Life Is Really Good pt 1

I have a good life here. I have a lot of good reasons, experience, evidences and examples of staying here. Knowing that I could specialize in anything. I know that I could get my three trades or 4. Specialize in those and it would definitely depend on what I'm practicing at the time. I know that a professional portfolio is an evidence-based and examples of my level of education, training and driving level. I know that I could learn trade business through Nova Scotia Apprenticeship Agency, through the Apprenticeship program. And ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute courses. I know that NSCC Community College is a good school. And I know that I could get my credentials from NSCC Community College, Nova Scotia Apprenticeship Agency, and ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute. First I have to graduate from Nova Scotia Graduated Driver's Licensing Program and Unama'ki College.

Hopefully I can maintain a good job through landscaping and gardening. I know that I have a lot of good examples of planting trees, so an study of dentrology, arboriculture and syliviculture. I want to specialize in being a woodsman, craftsman and bushman. I want to learn that culture, tradition and customs. I want to be a skilled forest Carpenter, a new specialty in building homes in Forestry. I want to learn my own piping systems, my own alternative energy makers, and have my medicine delivered to me by longitude, latitude and coordinates. That's why I want to get Unama'ki College's BA degree and BASE degree. I want the scientific principles, expositions and explanations of Forestry. I want to plan for everything. And ways to make my home sturdy and strong with the ancient trees. I want my bushman's and woodsman's husbandry, agronomy and argology. And figure how to get my own pulley system in place.

I want flexible robotics and nanotechnology, or soft robotics. I know that I want to have my own little business or profession of having my native roots in types of home around Mi'kma'ki, in the forest where I could claim my own lands around Nova Scotia. And be a Guardian-type of woodsman, Dentrologist, Arboriculturist, Community Landscaper, Syliviculturist and bushman, craftsman, forest worker. Hopefully I could have that kind of workethic, commitment and dedication to a lifestyle like that. Or a way of life. I want to get into building types of home by Peter Vetsch and Mike Holmes. I want to learn from the best of the greatest. I want to learn how to make a large enough house to hold a personal library, gym, electricity, piping systems, kitchen/dining room, bathroom/laundry room, back yard patio and deck, outdoor barbecue kitchen, playpen for my little ones, outdoor gym, butchery area, and a lounging fire pit.
I want to specialize in sustainable development in my home. Off-grid electric alternative sources. I know that I've been wanting to learn to to study sustainability, environment, types of home and a good understanding of different building principles. 

I want to make a home off-grid with alternative, sustainable energy sources and a good sturdy dome-shape home based on Peter Vetsch, and learn from his company and Mike Holme's company. I want to get the Two-Eye Seeing philosophy into construction industry, with Netukukimk and other sustainable development. I want to write a thesis or treatise on all this and work everything the right way to usage, wisdom and best writing practices by The Elements of Style.

I want to write a good understanding of these works into Peter Vetsch's building principles, NSCC and NSAA's building principles.

I want to come up with alternative building principles for homes out of the lands. And show my native people the business in eco-friendly homes. I hope that I could develop a community business in obtaining land for Peter Vetsch's style of a home. We have to figure out cost-effective ways and I think I have to be that pivotal, integral and central main interests in BASE degree, BA degree in triple majoring in Environment, Psychology and Addictions. I want to graduate from these programs first and specialize in dendrology, sylviculture, arboriculture, woodsmanship, biology in special interests in tree works. Learn from Unama'ki College and than learn from NSCC.

NSCC Carpentry Certificate program, NSCC Diploma program, NSCC Horticulture and Landscape Technology diploma program. I want to get these programs and work within We'koqma'q community and Chapel Island.

There are a few programs with environmentalistic qualities to them. Like NSCC Natural Resources Environmental Technology diploma program which is 2 years at Strait Area Campus, NSCC Climate Change-Building Performance Technology which is 1 year at Annapolis Valley campus, Ecological Forest Management Technology which is 1 year with advanced diploma, at Truro campus. 

NSCC Horticulture and Landscape Technology diploma program which is 2 years at Kentville, near Halifax. NSCC Thinning Saw Safety and Operations which unspecified date but 3 weeks at NSCC with a Microcredential Certificate. And Tree Planting Best Practices with unspecified date but it's 2 weeks with a microcredential certificate.

With NSCC Carpentry Certificate program it's a year at Dartmouth or Bridgewater. And I think at Wagmatcook Learning Center.

I hope that I could get my second transplant kidney. Hopefully I can get a good cardio fitness going and have a good deal of fat lost. 

I haven't been trying to lose the fat and I haven't been trying to get back into rhythm. I know that I want to be competent, motivated and willing to workout. The willpower is low, the energy is there, the determination is there, I just need willingness and motivation. I know that everyone does want they don't want to do. But me, I usually have a strong willingness to do something and do it. I know that I want to move back home and get that deed to 50 Horseshoe Drive Apartment. I want to make some big changes over the years.

