Who Am I?

The Relationship Cure book is a really good book. Emotional communication skills to emotional heritage and emotional command systems is an interesting thing. The things that I want to learn and the social cues and emotional bids that I have to decipher. The perception is only sharpen through knowledge or wisdom. Dr. John Gottman have solved most of the mysteries of the socioeconomic complexities of society. And I an learning what he is saying. And learning from Roger Merrill and Dr. John Gottman I feel thankful and happy that I got this knowledge.

It's  practical intelligence that we are learning. I am learning the socioeconomic balance of careers, opportunities and personal life. I know that I could learn much as I can in Mawita'mk Society because it's a safe place and I know that I will learn. I've watched the documentaries of First Nations and movies.

I know what it's like to live my life. I know that I will have to be patient with learning and being a student of life. I want to have an overall sense of meaning and purpose in my life where I live each day true to my own inner promotings. The idea that we are learning meaning and value in life and learn our role in society. I know that I am learning everything I need to have this emotional heritage, tradition and emotional intelligence through all my life.

I could love my past job in We'koqma'q One Stop because I know that I feel a sense of joy and contributions in doing it with a team. I feel like I am a good worker. I do my job well and get accustomed to it, and I believe my employer would rate my work performance on my job as excellent. Sometimes I feel like I don't fairly do good because I was sick but my boss would rate my job competencies and I would want a promotion to full time.

But my boss understands my condition well and knows me intimately. I'm not used of something like this and I used to work alone. At We'koqma'q One Stop I would consider my Employability is not an issue. I have enough education and skill to get another good job should the one I currently had fall through. But they are strong in business activities and I know that I have to be patient because of my health.

My family knows about and appreciate the work I do. They're familiar with my old workplace. They see my work as a positive contribution to the welfare of the family, and also to those who use the product or service I help create. I feel comfortable with the amount and quality of time, work and customer service I provide, I spend on the job and have results. I want to work through group hones and institutions where I could learn the value, balance and meaning.

The value, balance and meaning of a overall sense of purpose where I could enjoy my jobs I do. I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community and learning much as I can in Mawita'mk Society. I live an active life where I am always social. I know that I want to be this socially equipped with the Relationship Cure book and other books I have read to an degree.

Weed used to be my sense of purpose and now books and eBooks and audiobooks are my sense of purpose. I know that I want to be knowledgeable and wise. Experienced and well taught. I want to be with the know and be well informed. But people can be judgmental and narrow-minded. Using our judgment in a discriminatory way isn't the good way of being. That is holding people down for no reason instead of lifting them up. I am happy with my job experience and driving experience.

I have rich experience with driving, jobs, education and community programs. I know that I am learning the significance of being productive on a regular daily basis of my life. I've been productive since I could pick up sods and I know that I could teach life skills. I don't have financial skills in budget, a set expenses of the week. I know that I want the financial goals of a car, driver's license and job. I know that I want to live my life in We'koqma'q community where I could be the errand boy on the weekend. And be the daily week counselor or plumber. I know that I could get a full time counselorship in We'koqma'q community. And have plumbing and cleaning service as a side business.

I've done volunteer jobs with Eskasoni, Chapel Island and We'koqma'q communities. I know that I have been doing much as I can with everything I can possibly do. I want to work much as I can.

I want to work much as I can with a second kidney, driver's license, BA degree, Red Seals in Plumbing and Cooking. And a good professional schedule with Mawita'mk Society, We'koqma'q One Stop and a few credentials like Professional Sales Certificate and Digital Marketing Certificate. I want to have a few good professional Certificates in ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute training in Custodial Technician Training, Professional Sales, Digital Marketing, Cooking and Plumbing. I want to have a few NSCC Certificates and CBU credentials.

I want to get Retail Council of Canada credentials and try for scholarships in RBC, Eskasoni School Board, RCC Scholarships (20), Indspire scholarships and Eskasoni METS program. I got more options for scholarships but those are the most common scholarship options.

And then I got apprenticeships I could do for 4 years. A year in school for Certificate programs and I could get a good job. I need to be independent with chosing my fund options for schools I want to go into. I know that I could start my apprenticeship through getting my Certificates in plumbing and cooking. But I want to get much more Certificates in order to master the customer service excellence. I want to be the top notch employee of We'koqma'q One Stop.

I want to be the first modern chef, Certified plumber and Certified and accredited counselor. I want to build a life with many different credentials and graduations. But if I was to choose one career, I would choose psychotherapist. I would become skilled and knowledgeable in counseling. I know that I want to learn much as I can with my stepfather. And I know that I want to have many professional development.

I want to have much professional Certificates and Accreditations in my time with so much. I know that I have been learning to do certain things. And I want to be a professional psychotherapist. I want to learn from my stepfather and Andrea Currie. I want to specialize in psychology and have Andrea Currie as my guide, wisdom and advice.

I want to learn much as I can from my books, eBooks, magazines, comic books, dictionaries, pdfs, encyclopedias, printouts, apps and audiobooks. I have a library to choose from. My own personal library I wish I had in Eskasoni when I lived in my old apartment. I wish I could have my own personal library in my own apartment where I could be employable, knowledgeable, professional and learn from other people's experiences. I just read to sn extent of my books, I alternate between books and sometimes I read eBooks.

I know that it has been eleven years since I got any. I know in Eskasoni I had good sex at times but I know that it was with two women. One day woman and one night woman. I know that I did not have any problems with that. But I know that I wasn't approved the way I lived. 

So, I know that I don't have any freedoms in any way I want it. I know that I want to live my life with sexual conquests. But I cannot because Mawita'mk Society is strict in their sexuality. They want me to have a free life of no sex, no drugs and no alcohol.

I know that it was the sex that made it extra special in my old Eskasoni apartment. I know that I don't make money but I am planning to make a professional schedule. I know that I want to have everything I need to work wherever I want to. I want to get my second kidney and get my BA degree. I know that I want to renew my Beginner's license and keep on working on that.

I want to get the hell out of here because I know that Natives in Eskasoni are sheltered. I know that they don't know how to manage settlers. They have a negative attitude about the outside world. I feel that they want me to be held down. And I know that there were barriers I have to work through. I know that not much people tried to help out with me getting my driver's license in Eskasoni.

I want to see how I would do on my own in Eskasoni because I know that I'm not that attractive in the first damn place. I have to be this hard working man that never gives up. There are so many delays in my professional development, driving and careers that I never had any steady kind of job. I wanted to get a regular employment where I have a good income for the level of independence I have. I know that I want to have everything I need to be employable, independent and driving. I know that I'm poor in that sense.

I have no driving experience in a sense of traveling on my own. I don't have any trust built with my step family. I don't have any good memories of driving or working. It was mostly heavy criticism that I was dealt with to beat me down and keep me down. I know that I'm going through some stuff right now. Even now I'm faced with people that want to keep perpetuating dependency in me so that I don't grow. Control freaks that love me down and out. With no connections or help whatsoever.

But I have been training with my sister Billie Jean, who was generous enough to allow me to practice with her old red car. I want to have my own driving experience in traveling on my own. And I want to be able to choose where I go. But I have to be patient with everything.

I have two things to look forward to, my assessment for kidney transplant and going my my stepfather's place. Where my step parents live. It's a family home that they live in. I know that I want to enjoy my freedom but I have to be patient with this. I know that I want to get a second kidney. 

I have this assessment to look forward to, college and going to my step parents place.