Sober, Happy Changes

I know that I'm changing up my dialysis time. I don't want to but I think it would be for the best. Being sober but a brave intellectual means that I have to go against certain people. And I know that I'm still learning about my rights in Eskasoni. I know that I have my rights over the Morrison. And I know that I have been cheated out of my rights, my youth, my education, my driving, my job opportunities and economic resources. I know that they wanted me to lose out on employment opportunities, driving goals, youth, education and training. I know that I was learning about how the Morrison cheated me out of everything.

I wanted to spend my transplant years on getting my full driver's license, getting my level of education and employability so I could work. Obviously I did not because I had enemies. I know that I was left out and had to make some moves.

So that's what I did, I'd made some moves to improve on my life. And worked at therapy, at my current level of education and employability. I could renew my Beginner's license and get my sisters helping me out with my driving goals. I know that now I have a better lifestyle at Mawita'mk Society. I know that I could be productive and get my bedroom cleaned and the walls washed. I know that today I have because it was my turn to help out. I know that I don't get to choose any job I want. I have to earn my credentials and work at my own life. I have a level of education and employability that I could, with a second transplant kidney I could live a rich life.

Here I'm safe and sound. A lot of good sober changes have happened to me. I know that I have been learning my role in society. To work, balance out my life with fitness, food and medicine.

And to build a holistic healthy lifestyle in We'koqma'q community where I could benefit greatly from my new parts of daily routine. I want to have the life skills, habits and discipline to have a solid, established routine and a good reflective analysis of my day. Today I had a good day because Shauna did the work. And I'd helped out. Which gave me a good sense of life satisfaction. I know that I could go back to my old job because I know that I had job satisfaction, I'd took pride in my job and I know that I had income.

Part of my moving was to get my education, trade. See how I do with all that and get used of walking again, working and earning. Doing something with my life gave me a great deal of job satisfaction. I know that I could've learned the system, the finances, the marketing and the hegemony. I know that I wanted to get full-time employment because I wanted those fringe benefits.

In order for me to get full-time employment I have to show professional independent workethic. I have to show that I've been listening to Cat and have been getting the idea of working on my own. But that'd for the full-time employment path. I know that I have been wanting my life professionally trained in Retail Council of Canada courses and We'koqma'q Tim Hortons courses. Maybe I have a good sales pitch. I know that I want to have a good life in We'koqma'q community where I have my second transplant kidney life and live my life here. I hope that I could get a good momentum going with fitness, food, medicines, walking and lifting weights.

My work development has been about landscaping swamps into beautiful oasis. And having a professional diploma for it. Having my carpentry papers and landscaping diploma, I know that I could learn much from these programs.

I know that I have worked through mad stages of pains and traumas. I've been beaten, scarred and bruised. They didn't want me to get angry because they would rather me oppressed/repressed the truth. Bury me alive with repressed feelings and invalidations I've suffered. I know it was a projected need for me to be this living hellion. I know that I am not innocent in thought because I was taught the hypersexuality from older people. I was taught that I was missing out on my opportunities. Dyin' to live my life to the fullest potential of my abilities. I know that I was left behind and I couldn't really do anything.

But here, I have to face crybabies that are way too petty for me. I mean extremely petty and I know that I don't have any respectability because all they got to do is feed me, give me my medicine and leave me alone. I know that I don't have any trust with certain workers.

I know that they won't joke with me. Like a certain worker she doesn't want me to have any self respect because she demands me to answer her. But when it comes to joking around I cannot because she refuses to play along. But I have to play along with her? I mean that ain't respect. That's bullying. I know that another worker don't have any respect too. They are both petty extremely. I have no powers in this place. I don't want to have certain things for free. Yeah I've reaped the benefits of Mawita’mk Society but I got trust issues. If they are practicing powers in my life I don't want them in it.

I want to move out and escape this cycle of routine. I don't want to deal with a bunch of old ladies who want to exercise powers over me. I know that I could live a better life in Eskasoni and have a better life satisfaction. I know that they want complacency in my head because they want me trapped here.

They don't want me to outgrow Mawita'mk Society or them because I'm dumb. So Mawita'mk Society thinks. I want to move out and have my life in Eskasoni. Nobody here wants me to have any independent thought or feeling. And they want me stagnant and dependent. They want to take credit for my hard work. I know that I don't have any home in Eskasoni. And I'm on the shit list of Rosie Basque. I know that I did not live to the fullest potential of my abilities in Eskasoni. I know that I don't have any choices right now.