Hopefully I can move back home with Billie Jean's help in driving. I know that they have schemed off of me all those years. Considering that I've given a considerable amount over the years.

They've haven't paid me back. I know that they try to cheat me out of my money. And learning that's what Billie Jean did. She and Katt has done it for years. Cheating me out of my food money and simply financially abusing me. 

They had no child with them then and they never financially respected me enough to pay me back. Hopefully I can work hard in Eskasoni. Have two full-time employments, a part-time weekend job and have my ladies in the mornings or evenings. I want to have a regular routine of getting women from Glendale, Blue's Mills and other places. I know that my sisters will pay me back by helping me getting my full driver's license and truck.

I hope to get dating and going out again. This time I have a level of education, trade training and driving level that I could renew my Beginner's license, work in construction or other laboring, and have a few jobs.

What's self-destructive on a blog? I think that listing my possible reasons, examples and evidence of having a transplant kidney is good with a level of education, trade training and driving level. I need to renew my ID and work within my possible realm of possibilities. I want to live my life independently and with a good support system in Eskasoni. Knowing that Eskasoni doesn't miss me and knowing that I've been gone for some time. I know that I've been experiencing a life that is really good. I know that first thing is to lose weight and get my second transplant kidney.

Life is really good here and I don't think that moving back to my old place with a kidney issue would be something useful. I don't have any privileges of living in Eskasoni because I've lived there before. And they've treated me terrible. Right from the get-go I was introduced to child addictions.

I know that I have kidney issues, weight loss cardio fitness training, and a good home to come to. I don't think I have a place anymore anyways. Everyone in Eskasoni look out for themselves, people that are from Eskasoni but moved still have that schemer's mentality. 

If any information that I give will be used and taken advantage of. I have dysfunctional friends who will take advantage of my information if I need to discuss it. I know that certain people don't respect me but acts like my friend. Anyways I have a home at Mawita'mk Society. I have a group home called Ni'kinen house. I have clothing check seasonally, I have comfort allowance every week. I have a work program to go to with benefits and perks.

I have a more personable bedroom. I have a good staff and excellent support service. I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. I have transportation and visits from family.

But if I could get a suite in Eskasoni I might be able to live closer. I know that I'm young and a nursing home is the last place I want to be. But all my family have already decided for me. Mawita'mk Work Program has conferences to work for, I have some income. 

Small monies with Mawita'mk Society. Mawita'mk Work Center is a place where I could go and live my life. I have to be Glooscap for the play. And I am learning to be patient with beadwork. My beadwork skills I hope to use in my shared living space. I know that people here have been respectful and honorable. Except with certain individuals or clients.

Culturally relevant and trained, I know that I could study the native language for my hometown nursing home. I know that I've been learning about business from Kelsey. And I know that what I have with Mawita'mk Society is good.

What I have with Mawita'mk Society is a sort of independent life. Sort of but Bernice don't trust my own ability to live my life on my own. Knowing that I don't have any psychiatrist at my side to check if I've recovered from this mental illness. I want my own place without Mawita'mk Society or Kiknu. I don't want a nursing home or a group home. I know that I cannot relate properly, I cannot think or feel the right way, and behaving is a little tricky. People wants me to think on my own when I need to work it out. Psychology is my specialty but not with women. I am still learning female psychology from Dr. John Gottman and Dr. Julie Schartz Gottman.

I know with Mawita'mk Work Program I have this Commission sales and fixed rate jobs. That's just a supplementations to my income with the comfort allowance I have every week. So I focus on my small money-work plans or schemes with Mawita'mk Society.

I know that I could learn to do small chores or house work with Mawita'mk staff. I know that I do pop bottles or recycling much as I can with Mawita'mk Work Center and Ni'kinen Group House. Hopefully I can get going with all this money work plans and schemes. My aunt Georgina is a source of inspiration to creative fashion. And I know that I could work handyman jobs and laboring jobs in We'koqma'q community. Once I get my second transplant kidney I hope that I could focus on small monies schemes(work plans for monies). And see what I know about building and repairing. But with Mawita'mk Work Program I could do plays for a $100 and commission sales on beaded necklaces.

I have small monies schemes( Work plans for cash or E-transfer), traditional artwork through beadwork. And a good understanding of my traditional arts and crafts.
I know that with Sheila I have to learn hands-on without any help. I know that I want to beaded earrings, dreamcatchers of different sizes, Christmas balls and other beadwork I could learn from her and YouTube. I know that people wants me to make beadwork for them. 

I've made beaded necklaces for the Hearing Their Voices conference. That and doing a Play called the Mi'kmaq Creation Story. I just gotta to grow attached to something like this and get into beadwork. Hopefully I can get a good momentum going with this conference gigs. I know that I want to grow accustomed, acclimated and used of beadwork. And I want to have a good inventory in my bedroom. If I start to carry my weight around here and do the lawn maintenance service, taking out the garbage and other yard work. I could earn a few bucks helping out with Mawita'mk staff. I want to have a good inventory of beadwork, leatherwork, woodwork and drawings.

