What a Home Means to Me

I love where I am at but if I had a choice I would choose Eskasoni. That way I could have all the services and benefits of Eskasoni. I know that I feel enriched with my stepfather, Billy Morrison. I know that he has created my sense of a healthy, happy home. I know that I don't see color and I know that I see the heart of my family. A home means to me a roof over my head, with all my stuff, things and spiritual items. I know that I have a good home because I get three meals a day, a good sense of adult freedom and liberty. And a good companies and good music.

I know that I never had any fathers encourage me in any way. They are tough but my stepfather shown sensitivity to my needs. He knew that I needed a father that would empathize and have compassion. Both of my fathers love me but there is a dignity of love with my stepfather( with a dirty mind).

But father Vincent Syliboy senior is a little abrasive and annoying, not too much because I know he is doing all this with love. That is annoys the hell out of me. I know what I like and what I don't like, I just wish he loves me as an adult. I know that ever since I moved here I started accomplishing stuff in my life. I know, with the support of Mawita'mk Society, I have been successful, accomplished and thriving. I wonder if I could thrive in Eskasoni now? Would I thrive and succeed in Eskasoni?

I know that a home means something to protect me from the elements in a cozy way. It's to nourish my body and to enjoy the comforts and luxury of a home. It's to have all the latest technology and electronics. And to have my own WiFi, cable and Eskasoni Communications bundle in my own apartment. I know that I want move back home because of all the latest infrastructure.

I know that is tempting in itself. And I know that I've grown up in Eskasoni and had struggles, victories, accomplishments and achievements. Not as a good as a graduations but I know that I have done tasks that made my name. I feel that enriched with certain things. I know that I want to enjoy my independence but my real father and stepfather don't want me to enjoy my adulthood. I know that I have to have the tools, supplies and materials. I know that I need to have all I need to accomplish the work. I know that I haven't been safe in Eskasoni but I don't know how they could change.

I never enjoyed my sexuality like how I imagined I would. But I know that was myth versus reality. No real beauty is gonna want me openly. I know that I have no choices but to live my life with dialysis right now. I feel that I could make my own home in Eskasoni.

I was labeled a mental invalid with no ability to learn. I know that I couldn't really enjoy my time in Eskasoni because of Drunkards, Gay morherfuckers, fiends, addicts and bullies. I did not have any personal demons more than those. I know that I want to have everything I need to live in Eskasoni on my own. A career, a full driver's license, a second new transplant kidney, a physical muscular fitness, a good routines and a bunch of credentials hanging on my wall. My home means to me is the ultimate comfort of independence, adulthood freedom and personal liberty.

I know that I could cook, clean and have a good time with my Eskasoni Communications bundle. Feeling better that I had 4 years at Mawita'mk Supported Apartments, 3 years at Leonard Paul's apartment building and a few years at Rosie Basque apartment.

I feel that I know what to look out for in my search for apartments. I know that I want to have everything I need to live in Eskasoni because I know that my fathers don't want me to enjoy my life. I know that I wasn't left alone with my ladies. I had intruders and other strange people in my place for their sexual pleasures. I did not have a good time. I know that I need to exercise if I am to move back home.

But I could live my life here because of Mawita'mk Society. I know that I don't have any respect for my independence. From Mawita'mk Society, fathers or uncles. They rather have it easy for them because they don't want to lift a finger. But they've been doing the heavy work and I am content with not lifting a finger. I feel that I've been cheated out of my independence. And I don't like being cheated out of anything. I know that I want to enjoy my independence.

But I feel like I'm living a rich life and I could be enjoying my second kidney in Eskasoni. Where I could get used of living again. But this time more prepared and ready for the outside world. I feel like I've had troubles with Eskasoni because bullies, fiends and addicts wanted me to be held back. My home is in Eskasoni community where I could live my life with Adult freedom and personal liberty. At a level of aspects of independence that I am holistic on my own.

I know that I always wanted to take care of myself while schizophrenic. I always wanted to, after diagnosis, take care of myself but apparently I cannot. I feel that I want to, too and hopefully, have my life together in Eskasoni. One of these days I'll have everything I need to live a rich life of successes, accomplishments and achievements. Yeah, I am accomplished and thriving now.

But I want to be accomplished, successful and thriving in Eskasoni with all the credentials I need to live my life how I want to. I know that I could live in my old apartment with Rosie Basque. I would build a shed for a washer and dryer. And I would enjoy my own truck parked back there. 

Sometimes I look at Darren Prosper as an example of having my life together. He doesn't waste time and gets right back on the horse. I know that I got couple of examples of a independent life. One of them being Candice working towards her BA, BEA and other credentials she would enjoy.

I know that I have to learn at Universities and Colleges. I have my community College experience in Trades. I haven't really gotten any full time schooling yet. I know that I could do all this in Eskasoni. Since Eskasoni has a cheap Eskasoni Public Transits Service. I know that I could use that.

I know that Eskasoni is a thriving community that is a growing community. I know that they have fiber opts, Eskasoni Communications, Eskasoni Security, Eskasoni Public Transits Service and other services in the community that could be useful. I know that they have a lot of services, business and trades. They are a large community growing into a more self-sustainable community. They have a Eskasoni Tim Hortons, a Eskasoni Welfare, a Eskasoni Supermarket and Eskasoni Subway.

