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Musically I take pleasure out of rock and roll, heavy metal, alternative rock, 70s pop rock, 80s pop rock, 90s music, 60s music, 50s and 2000s music. I like progressively got a good library of music that I do enjoy. I know that when Messenger was Microsoft thing and there was a Messenger Idenity and email. I know that I did not get that much dates online... or gotten any party invites. I couldn't trust anything online because my step family taught me not to trust anything. But as I grew I'd learned about sourcing and credentials. Societal pressures wants me to conform and have a normal life. I've been saying that I never had any normal life because I had medical problems, social issues, barriers, missed opportunities, mistreatments and abuses.

My step family and enemies tried to take the narrative and make it crooked to their liking. I know that I don't have any respect from them.

I know that my stepfather held me back from so much because he thought of such issues. I know that my Syliboy family don't know me that well. People like to use control and power tactics in my life. And I'm not about to go through any of that anymore. They think that they want me but really they want to have this nice gimmick. I know that I don't know my Syliboy side because I know that everyone was at each other throats. The way the dynamics is I don't like because ageistic authority. To think right is that I'm a Xennial student of life that has to bridge the gap between my real father and the younger people. Well I'm scared that I would've went through some kind of ageistic and sexistic prejudicial treatments. The First Nation communities are filled with them.

I don't want to deal with kids but I have to because the female relatives in my life had kids.

And the way that I introduced them is kind of difficult. They want me to me humiliated and powerless. All the families. I know that I wasn't able to do much with my life because my stepfather wanted me less productive, attractive and more ideally Obedient child. That's indoctrination of a adopted child and not respecting me. With my real family is more emotional, more where I have to focus on my coping skills. Well use mindfulness and not think of my emotional detachment. I don't want to be dependent and despondent. I am educated, well trained and experienced in We'koqma'q community employment. I have my level of education and employability where I could work anywhere in the world. I just got to work on my physical fitness. My real father killed whatever childhood I had left with that meaning.

I did not have any good childhood with the Morrison anyways.

I couldn't really have a level of education and employability on my own. And I couldn't work towards anything because my stepfather wanted tyrannical despotism in my life. 

Instead of having a progressive thriving son he had a held back son he wanted. My hometown hasn't served me well. And I cannot move back yet because of my dialysis. There is ageistic psychology that has happened to me before. They use this age-psychological tricks where they confuse me and uses the moment to ruin what I say. I could've worked in full-time employments where I could've worked when I was a teenager. But I know that certain people had favoritism.

I know that I love my family, and I take great pride in loving them. But I know that I have them on my Facebook, having philosophical, historic and psychological works of ageism. I know that there is plenty of reasons.

Plenty of reasons why I don't want to live that way. He punched me, denied it and think and believe he isn't in the wrong. He got everyone to gang up on me and he thrusted me into his life. I know that he was an addict for the longest time. I was forced to understand in order to go home. Musicopsychotherapy. That was my art. I know that I had a lot of reasons why I did not want to go in Sipekne'katik. We are natural philomathean, social creatures and have a love to be a student of life in superficial, deep and average ways of life. Knowing that people keep it real simple for kids. We stop to learn emotionally because we have to attune to our environment, family, culture, history and philosophy. But issues have arise in society, my natural defenses for abuses is that I have to expose my abusers.

I've been through family abuses, community abuses and other mistreatments.

But I'm a tough son of a bitch and I used to love to fight. It seems that everyone mostly had more muscles than me. They didn't want to lose against me because they secretly hated me. Muscles matter and I know that I was taught that by my step uncle Francis. The smartest guy learn at a young age the philosophical works of Socrates, Confucius, Aristotle, Plato and other works. I was lucky enough to understand the definition of philosophy which is studies of fundamental principles and basic concepts of the universe and reality, existence and experience, and nature and knowledge. I have no one to relate to because I am an Xennial student of life.

I have more understanding of my world because I have experienced darkness in my world. I've experienced beatdowns, manipulations, seductions, lies, addictions and discriminations. There is metaphysics, truthology, ontology...

Ethics, epistemology, philosophy of science, philosophy of religion,  phenomenology, logic, political philosophy, philosophy of mind, aesthetics, history of philosophy, theology, Continental philosophy, philosophy of Mathematics, philosophy of law, Eastern philosophy, natural philosophy, hermeneutics, social philosophy and business ethics. And I couldn't really purchase a bookcase in my own bedroom or have anything safe in my bedroom when I used to live at my stepfather's. I couldn't invest in my own bedroom, learn driving or work outside of the family. I know that my family did not want me to learn everything because they chosen to keep me in the dark.

At Mawita'mk Society I got everything safe and secured. I have to have a financial goal here before I do move back to my old apartment. I know that I want to get an estimate on what kind of tools I'll need.

Hopefully I can build, with cousins and brothers, my own garage on the side of that place. I know that I want to well use that garage and build a good professional porch and put up walls. Hopefully I can make my old place the best damn place I could make it to be. Apparently family get last say over where I live. I know that there have to be mutual limerence between both sexes in order for love to be there. And with a lot of these country girls there isn't because I don't attract them. Hopefully I can get my physical fitness and get the hell out of here. I don't like being told what to do, I don't like being controlled and patrolled. And I don't care for not able to do stuff for myself. I am way out of practice and I know that they want me to depend on them.

