The Big 4 of Thrash Metal: My Psychomusicology, My Philosophy and Psycho-spirituality

For me thrash metal was anti-authority and my way to rebel. I know that everyone has their hurt and group of people they got abused by. The Big 4 of thrash metal to me was a symbol of trial by fire. They've endured the discriminations and prejudice against certain families, government, business, military and religion. I know that the Big 4 has their military harassment they rebel against like Metallica. A military family is Metallica, business people and corporations are Megadeth, Religious corporations are Slayer and people in general is Anthrax. I know that they must represent how they've earned their respect.

People that are anti-intelligent are moral cowards of their truths being represented by the Big 4 of thrash metal. Knowing that there is a mistrust and Hostility towards those people. I know that people will have no responsibility for their discriminations.

The ideas of the Big 4, the music they've created, have created a safe place for aggressiveness to go into. You could tell that I'm saying the truth if you have become aggressive in ways. Knowing that heavy metal has their psycho-historic stories and creative works, people know that they(the Big 4) would be commercially successful because the truth they speak is coming from anti-authoritarianism, anti-establishmentarianism and people that are psychologically oppressive, anti-intelligent and intellectually oppressive. It's the story of exposing moral cowards and beating on them.

They don't want you to have choices and to line up with more moral cowards that are anti-intelligent, it's more than just a political propaganda, it's a collective groupthink these moral cowards of such propaganda. To not stand for something and to say that you're pure evil falls under moral philosophy.

Political and moral principles of science and philosophy can bring about the ideas that every evil is superficial. That means women are superficial freaks that want hypergamous hypersexuality. When in fact Indigenous women don't have any criteria like my biological mother. Every fucked up person judging themselves from the corruption and successes of fucked up people is an emotional crime. At least the Big 4 exposes our major corporations, institutions and group of people as cliques. How do you penetrate the psycho-historic story of these people? And is there an ultimate evil?

I would say yes, pedophilia. But how do we sociologically, socioeconomically and psychobiologically figure out our problems? How do we see pass the comfortable lies and superficial propagandism and the ideas of evil, to figure out neuroethically the truest evil? That's the superficial ideas we go with.

Well if disabilities are evil, then we are totally fucked up because socially navigating these economics, we have to break free from the old conventional economic, social and sexual opportunities of life, to work with newer conventions and consensus, old tradition and new methodologies, and other faculties of our brains that make beliefs and values work. We have to learn about the philosophical foundation of essential sciences and basic neuroethical understanding of the disabilities, colorism, discriminations, manipulations and powers of Prejudice. We are all fucked up and have some degree, fathom or measure of twisted sense of broken righteousness. 

We, in our sense of being of ourselves, have a consciousness and complex neural networks of the so-called self. We are in situational analysis and Transactional Analysis where we have Freudian concepts like Devotibio( relational devotions and social conventions of love). To create a good deal of deprived senses and a good deal of thinking, a man can live ideally without a woman. He needs to fuck but I know that a man can live without one. 

The Ideal Male Obedience is the idea or bias of obeying and listening, matching the movable goalpost and having to be exhausted by unrealistic expectations. And Ideal Male Obedience bias is where you accept the conventions, ideals of psychological oppressionism and measures of anti-intelligence control and power tactics from other authorities in life, to some degree of abusiveness. 

I know that Ideal Male Independence bias is the idea where everyone let's you become hyper-independent, hyper-viligant and helpless in ways. I was taught to keep it simple and easy, to live an simplistic lifestyle ideally and unconditionally love. The ego-investment if prioritizations a wife is a myth where women don't want that. They always had choices and powers like Instagram and Facebook. But when I'm listening to this genre of music and with someone that enjoys this genre, i enjoy the music, the moment and good feelings.

I know that I'm not perfect but loyalty and attachment styles isn't working to maintain accountability to women, tradition isn't their thing and I know that women always have an secret escape gateway. I know that no matter how certain women are, they have a fickle fascination with men and don't want to respect the boundaries of their relationship. 

That's toxic women. But women that do take responsibility, own up to their actions in relationship and have a conscience, are the stronger ones that have to watch out for toxic men and women. Those women are my sisters and I cannot stop them from living. I don't want to but I cannot fight a war for them. That's toxic, unreasonable expectations of them if they are expecting that.