I want to have a bunch of good reasons to stay in We'koqma'q community. My heart is in Eskasoni but I got over that grief. I have a good thing going on here and hopefully I can get something good going on here. I know that in Eskasoni I could get much more things happening in my hometown community. I know that I want to move back home, in my hometown apartment. Not in a nursing home. 

I know that I don't have any powers to get back into my old hometown 50 Horseshoe Drive Apartment. I know that I want to invest in that place. And have a bunch of good renovational rebuilding and additional work-ups on that kind of apartment.

I've lived fourteen years in a We'koqma'q group home. These experiences taught me life skills I could use in an single apartment setting. And away from a nursing home and a group home housing arrangements. People have little faith in my abilities to take care. But I know that I have a bunch of good reasons, experience, evidences and examples of living an independent lifestyle. With my level of education, trade training and driving level I could work on in Eskasoni while I'm on my own. I could become fully licensed driver, employable in every way, and have a good life in Eskasoni on my own. 

I know that I have to focus more on my self development where I have personal Growth Mindset, Can-do and Go-getter attitudes into a good work mentality. And enjoy myself while I do these beadwork projects and plays from Mawita'mk Work Program.  Besides Kiknu nursing home in Eskasoni is for those severely disabled and mentally ill, or autistic. I don't fit that category, criteria or standard of needs. I could take good care of myself in my own way. 

I am on my way to becoming a craftsman, Artisan and woodsman. I am learning from internet, Mawita'mk Society culturally, hopefully with I become a paragon of such expert competence in trades and other things that I become a expert experienced business entrepreneur. And learn all the business skills, tricks and tips, practices and customs, and have quality training programs in place for the Five First Nation communities in Cape Breton. Or maybe six. 

All my trade training and understanding of psychological works. Mental health literature and diagnostic manuals. I know that I have a bunch of good reasons to stay in We'koqma'q community because of mental health reasons. I am way more saner here than in Eskasoni. And plus if I do move back I'll drive with my list of credentials in my professional portfolio. And hopefully have credentials in my business portfolio. Effortfulness seems to elude me, the willingness to work on my self development and cardio fitness. I know that I want to be on my own when the time is right. When I have reached full fruition of my level of independence, get my level of education, training and driving level added and richly experienced in schools, universities and academies, colleges too. 

But I know that I would drive back home with an apartment lined up, all my small/community businesses in We'koqma'q transferred to Eskasoni, if I can with a bunch of reference letters, recommendations and commendation letters from Chief and Council, from respected community members and others. I want to have a good quality of work performance standard in a habitual thinking experience. I want to have a long-term careers in We'koqma'q community where I've built respect in the community through promissory letters or contracts. And learn to write my own contract up. Have that experience in online, and other places of the globe. I want a professional prestigious quality of durable, good work performance established here.

So I have to work on my cardio fitness, muscular endurance and strength training. And core body strengths. Hopefully I can work on my body this year. I feel that eventually I will have a good body. I have to exercise where I sweat and have to workout where I have muscular development. I have to get back into the gym this week. 

If I could start my rental business, landscaping and general Contracting I want to do, and JP Syiboy's Quality Crew business. I could put a lot of good people into training programs I want to create. And have a few good business training in laboring safely and pro-actively. I could put them through training I had, educate them with what I had, and have them knowing what I know. 

I am that kind of independent thinker where I have the potential to live on my own, drive a car and have my own place. With a few trade businesses in Eskasoni, a few transferred businesses from We'koqma'q community to Eskasoni, and have a good quality of life in Eskasoni. Knowing this my family thinks that I have a severe mental health issue where I don't take my medicine. I take them regularly and I actively stay away from drugs and alcohol. I know that I'm much happier that way. And knowing that I've been sober for fourteen years I know that I'm much more happier in terms of recovering, personally growing and holistically evolving, and having a good life in We'koqma'q community.

I have a enrichen life where I have a level of education, trade training and driving level where I could drive on out of here, have my own place somewhere else, and have my independence and financial independence in another place. I hope that I could get a good cardio fitness and weight training because all these possibilities of my life with a second transplant kidney. I know that I am hated and lucky at the same time. I don't have any powers, influences, value, significance, respect and resources to use in my hometown community. I've sobered up put of my hometown. I want to work personally on my cardio fitness. Which this year I've started in late January. 

I have to keep focus on my training and cardio fitness training. Hopefully I can get something going with my life. I know that I don't have any attractive desirability or qualities or characteristics or traits or muscles or height or riches or extra curricular activities or careers or business. But I have to write a few business plans, business letters and a rental promissory.