My Essentials To have my Independence

I need my essentials of independence to have the possibilities of moving back home. But too, I need it to be safe and secure in my hometown apartment. I need a good amount of surveillance outside of my property. And I need to have the racist RCMP to protect me. But they wouldn't because they don't want to get into fights with these bad asses.

But anyways I need my essentials of independence to thrive in Mawita'mk Society: are my physical muscular fitness, daily routines, hominess, my second transplant kidney, my full driver's license, my job back, my trade and truck. And I need my NSCC Plumbing Certificate and NSCC Cooking Certificate, to get two Red Seals hanging on my wall. I want to have my BA degree from Cape Breton University and ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute Custodial Technician Training Certificate. I want to have all these credentials and careers.

I need my essentials of independence to live, thrive and flourish. I want to have a career, a full driver's license, a second transplant kidney and a good amount of credentials and licenses. I want to spend 9 years at schooling and have my professional Certificates and degrees, diplomas and credentials. I want to get a good momentum going with my life in We'koqma'q community. I know that I enjoy my Playstation 4 gaming system. I know that I enjoy my music on my smartphone. I know that I enjoy my time in my bedroom.

I know that the essentials of independence is life skills, job skills, career skills, financial literacy and survival skills. I know that my stepfather has taught me to snare rabbits. I feel like I have a rich emotional heritage with my stepfather and the family. But I know that I need space which my family has provided. I know that I have two large families and in that I have to look out for cousins.

I know that I have aspects of Employability and independence. Economic education is just financial literacy, schools, colleges and Universities. Types of jobs, occupations and professions and fields of work. It's educating about the Dignity of Labour philosophy, workforce and professional development. I know that I want to have a rich experience with graduations, birthdays, Christmases and careers. I know that I have a rich graduations in We'koqma'q community. I know that Eskasonians go off reserve to get their education.

I've had that privilege to be a Mawita'mk member, client and resident. I am that kind of person that wants to get stuff done. But I do know that I could kind of follow-through with things but not right now because I have dialysis. I know that I've follow-through in my twenties and I'm in my thirties now. I know that I have a rich experience here.

I know that I have a rich graduations, birthdays and Christmases. But I had some family members come by and visit. I know that I have mostly visited them. Nobody knows my gaming experience. I know that I have enjoyed games that my brothers had. I know that I want to have everything I need to live my life in the essentials of independence. I know that I want to have a bunch of credentials and licenses. I want to have rich graduations and accomplishments in We'koqma'q community. That I could have the essential skills I need for independent life in Eskasoni. Like driving and plumbing.

I know that I want to enjoy my life in Eskasoni. I know that I want to enjoy my adulthood alone. I don't want to rekindle relationship with my real father because he wants young girls. I know that he doesn't want me to thrive because I would've been living by myself in Eskasoni.

And I know that the local addicts, fiends and bullies don't want me to live my life in a good thriving way. I know that everyone that I've met in Eskasoni wants me to be held back from getting my life together. I have a life together here. I have a rich life of economic opportunities and building a good life in We'koqma'q community. I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. It has been my home since 2010. New things are happening in Eskasoni to make it more self-sustainable and self-supportive in ways. Eskasoni has a good infrastructure and a good understanding of its people.

But here I look forward to Fridays and next week because of Comfort Allowance, tea and cookies at Dialysis Unit and a good three meals a day every year. I have Playstation 4 console and video games. I have a computer I needing fix and we are getting fiber opts. We have basic cable.

I have the latest technology and electronics I need to stay in my bedroom. To enjoy my days here. And I have my own smartphone that I find very useful, I enjoy my smartphone now. I know that Mawita'mk Society is wearing me down to depression with a certain client. I cannot really say anything because Mawita'mk Society wants the accolades of being a good support staff. I know that I cannot express myself how I want to because somebody would rat me out. I have no freedom of adulthood in my life. I cannot have anything free, independent and thriving in my life because everyone don't like me strong or powerful. I know that once I get away from here with my second kidney.

