In This Multiverse: Situated in Dimensions of Hell because of Addicts' Pettiness

In this universe there is multifaceted sufferings in a multi-generational prejudicial way. I know that these stratifications have been partly because we are fighting good and evil on a superficial level. We are not neuroethically trying to figure out how we can use social psychology to the maximum, to be "evil" smart through literature and other works. How do we use resourceful beliefs (working beliefs) and useful suggestions in strength-based lifestyle? Imagine the depth and multifaceted, multi-generational prejudicial sufferings on an egocentric biased way where we only see one side of the argument. "This person hurt me" ego-state instead of having an epiphany of what to do. We'koqma'q community is way behind and so is many other rural, First Nation communities. 

Eskasoni might have the best communal infrastructure. But do they have e-commerce computer systems and backups? I know that in Eskasoni people would scheme instead of work. They put all that work into scheming when they could work legitimately and earn a living. They could put their energy into reading and applying that knowledge system to their lives. I know that I don't match up with anyone in Eskasoni. That's why Chief and Council don't trust their fellow members to live a productive lifestyle. They are all addicts and schemers. Eskasoni should be the best place with their own types of bank on the community. And have a more successful, self-sustainable community. If Eskasoni was all upstanding community members and had their own ways of making money legitimately. I know that Eskasoni Chief and Council members would trust their own fellow community members with types of bank. 

Anyways being controlled and influenced by Dodo at a young age, being situated and reminded why I cannot study social psychology, Neurolinguistic Programming, neuroethics or how to better my life in ways have been a difficult struggle between abandoning his beliefs system for doctors'/professors' works. He used social psychology of discrimination and prejudice against a child addict who was taught addictions, sex and traumas just because "you had to grow up" he says. His operational definition of "grow-up" was to introduced certain realities and project his needs onto me for being smart and brave. Dodo has been disabling me since I was able to talk. If I'd told the truth many times, maybe my mother wouldn't of cheated. But I couldn't explain what was going on in my mind in Eskasoni Rehab and family situations because my stepfather didn't want that kind of responsibilities. 

I was left to proven a point that anyone was susceptible to corruption, demoralizations and anonymity because Dodo had all these issues through Intergenerational trauma. I know that Dr. Philip Zimbardo is one of the doctors I trust most because people that try to prove a point, is the most hateful and situated in Dimensions of Hell because of Addicts' Pettiness. Through his pettiness he has been damaging and corrupted because of certain belief and value systems of the old that are in place. I don't believe that Dodo believes in virtues or have coping skills. He believes in raw sufferings because he wants to destroy my life. 

Situated character transformations in the dimensions of hell have created the complex post-traumatic stress disorder and Religious Trauma Syndrome, you'll have a good deal of social psychology of discrimination and prejudice where people divorced themselves from "Am I capable of evil?" Questions. My step family have suffered Complex Guilt Syndrome and a good deal of cynicism and obsession-like worries. I know that I have Complex Post-traumatic Stress disorder and Religious Trauma Syndrome but I know that my step family have a lot to consider. My mother believe in good suffering (exercise and fitness and diet, beneficial sufferings) and bad suffering (beatdowns, types of abuse for punishment, religion and culture of rape). 

Two types of pain: inner and physical. You want to understand how violent people believe in violence and psychology than there is room for how psychology of discrimination and prejudice works. Instead of Internal Family System, there should be Inter-Indigenous Family Trauma System. I know that I've been learning about trauma and addiction from Dr. Tian Dayton, I know that Dr. Philip Zimbardo have taught see beyond the pain and see the social trauma situation. And so did Dr. Gabor Matè and others. I know from my experience I'd suffered Complex Post-traumatic Stress disorder and Religious Trauma Syndrome which my grandmothers have whole-heartedly believed in. They didn't get over their traumas and learning that I was loved and valued in ways of truths. I know that I've been aware of a lot over the years. 

I know that in my own twisted logic there is hope for healing through a loving environment, caring people and traditional means. I know that I had a lot to consider over the years I've been here. Parents don't get it easy and uncles are pain in the ass when they drink. I know that universal love is not religious love. I know that our acculturation of European countries and Religion have made us move away from our First Contact. Post-truth social trauma situation have been something that have been perpetuated through adding more Complex Guilt Syndrome. The self hatred they have for themselves and the historic healing should happen. That narrow scope of ego-state have people thinking in their Child Ego-state. Fighting over the last resources they find in the market. 

I believe in healing frequencies and an abundance of wealth(depending on your definition of riches), health and safety. I know that in our homes we don't see the animals that pass on by when a cabin or loghouse is built. In society they don't want you to have identity, worth, feelings and independent thoughts like hunting, survivalism, living off-grid or having ability. With schizophrenia people believe in a disability-like mental illness that haven't been diagnosed but it was guesswork. I know that schizophrenia is a spectrum of psychoses that have been perpetuated in mental health. As much as religion have been wanting people to follow them blindly. I know that people believe in the science and technology of medicine. I believe in Neurolinguistic Programming, which Dr. Richard Bandler's Work inspired me to read, Dialectal Behavioral Therapy, which Dr. Marsha Linehan's creation has inspired me to read too. And Dr. Philip Zimbardo's works like Time Perspective Therapy has that kind of imspiration too. Mostly American Psychological Association [APA] have recognized PTSD and it was Dr. Zimbardo's Theory in Timecure that I wanted to study for myself.