I know that I cannot be that protective older brother who risks his body for their safety temporarily. I know that I have to take precautions and safety issues seriously.

I know that the Big 4 represents military family, business conglomerates and corporations, political institutions and people, religious institutions and people. Feeling that they all have something to rebel against, to practice anti-authoritarianism and anti-establishmentarianism. I know that I have been heavily influenced by Muchloud and other radio stations that play the Big 4 of thrash metal. Alone I enjoy my music but if there is somebody with me, hating my music. 

I have empathic imagination room for them to ruin my excitement. I know that I rock out to a whole genre of music. And I know that the Big 4 have changed the musical landscape of today's world. Knowing the moral cowards that have anti-intelligence control methods and power tactics, influential strategies and forced shared feelings. I know that I have been affected, discriminated against and publicly humiliated by religious nuts that use cruelty to kids.

I know that I've been through hells years before anyone wanted to admit their wrongs. 

Every teenager that was in my life, was something like my biological mother back then. A teenager experiencing life at her twenties and want control methods accepted, influential strategies believed, and power tactics trusted. I know that I have been learning about my childhood to an extent of self examination, I know that I don't want to think of the moral implications of her life. But she has taught me coping skills in my life. 

Meditation techniques and mindfulness self therapy. I know that I used to have this laser-like focus and emotional intelligence, and emotional literacy of an old veteran work dog of a man soldier. I know that I've been an child addict who have been learning sensitivities of others, empathy and compassion for ladies, and understanding of men. I know through emotional intelligence I've learned my sense of purpose.

What the Big 4 of thrash metal represented to me was Metallica, anti-establishmentarianism and anti-authoritarianism of military institutions and people. Megadeth represented anti-establishmentarianism and anti-authoritarianism of business conglomerates and corporations people. Slayer represented anti-establishmentarianism and anti-authoritarianism of religious institutions people and spiritual conglomerates. And Anthrax governmental/political institutions and people in general. I know each of them had their Imageries, visuals and videos of their artworks. And they were making commercially successful music.

Knowing that these Big 4 of thrash metal are my favorite music. My aunties and uncles didn't took the time to understand what it meant to me, assumed the worst and wanted control over how I like music.

It's a deeper form of neuroethical understanding, psychoethical works like Dr. Philip Zimbardo and for works like Dr. Gabor Matè, Dr. John Gottman and others. I know that doctors have a unique kind of insights and advice to the world of psychomusicology. 

I know that the Big 4 meant to an angry little Pocket Hulk, and his older brothers, the world. I know that I have been watching heavy metal channels and getting into walking endurance a lot. I had a yellow Walkman with headphones and cassette in my Walkman. 

Learning different metal bands of the 90s and early 80s. I know that I had a blast from my stepfather's collection.

I know that I'm a Mi'kmaq, Virgo, anti-establishmentarian, anti-authoritarian, second generation, heavily-influenced- by-the-Big-4 fan, Xennial, philomathean, curious and intellectual acuity kind of Certified Skilled Tradesman.

I love the facts that scientists, doctors and philosophers have discovered over the years of learning, researching and investigating their fields, what the Big 4 had to say to them. 

I know that they went through the heaviest, strongest and most despicable kind of discriminations and prejudicial treatments in the court systems back in the 80s. I believe in copyright laws and trademark laws. I know that I have to watch out for certain laws in Canada, in the metaverse, in America and other countries. I want to make copyrighted publications of my intellectual property, to have commercial success in Cape Breton. Or some kind of success. I know that The Big 4 has taught me to stand up for my beliefs. Even in the courtroom.

I know that I have done a few bad things in my life. Thats because my step uncle was being a moral coward. He didn't want to have my own mind freed to talk about my issues. But I know that they cared for me in their twisted way. I know that they will keep the grip on my brain because they don't want to face judgment. Knowing that nobody has the truth of such manipulations but forced shared feelings. I know that I don't have any physical prowess or fitness because the Morrison kept me weak. 

