Happy and Content

They have vacations to Toronto and places like that. If they go Toronto again I hope that I'm on that trip and I take pictures. I know that I have all the support I need to stay couple nights in Toronto. I hope that we can go again but with me. I know that I want to plan for it this time. Far away vacations is what I want to enjoy. I don't know anything out of the Homeland. I know that I want to enjoy my life with Mawita'mk Society. They have created rich memories of good times and good vacations.

The spirit that I'm writing this is with a curious look and tempting offer to go on vacation with Mawita'mk Society. Seeing all the pictures and fun they have together. I think that I could enjoy myself now with certain people on board. I feel that they could be lovely companions on travel and vacation pictures. I want to take a bunch of pictures with Mawita'mk Society and have a good time.

I only went on one vacation with Mawita'mk Society. And that is the PEI vacation when I had no smartphone. Now that I have a smartphone I could document my experiences with Mawita'mk Society. And have my perspectives on my side of things. I want to enjoy 10 years at Mawita'mk Society to have a 10-year pictures with Mawita'mk Society. And work it all on my phone. I know that I want to spend 10 more years at Mawita'mk Society because I have to see how I could get vacation-time in.

I know that I want to have pictures of my side of my role to participate in Mawita'mk activities and fitness. I need support from Facebook and others of my family to encourage, support and keep me motivated. A family inclusion with Mawita'mk support system I could do anything I want. I know that I have a lot of changes over the years and they were good changes.

But I could enjoy my reads on my smartphone and books too. I know that I have a lot to read and keep up. I know that I have knowledge of First Nations, Disabled and Employment policies. I feel that Fair Hiring practices is something that I enjoy reading about. And careers for Mi'kmaq could be a subject matter or subject altogether to write a PDF or eBooks. I know that I have a lot of pdfs, eBooks and books to read. I know that I have tons of subjects to read about. But I want to be accustomed to living a life outside of Mawita'mk Society's care. I want to be acclimated to living an independent life where I do self-care on my own and drive and work for myself.

The best place to get on my feet again, is at Mawita'mk Society. I feel this enrichen opportunity to collect my credentials I want for the current jobs I have. And get my full driver's license and BA degree.

This is an enrichen opportunity to collect and earn all my NSCC, Cape Breton University, ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute and Retail Council of Canada credentials and hang on my wall in my bedroom. At Mawita'mk Society I get academic support and guidance about what I need. I've been in college before and it was extremely difficult because I was discriminated for my disabilities and weight. I felt trapped in my body and couldn't do nothing. But this is a rich opportunity to earn a few credentials and have a few careers in We'koqma'q community.

I know that I'm happy and content with what I have. I appreciate the value if my knowledge in Trades and construction. I understand from a Certified Skilled Trades Laborer my opportunities for apprenticeships and outings. I know that I could enjoy my nights out with Mawita'mk Society.

I am an Certified tradesman and a Certified driver with an expired Beginner's license. I want to keep perpetuating the independent spirit of my life which I enjoy. I don't want to give up any opportunities to make money. And I want to collect, earn and work for credentials and jobs that I want to try out. I know that I could do something with my life at Mawita'mk Society. As long as I could thrive I could stay here more and get more shit done through Mawita'mk Society.

For twelve years I've been living here, for now I'm happy and content living here because I got the ideal support system. And I have family support to live here. Feeling like I've accomplished a lot during my twelve years here. I know that I enjoy, appreciate and like my knowledge I want to get, have and remember. I know that I could appreciate my future jobs and have job satisfaction from them.

I know that I enjoy, appreciate and like the current knowledge I have now. I just got to start thinking right about it. I know that I could learn much from my experience, books, encyclopedias, PDFs, eBooks and dictionaries. I had good memories of reading the books I had to an extent. I know that I'm abused but don't want to deal with it in real life. I know that my grasp on reality is tenuous at best. I know that with medication on a regular treatment, I could enjoy a decent quality of life at Mawita'mk Society. But I know, thanks to Mawita'mk Society I've reached certain milestones in my life.

I got my first credential at Eskasoni Rehab, got my ALP diploma and trade. Got my Beginner's license and We'koqma'q Adult Essential Skills Enhancement Program Certificate and We'koqma'q Men's Wellness program Certificate. After that I knew that I wanted to keep going.

I know that I got my Unama'ki Driving Certificate and Eskasoni NADACA Prevention Online Wellness program Certificate. I got an expired Beginner's license but I know that I want to get my second transplant kidney in order to continue getting credentials from NSCC, Cape Breton University, ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute and Retail Council of Canada courses. I know that I could get a good amount of education from these programs. And from my books, encyclopedias, PDFs, eBooks and dictionaries. I know that I got learning apps from my smartphone and eBooks to audiobooks and pdfs on my smartphone.

I'm rich with information yet to be read from my smartphone and books. I have magazines and comic books. I want to be knowledgeable and I want the experience with the knowledge, in applying it to certain situations and circumstances.

I know that I have 36 years of experience using my creativity because I was inspired by Star Trek: The Next Generation and Star Trek the Original Series. To think creatively based on that, is to think critical and creatively in a good fashion. And I want to have everything I need to function as an 36 years old adult. I hope that I could get my second transplant kidney and continue with all my goals, to improve on my situation. And work it into a good momentum of getting stuff done. I hope that I could get my general physical muscular fitness and get a good momentum going with everything.

