Smile Again

I know that I have smile again. At least here I get to visit my family and my stuff is safe. But Eskasoni has infrastructural developments that makes them conmunally self-sustaining. I know that if I do get a car in 15 years I wouldn't need to move anywhere because I would have the selection of women I could date. Plus an eleven-year careered chief who has made plenty of good things happened. He got Eskasoni out of depths and worked on the infrastructure of Eskasoni for so long. I hope that I could sign up for Eskasoni Communications bundle. And have a good WiFi in my own apartment.

Chief Leroy Jown Denny has a proven track record and a good positive vibe to him. Hopefully, I can learn the language of my people and other languages. I know that I want to be employable in Eskasoni in so many ways. I want to have Political Science, Mi'kmaq Studies and Psychology.

I got eleven years here, working on my credentials. And I want my full driver's license. I know that I need to renew my Beginner's license and keep working on my driving skills. I know that I have to practice with certain people in my life. I got some driving hours with Raf, Tyson and Unama'ki Driving School. And Billie Jean.

I know that people from Eskasoni would want to get coffee or their drinks from We'koqma'q Tim Hortons. The main moving bargaining chip is the Eskasoni Public Transits Service up and running. I know that I could become a well known, reputable and reliable kind of guy. I know that We'koqma'q community has been good to me so far. And I know that now I'm looking. I know that I need to work on my fitness. And have a milestones in fitness, Cape Breton University, career milestones and a good understanding of life. I hope that I could get a truck.

Where there is good food, there is good company and music. I know that I have a good life, I just hope that I could create memorable experiences in We'koqma'q community with sky diving, snowshoeing and other outdoor activities. I want to have a peanut butter and jam sandwich and drink whatever I want. But I can't because I have lost my kidney function.

I want to be traveling back and forth from Eskasoni for work. I am punctual and a good worker to some degree. I like to be busy with a good team member. And I like to enjoy another's company. I like to rejuvenate, Rehabilitate and get everything going for a person. I know that I want to be this guy who has a good job at Eskasoni Rehab. I want to have a couple of Red Seals in Plumbing and cooking. And I want to have everything I need to work in Eskasoni. I feel a good appreciation of my life.

I know that I could get an apartment in Eskasoni if I wanted to. Well kind of. I don't think I could because I have nothing in my life to drive a car. I have some driving experience in and I know that I got the route in Sydney. I know that I have the route to Port Hawkesbury too. I need practice with driving and I need to live in Eskasoni. Hopefully, here I can get my full driver's license and BA degree before I do leave.

I know that I want to live here 4 or 5 more years here. Depending on how much headway I make here. Especially with a second kidney. I want to have my physical fitness until I have my muscular fitness. And I want to experience the great outdoors again, with biking and walking. And I want to practice my plumbing skills and cleaning skills. I want to become the reliable kind of guy who has a good skills set but don't fall for anyone's tricks.

I know that I want a good life and our lives are dicated by socioeconomic progress we create through economic opportunities in exchanges, barters, sharing, bargains, negotiations and other method of payments. I know that I need to learn our gift-giving, sharing of information, barter system, bargaining, exchanges of money or assets, skills of negotiations and other methods of payments that could be implemented in return.

I know that I have to be this guy that keeps providing for people opportunities of such methods of payment. Hopefully, I can learn to negotiate a barter in a barter system. I know that I need to work within the political science and learn what Rob Shipley has been saying. I know that I need to learn about Treaties, Acts and Rights and Titles. I hope that I could learn all that with my Bachelor of Arts program in Cape Breton University.

Re-charging capabilities of a smartphone is brilliant. Making it a versatile and handy tool of information and a good handy, trusty tool. It serves as a multifunctional device of such stellar cartography, Planetary geography and a good understanding of life. It has access to the Internet and WiFi is a brilliant radio frequencies. I know that they have a good communication device and a good information device in this smartphone. I could switch carriers and have a cheaper but stronger internet access. I could write my knowledge on this thing and have music playing out of it. With a little IT information training I could master this thing. Especially when I have to learn to fix it on my own.

The apps are endless and I have online banking, so that is a brilliant idea. I know that I could write my life story in pieces and learn to continue the story in portions. Hopefully, I can learn to tell a good story.

Self-confident me is like "why am I writing these things?" And my dubious self is saying " because it matters". I know that I have two sides with me and I know that my insecurities could eat me alive. I just need to suffer it out to understand better what I want. I want 15 years of living in We'koqma'q community at Mawita'mk Society because I want to get my full driver's license and BA degree. But if I do enjoy reading their materials, I might want to stay longer to get my Bachelor of Psychology and Master of Counseling psychology.

I want that much counseling Certificates hanging in my wall. I want to specialize in addictions, relationships and discriminations. I want to learn much as I can with certain eBooks and have much as I need for work. This will be a labor of love and acceptance. I want to learn how to counsel. I want to learn from the more experienced counselors like my stepfather.

And learn much as I can in his experience, wisdom and advice. I hope that I could gain some experience with sweat lodges, traditional medicine and other skills. Job-wise this BA degree is a good thing. It makes me employable in professional development. Eskasoni is a good place in a way but I want to get my full driver's license, couple degrees and couple work terms and job experience. I hope that I could perform to my optimum because I do want to be reliable in this community. It would mean more jobs and more practice with my skills.

I'm realizing the comforts of staying at Mawita'mk Society. It's been a year since I got to see my family and I know that I miss them dearly. I want to have my birthday in Chapel Island. I know that I am excited to go back to school and see my family in Chapel Island. I feel happy about all that. I don't know if I'll have my birthday here or there.

I think that Rosie said that I will have my birthday dinner after the four days I'm down Chapel Island. I hope that I could spend my time with my family. I know that I want to have everything I need to function as an independent adult in this life. I know that I want to my full driver's license and BA degree with my second kidney.

I just picked my courses for this month. Hopefully, I can get a good start with Cape Breton University's Bachelor of Arts program. Hopefully, it doesn't fill up too quickly and hopefully, I can get in. I know that my dad misses me(my stepfather) who has taken care of me ever since I was a baby. I know that I call him dad and it will always be that. I know that he has taken care of me for a long time. And I know that I love that old man because of my childhood. I feel a good appreciation for my family and their efforts in trying to make me smile again.

Finally here today and it's my birthday. Got to see my baby brother Sonny. And hopefully, I get to see my dad Billie Morrison. I know that I will have a good day here. And I know that I will enjoy my time here. I got my bi-weekly injection and got to see Mike MacInnis. I know that I have a lot to look forward to. I am happy how things are with Mawita'mk Society and family. I know that I got my schooling with Cape Breton University this Friday. And I got my birthday to celebrate. I got eleven years at Mawita'mk Society working on my educational accomplishments. And I need 4 more years from 2021 to make it to 15 years.

Hopefully, I can get my second kidney. I know that I got a call from Wendy Sharpe. She is the Kidney Transplant Coordinator who adds or take away the opportunity of getting on the Transplant kidney list. Hopefully, I get to see my father. The one who has raised me and helped me in a lot of ways.