.

They took all my time with them and ruin my opportunities of friendships, family connections and political advantages. I couldn't really get a good job after school because there was so much work discriminations and abuses that I couldn't really get into the Eskasoni work force. I know that I couldn't really get a good job because of favoritism.

I never had any connections with Eskasoni. I always had to rely on welfare or the collecting of pop bottles. I couldn't really get used of work in a professional sense in Eskasoni. There is in our culture the methods and strategies of divisions in the community because of such discriminations and stereotypes based on our past, our disabilities, family connections and what people say about us. I don't have any clues how I am going to live with my second kidney, if I do get a second kidney.

Especially cultural colorism in the community. I know that we have discriminated based on skin tone colors. I know that we have been living in a prejudice community of favoritism, ageism, sexism and other things in my life that I have to put up with. And I know that I wasn't trained for certain jobs. There was barriers in the community and I lived it.

I know that I have made some mistakes and I know that I hadn't any real connection to employment. Everything was against me and I know that I couldn't really get my driver's license or anything because I did not show any real responsibility. I did not show total obedience to my stepfather's expectations. I couldn't really get used of this man because he kept on changing the facts around. I know that I don't got a good family but a struggling family connections.

Now I have a home and I have educational accomplishments. I have an accomplished past in We'koqma'q community where I have been getting ideas of trying for new stuff. I know that I'm in Cape Breton University and I know that Mawita'mk Society is supporting me in all my schooling. I know that with Mawita'mk Society I have an accomplished past in We'koqma'q community. I know that eventually I'll be driving my own car.

I feel enriched in ways of knowledge, educational accomplishments, experiences and a good life. I know that I have been working on my positivity and learning the effects of that power. I am learning my personal powers of positivity, happiness, strengths, coping skills, social strategies and psychotherapeutic techniques. I know that I have to work extra harder at my life because technically that's what we are taught to do: have a European concept of self-made man in self-reliance. Its impossible to have and I don't feel happy.

I know that I had a maledict and I know that I have been learning a lot of good techniques. In the eleven years at Mawita'mk Society I had a few outings I should've posted. I know that I never had any good memories cherished but I know a thing or two about computers. My inner strengths got me through most of things.