I know that Eskasoni is building a Rec Center and I know that it will be a Multifunctional Rec Center or Multipurpose Recreational Center. And I know that I would want to drive there with a good understanding of my membership to the Eskasoni Recreational Center. I feel that Eskasoni could help me out.

I feel that Eskasoni could help me out with certain goals but I know that I've done so much in We'koqma'q community. I feel that I have a bunch of good bonding experiences with my stepfather who has taught me a lot already. And my real father who is retired from security work. I know that I could get a good momentum going in We'koqma'q community. I know that my real father I'd feeling guilty because he hasn't been part of my life. He doesn't want me to grow a spine and confront him about that. I know it hurts him and that I don't want anything else but my independence back.

He doesn't control me because I am my own man and he doesn't like that. In fact he hates the fact that I'm all grown up and using skills that my stepfather taught me. I know that he isn't respecting my independence or me because he doesn't want me to disrespect him.

I know that he wants to set a measure of control over my life because my stepfather has so much influenced my life, that my real father feels bad. He started this and said" I don't need you, I have another son!" And that was the last I'd seen him. He never apologized for that and he never apologized for the years passing by hitting me. He is an abusive father and don't want to deal with me in this fashion. I know that when he dies I won't attend his funeral. I know that I don't deserve this and I want justice, not an abusive father.

I know that I could live without him because I have all those years. And I know that he doesn't love me because he gotten away with so much. He wants to mold me into the perfect son he wants out of me. I know that he doesn't respect me at all because he has planted mindgames through the phone. And I know that I care.

But if he loves me he would respect me in every fashion. You take care of the things you love. You care for them and that is how you will show respect. I feel that my stepfather has shown respect to me all those years and have taught me the value of respect. I feel rich with all the life lessons, life skills, trade skills and cooking he has taught me. I know that I've enjoyed his presence because I am love like a son. I am his son in mind.

Ohyes, I have a rich life and I know that I've spent many Christmases without my real father. I know that I could enjoy life without him. And I know that I've enjoyed my life better without his nagging and abrasiveness. I know that my step family included me in everything. And my adopted Mawita'mk family will protect me. I know that my real father is trying to reconnect with me some how, in some fashion. And I know he sucks at it.

But as a Mi'kmaq I have to stick with him. I have to confront those demons when he dies. I know that he doesn't have patience or listening skills for that. And I know that he doesn't care for therapy or anything like that. I feel rich with opportunities to make mends in our relationship but it starts with him apologizing for what he has done over the years. I know as an grown, 36 years old adult he doesn't believe in my rights. I know this because he doesn't want me to grow a spine and be tough with him. He would punch me. 

So I'm happy and content in how my life has turned out to be. I know that if I do get a second transplant kidney I could enjoy my freedom and independence by moving out. And getting my own apartment in Eskasoni or Sydney. He needs a son that knows him. And I need a father that knows me. And that is Billy Morrison. I know that I have two good fathers but I know that I've learned emotional intelligence and other coping skills from my stepfather. And my real father Vincent, is thankful for that. 

I know that my papers don't define my knowledge, experience and skills set because I know a lot. I could be a skilled statesman to a Skilled tradesman. I know that if there was survival skills Certificate I could do that for 2 weeks or so. I know that I could cook but I know that I want to enjoy my tea time and cookies at Inverness Renal Clinic. I feel like I'm rich again every time I feed. And I know that I get tired after dialysis. 

I know that my fathers are both thankful that they are in my life. And in that I have potential healing to do from certain things in my life. I feel like now I'm rich with education and I have read some of my books to an extent. I know that I was taught landscaping, I could get Certify in that. I know that I'm a Certified Skilled Trades Laborer. And I know that I'm a Certified in a few things and in driving. I feel that I have benefited from Mawita'mk Society greatly. And I want to continue on this path of general healing. 

I know that I'd lost a few family members on my Jown side. I know that I'd lost my uncle Richard, Uncle Alex and my Grandmother Jessie Denny. I know that I care for them all and I want them to be in the spiritual heaven of the Mi'kmaq family. I know that I want to enjoy myself but I'm grieving, so please forgive me if I sound bitter. I know that I never lived without safety. But I know that I want my old apartment back behind 74th street, on Horseshoe Drive. 

I want to be a man of focus, commitment and dedication. I want to show my appreciation for Mawita'mk Society and We'koqma'q community by serving them in some fashion  or way. I want to be a man of self-discipline and sheer willingness. I want to be a motivated man daily. And I want to regain my focus again into lifting weights and cycling. 

I know that I could form routines on a daily. And I know that I have the habits in mind. I know that I want to have a few job experiences in We'koqma'q community. And I know that I want to get my second transplant kidney. I just got to be patient, focusing on the good times at Mawita'mk Society. Having a bunch of good moments here and enjoying the food, music and soul of this place. I know that the spirit of this place is full of richness of Mi'kmaq culture, tradition and spirituality. 

I know that they have a few programs to certify people in. Mawita'mk Society's Life Skills and Career Skills Certificate, Mawita'mk Cultural and Traditional Arts Certificate. Mawita'mk Society's Self-care and Apartment Care Certificate. Just to name a few for Mawita'mk Society to have for participation Certificates. I know that they could have a driving program too. Working with Unama'ki Driving School and Young Drivers of Canada, they could create participation trophies or Certificates in all that. That should cover the aspects of independence little. 

There is so much that Mawita'mk Society could award and have worked with. I know that I want to enjoy my independence at Mawita'mk Society. And have my tea and cookies. And have snacks and meals three times a day.