People That Are Ne'li'kwat

Bullies seek out the weak and vulnerable. Knowing that Vickie is like that and don't show any respect for my physical weakness. I know that I have to be tough because she needs tough loving. Being that she comes from a psycho mother and, by the sound of it a mean-spirited family. I know that I don't have any respect from her. She don't have to take it out on me.

I know that I have to practice forbearance and composure when I'm around her. I have to be emotionally aware and have that emotional intelligence about her. I know that she is bipolar and rude, she is cruel and crude, she is vulgar and mean-spirited. So I have to deal with that at Mawita'mk Society. My aunties don't care for that and I know that I want to be left alone. She is nosy and too ne'li'kwat about the whole thing. I know that I want my privacy, solitude, independence and living my life my way, away from her Ne'lek ass.

Feeling like I want to live my life without my dad. Knowing that I could be independent, thriving, private loner with my own way of living based on my life experiences. I know that my stepfather didn't want me to decide for myself, my life and my own judgment of him. They were too ne'li'kwat about my life and wanted to control everything, know everything and have all my benefits from my life. I know that stemmed from generational jealousy, intergenerational anger and envy, and emotional damages. I couldn't really have my life together and I couldn't talk about what I wanted.

Being that I was an experienced Indigenous descendant bachelor who was nerdy, have a level of education and employability, had some sex partners and had some driving experience in. Which nobody wants to acknowledge and do me right. Throughout my life I've been impacted by women.

With that I had a lot of good teachings, instructions, wisdom-dropping, people teaching me a skill, technique, method or formula. I know a few things and learned a lot in my time. I know that I play too much and frustrates people too much. I might be ne'li'kwat but at least I was taught forbearance, self-discipline and composure. Vickie belittles me by saying "he has his little temper tantrum" and re-inforces by saying "it is, it is a temper tantrum". She only picks on me because I got no muscles and she isn't afraid of me. She has muscles but she doesn't want me to develop self-discipline, a life skill, perseverance or persistence or any consistency because she is a coward.

I want to humiliate her the way she does. But she is a coward because she shows respect to people with muscles and willing to fight her. I know that my stepfather held me back from getting muscles and learning fighting.

She is ne'li'kwat, Ne'lek, rude, cruel, annoying, prejudicially petty, mean-spirited bitch who won't stop bothering me. I know that I don't have any respect from her because I got no muscles but I have fighting experience. I know that I have some fighting experience but I have enemies, bullies, fiends and addicts in Eskasoni. Who are ne'li'kwat and want to control everything. But I know that I have it the way I have it. The situations remembered and the main memory is embedded in drunkenness, human stupidity and aggression. But thankfully Vickie is soberly Ne'li'kwat and Ne'lek.

She forces her beliefs on me, she forces her values on me. I know that I'm trying not to judge her but she is making it real difficult. Feeling she is ne'li'kwat and rude about it. I know that she doesn't believe in respect for me because I haven't earned it in her eyes. Knowing that she doesn't believe in equality.

She doesn't believe in equality, respect, decency and compassion. I have to be tough with her. Knowing that I have a sober Vickie instead of a malnourished and tired Vickie is great. But please I'm showing you respect by not saying that much about you. You have physical strength I wish I had. I know that I could exercise and walk. I know that I have walked today and it didn't tired me out too badly. I could've gotten a better walking in. I know that I have to be more patient because she doesn't want to learn, change or grow.

I know that it's the challenge that I have to deal with a ne'li'kwat woman. People had opportunities to take pictures of me when I first moved in for proof of the physical transformation from malnourishment, broken teeths, traumatized and vengeful kind of guy to a sober, recovering, educated and accomplished with a expired Beginner's license and a Unama'ki Driving Certificate.

I've worked on my self-esteem issues. I know that I've worked on my sexuality. I am working on my relationship knowledge. Still learning about relationship quality, paradigms and security. I'm learning from Dr. John Gottman's works and what I can find on Internet. Maybe I could get a relationship but I'll be working on my relationship knowledge(Issues, problems, solutions, wisdom) and have the tools for mental health for the ladies for me. I know that I have to think creatively, practice forbearance and work on my self-esteem. Lifting people up isn't my thing. Vickie holds on to every little thing and expects me not to worry.

She is bipolar and ne'li'kwat. I know that I have to be patient and cautious. She tries to influence things and wants me to expose my thinking. I am the one who has to practice forbearance when it comes to a childish bully who is bipolar, ne'li'kwat and rude.

A type of tyrannical bully who wants to be ne'lek and ne'li'kwat about it. But I have to deal with that on a daily basis. I cannot move because I got no second transplant kidney. I know that I have to work with Mawita'mk Society to get her to stop being negative, ne'li'kwat and cruel. I know that she thinks she is sassy and a fighter, she is just insecure and have to bully people smaller than her, weaker than her or older than her. She don't have any good fights. She wants to fight there is a whole professional sports about it.