Most of them are moral cowards and don't want me to dominate them. That's been their fears because they've dominated my life. I know that I did not have any good experiences with their reign in my life. Discouraging, discrediting and dissuading me that I cannot take care of myself. Especially since they did a crappy job at it: not getting me my license or full-time employment. Or graduating from Eskasoni High School. 

Learning that their importance is more important, influential and powerful than me. They have to have better lifestyles than me. The Morrison should've taken care of business no matter the cost. They've would've expected that out of me. Thinking that they are important like self-righteous assholes. 

I've wasted most of my life learning limits, barriers and unemployment rates in my life because of the Morrison family. They've wanted me to fail miserably and morally because they are no good. People like them don't want responsibility or opportunities to make them look good. And if they do, it's purely out of selfish reasons. 

I know that I cannot defeat their Supremacy or established respect. I know that I'm climbing a hill because they won't take responsibility of their lack of protection, security, food, education, driving instructions or experience, faith-driven wisdom or anything. I know that my stepfather wanted to control every aspect of my life(and have controlled most of my life even up to now). And I don't get to live good independently or thrivingly because they don't want me to learn, use or take life skills. 

They want me to say that I need them. They need me to say that I need them. And so does Mawita'mk Society. It has changed over the years to light re-assurance, to light manipulations and demanding. I know that I'm hated and not welcomed here. I know that white women have their manipulations and powers over native lands. And natives don't like respect, if they did they would go to work or sober up and go to work. 

Yeah I'm fortunate enough to have certain people in my life. But to have fortunate women to knock me down and walked all over me. I know that I don't like gossip or rumors, I would rather hear it from the horse's mouth. But there isn't any respect here. There is light bullying and micromanagement. 

I know that I have certain fluid restrictions and I know that I'm fat. I don't want to listen because everyone here don't like respect. People here need to talk and I know that because there are old people here, there are nothing but women here, and I don't have any respect because of gossip and rumor. 

In the Big 4 they've endured discriminations, biases, logical fallacies and prejudice from the most highest of people. And they worked their asses off and continued with their trailblazing. They are recognized as the most popular bands in my world. They are my ideas of fame, fortune and sex. But they also have teeths and claws to defend themselves. The Big 4 bands of thrash metal are the reason why I feel that the lightest touch of disrespect is met, I want to fight. 

Here, at Mawita'mk Society and We'koqma'q, I've faced similar discussions about hoe my music isn't that great. Sheila has lied and listens to her music openly, Kendra and Jennifer has lied and, Kendra listens to country. Jennifer listens to 80s. Everyone lied here and said they've listened to a wide range of music. My philosophical musicality has been affected by their biases and tastes in music. When I say I listen to a wide range of music, I mean it because I never had any smartphone technology in my twenties. I've made lists before and deleted them. 

Before I could learn anything about Mawita'mk Society: I should've read the simple situational forces that was in play. Knowing that Mawita'mk Society only has a narrow musicality and lies about their musical tastes. The philosophy of non-judgmentalism has to stay but my opinions about certain music can be on here. They want to learn about me they should learn about my independence, anti-establishmentarianism, anti-authority and other things I've needed in my life because of my step uncles.

I know that certain people haven't lied to me. Adrienne and Fran, they don't like music. I hate what they've chosen because I could feel their grips happening in me. Darren has earned my trust but nobody should've lied to me. I know that Darren has lied go me and lost musical foundation. This is reasons enough to live by myself. Because I know that professionally they should keep an open mind but they don't musically speaking. 

Nobody has experience what I've experience in my life. So there is no relating to my music. I had an older brother that was way darker than me. And learning that everyone is supposedly way darker than me. I know that people don't want to admit their weaknesses. I know that I don't have any mutual respect from anyone here because they need comforts of controllability. I hate that kind of behavioral modifications. It's either behavioral modification, persuasive designs or other things to create a false sense of security about music. 

I know that culturally that's not Mi'kmaq. And learning that Mi'kmaq is humble enough to have an unbiased approaches, philosophy of non-judgmentalism, unassuming disposition and skills in diplomacy. I know that people have to work at earning my trust because I've given a time, I'd allowed them to show their wide range of musicality.