The thing with this place is the regulations and anti-franternization. I don't want to fall in love with none of these ladies.

Why? Because I cannot date none of them and I don't think they are interested in me. Plus this group home seriously put a damper on my dating. Learning what I'm really worth I say that I have to move on out of here because the more I stay here, the more my family will get comfortable with me being here. Let's face it, nobody trusts me in any way or form. And I'm always expected to lose or do nothing because my family trained me for that. Well my step family. I hate the fact that I got no control over my life. I always have to ask and listen. I want to live my life without any telling me anything. I want to cook and bake at my own place. I want to build my own home. I want to have my own hometown home.

Looks like I am not going to because everyone in my life has their opinions about my life, my goals and how I'm supposed to live.

Learning that Billie Jean was pulling my heart strings to listen. I know that I didn't want to move because I could've worked it out. I know that Leonard Paul hated me and I know that Dodo was making me look bad. I know that I have enemies because of his brain-washing. I know that I had to keep secrets where I did not get any justice. I was denied because most of these pedophiles wanted me silent and quiet. My sister Katt was raped by R.S. case. I know that I was raped by a lot of people back in the day. I know that a lot of people wants to escape justice. My enemies are my abusers and bullies who don't want me to have justice.

Learning that I got no friends, freedom or independence. I know that Mawita'mk Society determines my meanings and interprets me how they see fit. Which Dodo and the rest of the Morrison family have been doing. Nobody wanted me to be happy child.

Nobody wanted me to be fully licensed driver or have any type of powers or personal leadership in my own life. Learning about how certain people perceiving me, I know that I'm nothing to the heavy weights anymore. I know that I've lost influences when I came here. And when the doctors diagnosed me paranoid schizophrenic. I don't have any powers in my life because I am being treated insane. So that's my moral reason why I don't want to live here. Despite all my anger and rage I'm still stuck where I'm at. With no muscles or motivation to start my days. I want to move out because of several moral reasons.

I know independent life and what to look out for. I know that I got no friends, freedom or independence because I never had any. Everyone wanted something from me in Eskasoni. They've forced sharing and everything on me.

Forced shared feelings, manipulations, seductions, lies, addictions, discriminations, beatdowns, barriers, missed opportunities, mistreatments, hypergamic bullshitting, discriminations, hypersexuality and hypergamy. All this was in my life because everyone wanted me to suffer. I never got the girl I wanted. I never had any sort of control or powers over my own life. I couldn't really defend my home. Nobody let up or had any sort of respect for me. These are the reasons why I don't want to move.

The reasons why I want to move is that I don't want anyone at my place. I don't care what it's for. I don't want to be told what to do, living the single life is living an independent personal life where I have all the powers and controls over my own life. Where I bake or cook something I don't have to be told anything. I know that Mawita'mk Society doesn't respect my independence.

I know that I'm just a puppet on strings to pull. And learning about my position here I know that I'll never be able to pay my dues or bills on my own. People can figure out how much I could afford and take my money. They could make decisions without me knowing this. But I know that I don't want any sort of friendship that weighs heavily on me. I want to invest into my old place if I could live there. 

I know that I am learning the psychohistory of discrimination, hypersexuality, hypergamy, violence, colorism, barriers, rejections, pains, heartaches, addictions and traumas. I know that with native people they don't want to be a philomathic bibliophile. Learning from books, experience and life. I am Mi'kmaq and afraid to be Canadian. The Psychohistory of Prejudice and Discrimination in the world of addictions, hypersexuality and classism is where I'm at at. Sometimes I feel like a puppet but socially learning team player's attributes.

I guess that no matter what I learn and how I use it. I won't be a dating or relationship material because women have chosen their mates long ago. And I have been well used and discriminated against because I am a hated nerd. I want to have my own place invested in and I want to work. I know that I just get a few thousands from family. I used to get a few hundreds from my real father. 

And learning that he wanted me to have my money saved. I could do that with a real job. I know that I want to get full-time employment from We'koqma'q One Stop. I kind of want to make a good ten-year career out of it. 

Hopefully I can make a good Certified Retail Worker at We'koqma'q One Stop. I want to be a full-time, Certified Retail Worker at We'koqma'q One Stop.

Hopefully I can get Retail Council of Canada courses and work towards education, training and Certifications.

With We'koqma'q One Stop I have one-year experience in working with them. And if I could get comfortable and have my own place in We'koqma'q community. I could get my own fitness and renal diet nutrition going. I know that I forgot certain things and knowing that I have to work out of debt. I hope that I could be forgiven for forgetting certain things in my life. I want my work performance better so that means I want to work on my physical fitness health. That dimension or aspect of my life. Feeling proud that I never was dominant in my enemies. I know that I have to build a good professional reputation proceeding me.

I think I have a good professional reputation. I hope I do anyways. If I don't I apologize to anyone that I've might of let down. I know that I want to work at being non-violent, sensitive towards the youth and older people. And have enough space for my own vehicle.