I don't see her having kidney issues. I hope that I could get my life away from her because she is ne'li'kwat, a control freak and wants me to accept her. I have no idea why she thinks she could force her way through me. My simple ways isn't great but I'm humble enough to accept my position on sex and other things. Being experienced Indigenous descendant bachelor.

I know that I don't attract the beauties in my life because I have to learn about them. I could research about dating for the rest of my life and still women won't find me attractive. I haven't met up with their criteria or checklist. I have to be this poor nerdy little guy who don't get any laid every night because I don't rock, have teen sports, driver's license or anything that would help me stand out. I have no idea how my stepfather does it. Or any brothers and male cousins or uncles. But I know that I haven't been able to get laid in the thirteen years I've been here.

People that are ne'li'kwat want to know everything about me? I don't have any special connections to get women. I've been on dating apps for years now and still I haven't got laid. Women are opportunistic and need to make money. So I have to pay for my memberships.

I know that I don't get the attention of any woman because I don't make any connections, meet any criteria or checklist. Have any points or favors. I know that Eskasoni has abandoned me in my malnourishment and Mawita'mk Society has rescued me. They should have a prostitution clause with my disabilities and make sex a need. But I am nobody and have no powers, influences or connections. So my legitimate concerns aren't worth the wait. I wish I had my second transplant kidney because that would mean I have my fitness, could live life richer and better. And I have recovered and recuperated.

But at las I'm nobody to be concerned with. I know that my real dad wouldn't allow this kind of mentality, attitude or thinking in me. He would say if you have a need go out and do something about it. I couldn't in Eskasoni but I'm glad he said that.

I know that he was ne'li'kwat but he would make it better by helping me out. He was very nosy and I know that I had to deal with that. But Vickie? Who the hell she think she is trying to oppress and make me repress certain things in me. I know that she doesn't want me to live my life in a good way. And I know that Mawita'mk Society doesn't care or believe in me. I know that I don't want my heart strings tugged or bothered unless a woman is interested. Only professional prostitute allowed. I want to move because I have no ties, family or any reasons to believe that Mawita'mk Society would advocate for a sex worker.

I have to go out and get my own. Everyone wanted me to be proud of where I was. This place covers so much and have been a good impact on me. They have rescued me from my hometown community hell. And fed me three meals a day and snacks.

I know that because of them I have been living here, accomplishing things and getting stuff done. Throughout my thirteen years at Mawita'mk Society I have been getting good things like a job, CERB checks, GST direct deposits, Christmas bonuses, clothes and presents. I know that I have it good here, I just need a sex worker. I've been thinking that I have been learning about opportunities in We'koqma'q community. Growing personally accustomed to living here I hope that they can do something with a sex worker.

I know that I have been living here for thirteen years and have enjoyed Mawita'mk Society's care ideally. I know that I don't share well and have to answer for my own non-response. But I say that I've been wanting to get to know a few good women. I hope that I could enjoy dating experiences but it seems that I won't because ladies don't want me. If I had a sex worker that is female I could enjoy.

Without denials disagreements or anything. She would be available when I need her and I know that once the business is done I could be happy. I mean I'm enjoying masturbation ideally, just imagined if I was with a female sex worker. I could have the power of a vagina with a reasonable price. I could learn from a skilled worker like that. And get laid at the same time. Yeah I did enjoyed women before but if you think about it. It wasn't that simple. 

The freedom, simplicity and excitement of having a skilled worker like a professional prostitute is something that I could enjoy. There isn't any complex rigmaroles or anything like that kind of complicated things with a prostitute.

Muktunat and ne'li'kwat. I know that I have been learning my language. Feeling like I could appreciate a woman or sex worker ideally because I am still unexperienced with a relationship, professional or personal.

Simply talk business and be interested in my treatment from her. I know that I could pay good money to get treated by a skilled sex worker. Feeling like I've been negative I have to give it up for Mawita'mk staff, they are mostly women and have been trying to keep my hopes up. Generational differences is that I'm either too old or too young. Thinking I've been outsmarted in every way. I know that I don't get to enjoy women. Being private, alone and simple. I know that I didn't get that much women in my time. Smartphones weren't a thing with my stepfather. And I know damn well he wasn't going to help out with driving or sports.

I know this for a fact because he loves cheating on my stepmother. Feeling like women have excluded me and want to deal with me because I have no choices. I know that I had good kind of experiences in my life. I know that I don't attract the women I want.

Some bullies are muktunat and ne'li'kwat. They don't respect your privacy, solitude, independence and freedom.