I would enjoy my life better. I know that Mawita'mk Society has the most influential grips over my posts. They refuse to help me understand. And if I do understand this certain client I would get depressed.

I know that the manager of Mawita'mk Society wants me managed and handled so that way I have to deal with her powerfully influential. I know that she depresses me and picks on me. I know that I don't get any genuine respect or right to express myself how I see fit. I know that I don't need anyone pitying her because that's all she gets. I'm taught to accept all walks of life but it seems I cannot accept somebody that doesn't respect elders or any humans for that matter.

But I have my hometown's infrastructure growing, building and becoming better. I know that I don't need a resident to dominate my life in any way. That's what Clyde Paul and Vickie Pierro but I know that they both have their struggles. I know that everyone is on their own path and in that there are struggles I know how to handle. I know that with me I have read books, played video games and struggled with quitting smoking.

I couldn't have any emotional outbursts like most of these people here. It seems like I don't have any friends here. Feeling disrespected, I feel that I've had a rich life of that. That I have been disrespected in many ways. I know that I'm paranoid schizophrenic and I'm the younger person here. I know that I have no choices here. I know that I love both of my fathers and in that I know that I love Mawita'mk Society in all its glory. But I have been backed into a corner into this place. And I'm dependent on Mawita'mk Society because I am on dialysis.

I am stuck because of Covid-19 cases on the rise and I'm on dialysis. Mawita'mk Society is my best choice right now. They have been the best journey for eleven years. I know that tomorrow is a New Year. And I know that I want to live with the best choices I got. Mawita'mk Society is a good group home. A good ideal place.

An ideal place to invest my time in my schooling and other aspects of my independence and get my essentials of independence in a good way. Improve on my situation by using my exercising equipments and going for walks. The basic needs I needed while in Eskasoni was to be left alone. So, I could cook my meals and live in peace. I know that I won't be able to sleep in peace because so many would bother me. I know that I am not sexually attractive in Eskasoni. I know that I've learned emotional intelligence through people that have hated me.

And love me weak, pathetic and malnourished. Stagnant in my own home and cannot get anything for myself. I know that I don't have any respect from the staff people here or from residents. I know that I don't have any respect for my independence. And being an adult. I know what's expected of me.

But as I live here I have learned to speak up for what I consider offensive. I know that I don't have any respect in regards to the acknowledgement of my skills. But at least I don't need to work that hard for routine. I know that I don't need to because I don't have any room for anything else. I cannot make any mistakes, wrongs or anything here. There is no shaming. I know that Rosie has made it easy to be lazy. And I know that I don't need to motivate myself anymore. Where I needed that self-motivated and self-supportive world of independence. I know that nobody respected me there. I haven't earned anything I wanted to accomplish there. And in Eskasoni I never had any real full-time job that I could be proud of. Because I did not have that opportunity to turn my life around.

I know that I was cheated out of everything I had in Eskasoni. And I cannot go back because nobody wanted me there.

Nobody there wanted me to thrive at the time. I don't know if they've changed their minds? I feel that I would have a repeat of assaults, beatings and abuses. I know that they have made it to hurt to use my own brain. I know that they've disempowered me in major ways. 

And I know that they've enjoyed my disempowerments and downs. They wanted me to crash and fall. That's how bad Eskasoni is to me. They won't leave me alone and I cannot have sex with my ladies as how much I want.

I know that I want to get my second transplant kidney and continue with my schooling goals. Get my BA degree to see how employable I could be in We'koqma'q or Eskasoni. I know that a lot have changed in the eleven years I've been here. And I know that Eskasoni has a goal to eliminate the stigma of them being addicts, fiends and bullies.

I know that Eskasoni is working on their infrastructure right now. They are trying to make a better community. I know that they want a utopian community. And I know that they have fiber opts. They have Eskasoni Communications, Eskasoni Security, Eskasoni Public Transits Service and other services in my hometown. I know that they are getting their own Eskasoni Tim Hortons and Recreational Center. They are building their own long-term care facility.