Facebook as a Public Forum

Learning Facebook as a public forum. I've learnt a lot over the years with Facebook that I couldn't say certain things because family would hack, sneak or manipulate their way into my account. Everyone has lied, benefited from me and gotten their way because I didn't stand up for myself. I know that people wanted to keep Facebook as a public forum because they could keep arguing. Now and these days we don't have much choices in developing our personal stories because of Prime Minister Justin Trudeau determines whether who talks and who says what. Knowing that's how my step family did the damage control over the years. I know that they wouldn't want responsibility for their actions because they didn't want me at full power.

I know that my siblings gets to decide whether or not I get to move out or do whatever. Rosie says it than it's approved.

Knowing that my Facebook account isn't mine to begin with. They only wanted me to have a mental illness because they didn't want me to learn to fight. I know that I don't have that kind of luxury of friends where they would teach me how to fight. Knowing that I've been left alone at Mawita'mk Society because I'm some kind of loser. Clyde made me out to be a crybaby: a discrimination based on my age, sex and personal identity. He calls me a sook. 

And learning that he doesn't want me to defend myself or anything else, I find that Mawita'mk Society doesn't deserves blind trust; which that's what they're pulling for.

I know that every older person at Mawita'mk Society calls me a sook behind my back. Learning that they don't have any respect for me and in that they wanted something out of me. I know that calling me a sook is calling me a crybaby but only in Mi'kmaq.

They want me to lack courage when it comes to being truthful about them. But when it comes to me, I know that they are full throttle. 

It's a power imbalace personally speaking. I know that they want me to give up the truths because I got darker truths in my life. And I don't know if they have darkest truths in their lives. I don't have any generational evidences, examples, or historic stories to their names. My biological mother's story has been missing from my life since 1995. And knowing that I don't know my real dad's story, I know that people are willing to lie and make things complicated because they don't want me to discover what my real parents did in their lives.

Learning that if I don't post anything picture healthy I will be condemned to live a dependent life. Independence is an individualistic experience where I choose my jobs, a good deal of clean-up and feeding.

Independence is an intersubjective, intercultural and individualistic experience where I choose things, acts, friends, communities and other things. Where nothing that is reinforced by a support worker isn't a thing. The ideas and intersubjective reality comes to life when our communication network systems tells us something is real in the subjective conscious mind. A fantasy, an idea, imaginary entity or other mental status or psychokinetic skills. We tell our parapsychological interests that anything is possible. And telepathy, extra sensory perception, the sixth sense or clairvoyance, clairoaudience, psychic powers or a medium. 

We have intersubjective reality that could bear fruitful discussions, intelligent conversations or intercultural understanding.

I don't have clairsentience but I do have empathy in a normal, five senses kind of way. I know that I could be intuitive.

It does seem parapsychological at times but I assure you that some of my psychodiagnostics is purely and merely intellectualism and intuition mixed together. I know that I could tell differences in psycho-diagnoses. I know that I could tell the difference between an independent person and a well taken care of person. It's something like interpreting a dream, you cannot stick with one theory but constantly get re-educated in the person who is telling of the dream. Educationalism is a means of strategic planning and organizational skills that have been used, revived and modified in ways where a theory is not a complete picture. Of course it would be handy if you read the materials necessary to understand this. The ideas and compliments of what I'm trying to say, is that every male responsibility, and every masculine spirituality been canceled out because of feminist's view about gender studies and other things.

I believe that I could listen and be unbiased but I could also defend my views, protect my family and have a good life with myself because my stepfather has taught me: along with my real father, how to be a man in a proper way. I've been grieving over many things and have been learning about the emotional intelligence of male responsibility, relationships and friendships, and masculine spirituality from my uncles and aunties, from my stepfather's teachings, my real father's teachings and reconciled both styles into one philosophy. Well I'm still working on the ritual initiatory processes of what I'd learnt, and I know that that this theory cannot make sense because, to change theories and to be re-educated with the system. Is something that I needed because I know that Caucasian and non-native have been learning to dominate too much. And knowing that there is no concrete evidence of confusion or anything like with the growing up processes.

I know that there is a crises of patriarchal societies these days because nobody knows how to be a Man Psychology. Facebook as a public forum is a great idea. I could have family talk to me or something along the lines of that. They are humble enough to answer me and if not, fuck them. But usually they respond to me. I know that I've been learning a lot while I was at Mawita'mk Society. Before I came here I had Eskasoni Rehab Education and Cultural Awareness training credential, with counseling and group therapy. I had ALP education and got my diploma. I got NSCC Construction Trades Labor program and got my Certificate of Accomplishment. But that won't prepare me for the perils, overexaggerations or confusion of this world.

To add to the controversies of this world, it's to add to the confusion, enantiodroma and alexithymic confusion. I know that I don't have any value, power or respect to stop this world from falling apart.

I know that I'm criminally vulgar and charming in some ways. I know that I have been learning about Man Psychology and Boy Psychology. And about Dr. Carl Gustav Jung's works, Dr. Sigmund Freud's works, and Dr. Richard Bandler's works. I know a few copyrighted, published works that have caught my attention and I've enjoyed over the years. Raises morality issues but I could learn to figure them out. I know that I don't have any ageistic authority in me because I have no powers. I've been learning about works like Dr. Philip Zimbardo, Dr. John Gottman, Dr. Gabor Matè, Dr. Richard Bandler and others. I am thankful for the extent of knowledge I have but I want more.

I want to get knowledge in every field. And hopefully I can have a stream of consciousness in ways. I know enough to empty my knowledge; not forget but make room for more knowledge.

A polymath is a philomathean student of life. And I know that those kinds of people are the smartest, brightest, most creative and practical beings. I know that being clever and intelligent has its most interesting take. And knowing that I've been with family that has been connecting with people by talking about anything. I know that what I could say about certain science fiction can breathe an interesting take on positive masculinity, healthy male boundaries and responsibilities, good male morality and ethics. I know that women haven't been responsible in some respects; and those women that are responsible are working towards degrees, diplomas and credentials.

Some women have legal rights where they could abuse the child and get away with it. Sexually abuse the child and get away with so much. This is some women that have impacted my life.

I know the difference in treating a client and the healthy boundaries that I have to practice. 

I know that I don't fit any criteria or standard for women's taste. But I know that I've been learning a lot and hopefully I can learn to understand what defines a good woman and a bad one. I know that a measure of a man is to go through hell and still come out swinging. I know that people don't want me to develop a mental toughness. Learning emotional intelligence I know that I've experienced a good deal of graduations over the years, getting driving experience and Beginner's license. Of course I have to renew it now.

Having Facebook as a public forum now and these days. I know that people don't want me to talk about my truths because it's one-sided. I know that I am oppressed by their truths and I know that I've experienced abuses and discriminations in my youth.