Eskasoni is working on their infrastructure. And I know that it's my hometown community because I've lived there for 25 years. I know that I could get better services there. I've had love in Eskasoni that could've made me really happy. I could've been living in Eskasoni with this special lady. And have a bunch of good moments with her. I know that I've cheated on her and I don't want that kind of relationship. I've struggled for years.

I've struggled for years with traumas, mistreatments and addictions. I know that I never once had any break from abusive people in Eskasoni. I feel that I never lived with safety. I always had troubles with the local fiends, addicts and bullies. I know that I never trusted anyone and I couldn't really place my loyalty with anyone. I was hurting and nobody cared. I felt their indifference.

I know that I wanted to thrive and succeed. But Rob Shipley helped out a little but at the same time he hasn't. I know that I couldn't of keep my place because people kept on knocking it down at Rosie Basque apartment. I know that her place was truly unsafe and she didn't want to pay for it. I felt that I couldn't live my life there because of local and distant bullies, fiends and addicts. I know that I had to get everyone out of my life, including the gay fucker. I felt like my life wasn't mine while I lived there.

A home means a place to live my life in peace, harmony and happiness. I know that nobody wants that because they think that I am a gateway or some kind of access to young women. I know that my father Vincent Syliboy senior doesn't care for my well-being because he wouldn't left me alone with the wild dogs when he had a chance. I know that he has been selfish, abrasive and annoying. He doesn't create a safe, healthy and happy home. 

A home means that I'm safe and a family always looks out for each other the way The Morrison family has. I know that they don't mess around when it comes to correction of my thinking. 

A home means I could eat freely what I want, drink and nourish my body. Walk every I want in the community and surrounding areas. I know that I could walk around with a sense of freedom and personal liberty in my own place. 

A home is able to walk, eat, to play video games and watch movies freely. It's to enjoy my life without anyone interrupting me. It's to say that I could live my life by myself and to enjoy my independence, freedom and personal liberty. A good, healthy, happy home is worth protecting.

But I got no such home. I am straightening out my life to put together. I know that I never had any connections to jobs or women. But I know that I will rise like the sun and live my life how I see fit. I know that I have worked for my pop bottles, odd jobs and repair work. I want to enjoy that kind of work in my life. That kind of hustle and work. I know that I could work the community and in that I know that I could do what I needed to, to work and eat. 

Over the years I have grown with Mawita'mk Society as a responsible person. They know that I'm an adult and they know that I should be taking up more responsibilities at Mawita'mk Society. I've worked hard and I know that I was at decline with my kidney. But I am on dialysis and have to carry my own weight still. It makes me feel like I'm part of Mawita'mk organization. Doing chores with Connie, Shauna and Darren. And the others too. I would enjoy doing chores for them. 

Living with Mawita'mk Society I've learned the true responsibility of a homeowner. I know that I've had it all along but I just needed a light reminder of what I could do for a general clerk/Skilled Trades Laborer. To make a home meaningful and valuable, I have to keep it clean, tidy and neat. But with the way my bedroom is now, I have to keep my life meaningfully valuable and integral with Mawita'mk Society. 

The list of goals I have for my future graduations is ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute Custodial Technician Training Certificate, NSCC Plumbing Certificate, NSCC Pipe Trade diploma and NSCC Cooking Certificate. I want to have a rich graduations history in such milestones in my life that I am accustomed to hard work. I want to have my BA degree and full driver's license and truck. I want to enrichen my life like that and get a good couple of incomes. 

But first I want to, as soon as I get my second transplant kidney, get my NSCC Cooking Certificate and get my Red Seal papers and diploma in that. And than get my BA degree and full driver's license. I would want to have a bunch of Professional Certificates and licenses and credentials. That I am employable in any job I choose. I hope that I could live a working life of cooking, plumbing and cleaning over the years, with a BA degree and full driver's license. That I have an enrichen independence and a good life in We'koqma'q community. 

I want to have such job experiences I'm my life that I could afford, with Mawita'mk Society, couple small apartments and a house for my own. I know that I would be my own plumber, dry-waller and painter. But I would hire a small work force of Handymen and have a good small circles of friends and workers. I know that I could invest in lands in Eskasoni. And have a small fleet of people living in my own apartments. Mawita'mk Society is an ideal place to invest in a small fleet of apartments. 

I know that I could create a good home and there are types of apartment buildings. I know that I could invest in a small fleet of apartments and have my house somewhere near it. I would have a Spacemaker washers and dryers in there. I would be at an ideal place at Mawita'mk Society to invest in good small spacious apartments. And live my life when its all settled and done. That's one way I could invest my money in. While Mawita'mk Society is the perfect place to live my life and work, I could wait until I can get my second transplant kidney. And get all the credentials and Red Seals I needed, Expert Level of Cleaning and Master's degree in Counseling psychology. To have all I need in a political psychology. 

I know that I never caught a break from my father Vincent. I know that he loves me but he is way too much. Too damn annoying and abrasive. I know that he doesn't have a good family home to go to. I know that I don't want to live with him as soon as I get my second transplant kidney. I want to move back to my old hometown community Eskasoni. If anything is open.