Thanks to Mawita'mk Society I have a group home. I know that I don't want anyone take control over my life. If I cannot joke with ya then don't expect me to be friendly. I know that I'm not well respected because of cultural ageism. I feel trapped here and I know that I could live my life fuller. But I'm thinking on second transplant kidney terms. I am trapped here and I don't have a license.

I know that I want to move because nobody here respects me. They think in a cultural ageism terms. Where I am a hard worker but discredited because of a worker and Mawita'mk staff. I know that Eskasoni could inspire me to work harder. Eskasoni is my hometown strengths and powers. Because Vickie doesn't like it I want to move even harder there. I know that she wouldn't want to see me happy. I hope. Certain workers I don't want them at my old 74th street, Horseshoe Drive apartment. I hope that I could get my life built in Eskasoni in that apartment.

I don't really care for certain opinions in Mawita'mk Society. I know that I could have better opportunities and better service in Eskasoni. It's better to say that because it would mean I was being sentimental. I know that I'm gonna miss this place. And I know that I've accomplished enough here to create good memories here.

I had my sober lows and my sober natural highs. I know that I had a lot of experienced people at Mawita'mk Society. I've been discipline by my stepfather and brought up by my step uncle Chuck. I don't know what charges he has but Dodo has his, and I was surrounded by perverts. I know that my stepfather had been hypersexual and insecured. I know that I have been alone in my struggles and living at Mawita'mk Society has some restrictive caring. I know that is tough loving and I know that they won't give up without a fight.

There is certain care I have about Mawita'mk Society. I know it's a loveable place and a cozy, warm and caring place. The spirit of Mawita'mk Society is inscrutable and I know that I have been learning how indescribable it became. Their love for the clients is a intangible measure of excellence, love and the right amount of worry.

They each have their own skills set and I know that they have different but similar backgrounds in family matters. I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society for twelve years and reaping benefits of Mawita’mk Society I'd learned that my quality of life is such a subjective measure of love and care. It's hard to tell the difference between opportunities and friendship. I know that I want to move on out of here because my quality of life could thrive in Eskasoni.

I have this old nagging voice in my head where I have to be independent. I need to live my life how I see fit. I know that I don't want to be dependent(no license, no job, no hunting skills, no job-related life skills, no credentials) and stagnant(stuck where I'm at without choices or imagination). We all have imagination and as long as we got that there will be choices to think of. We could think of scenarios and other possibilities in turn.

But I know that power struggles isn't my thing. I am a neutral party and I am allowed to joke how I see fit. Not everyone agrees with that because they want me to bow down. I don't because I'm extremely independent. I'm lazy at times but I will help out or work at it. If I am allowed to joke. I know that I have been learning my roles in society. I serve as a  warrior worker. I work through the storms and other messes I hope I could have time to clean up. I know that I have a level of education and employability to work in Eskasoni. And I know that I just have to renew my Beginner's license.

I know that if you have a redemptive works in your life Warrior Workers is the toughest road you will take because it involves the Red Road, professional toughness and a good right quality. I know that I want to call my little Warrior Worker Society a love of re-education into job-related life skills.

It's a re-education of job-related life skills, strategies and techniques for coping, living a holistic healthy lifestyle, job skills and financial education. That is what I want Warrior Workers' Society to be. A work book studies Society where we discuss balancing out our lives with regular meals and fitness. I know that I used to eat as a kid and go outdoor. I know that I had an active life in Eskasoni and had a life satisfaction that help me out. I know that I was happy with the level of work stamina and how I was a endurance walker.

But Mawita'mk Society is a love and success of caring that I know that I wanted to live a good life at Mawita'mk Society. But I'd lived here for twelve years and gotten far with my level of education and employability that I know a thing or two about plumbing, building, installing, cleaning, cooking, assembling, retailing, carpentry and automotive service. 

Over the years they became milestones and to take those progressive baby steps with Mawita'mk Society was wonderful. I had family Christmases and family weekends. I had a good outings and trips and cruises. I know that I want my full driver's license goal done up. I know that I have been learning about opportunities in Landscaping laboring and sanitation.