In Dr. Linehan's creation has implications and a creative mind in academia that has been a learning curve. I know that Dr. Carl Gustav Jung has his creation in Modern Man's Search for a Soul. Which has a creative terms and theories too. A guy that should be a doctor/professor has coined a few terms but used excellently terms, words and theories, which he has created The Rational Male. Dr. John Gottman has a few ideas of his own in his oeuvre of books. If I finish most of these books I could understand, for myself the world we live in today. Why there is online hypersensitivity in this world. I got books that'll give you a whole different level of epinioa (inner Multiverse) and work the ideas and ways and styles of Warrior Writers. 

Living ideally in peace I reflect and think in a good way. I know that my past is riddled with shame, guilt, traumas, grief and types of mistreatments that in my childhood, whatever little good moments I had; I'd enjoyed a good life in Eskasoni with my step family. They'd been both good n' bad, excellent and worse, confident in their dominance and hypoagency in their responsibility. I know that Dodo always had a level of damage control in my life. Somehow, someway everyone I was involved in, it was an experiment I couldn't escape. It was an incredible experience of abuse and mistreatments over the years with little good moments versus their successes of schemes. I used the word "scheme" to be productive. I used hustle for energetic attentive work. I know my step uncle wanted me to be stuck in hypoagency because he didn't want his conscience riddled with responsibility. 

He wanted to earn respect, he has to put quality in his redemptive work. I know that I was a Martian in Indigenous hometown because nobody was a heavy intellectual authority in the community. A level of keenness and mental acumen for theory of multiple intelligence and social psychology, I was learning to hang on to the truth. I don't have any supports for my own traumas and past addictions. But I know that people are hiding and learning how people throw me under the bus because I have truths. I know that they are moral cowards and are confused why I ain't telling the truth. I know that the power of truth is in their memories. Learning that they cannot escape their memories, I know that truthologists or truth-seekers are people that will make connections and communication skills real. 

I know that I'm a criminal suffering the consequences of past abuses that have created this modern mind of  traumas (Complex Post-traumatic Stress disorder and Religious Trauma Syndrome), complicated grief and past addictions experience. I realize that people don't want the truthfulness of their memories to come to terms and work into their ruling mindset. Since I was a child I was struggling with addictions. And certain people wanted the iceberg of the truth. They took what they needed and conflated it with their versions of my past. That's why I'm alone because of gold-diggers, female addicts, fiends(Sexually experienced teenagers), girls that uses hypoagency and hypergamy. I know that that's toxic females that exaggerates their experience and educational learning. 

In this universe there is a room for social psychological skills(Neurolinguistic Programming, Dialectal Behavioral Therapy, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and other therapies and skills like Emotional Intelligence/Emotional Literacy, Attunement and other coping skills) from the psychological warfare tactics in every day society to make a good way of living. I know there is multifaceted sufferings in multi-generational prejudicial ways where people don't want to get over their pettiness. I know that I had a lot of good reasons to become skilled and knowledgeable in mental health literature. And neuroethics and strong in virtues. You get to choose what you cope with, or what you endure or tolerate. I know that I had to think of my step Uncle's extreme guilt and shame. See I believe in guilt but I don't believe in shaming. With a level of guilt your mind says you've done wrong but with shame it says you are the identity of wrong. 

These two emotions could be because you've done wrong and have something fucked up in your mind. Throughout history there have been debilitating shame, overwhelming physical punishments (abuses and vindictive beatings), humiliations and talk-downs. Dodo have been doing that to me since I was child. Learning to cope with my feelings and learning to emotionally witness the memories pass on by, is a gift of strengths from my Godmum. I had many men tried to get Dodo to let go of my mind and let me be independent and learning. But he has hated me and being a helix tied to a spiraling object falling down. I was fucked because Dodo wanted me to die horribly. And knowing that key players of my safety was alive. I have to reconsider my move back to my hometown. 

I don't want this schizophrenia, or drug-induced psychosis to be in my life forever. I want to recover from this schizophrenia because I heard it took a decade- ten years to recover- or twenty years. Considering that I have a therapist and I know that I have to re-evaluate my past based on my current entertainment systems and wealth. I know that in Eskasoni there are fiendish addicts who don't want to recover from their past. I know that it's safer at Mawita'mk Society and in society I don't have to economically adjust. Just understand that I have financial independence and literacy in Whycocomagh RBC. I need to get a second transplant kidney and recover. 

I know heaven or a paradise because I've known those three things that a child needs to grow; safety, security and certainty. My parents taught me to walk in with self-efficacy, self-confidence and self-esteem. I know that I know boundaries, respect and trust in the process. Not ageism, abuse and mistreatments because that's their way. I know because I am schizophrenic I have 5 more years to make twenty years. And hopefully I'm alright. I know that Clyde wants me to fight him because he has muscles. He is more of a coward that don't want me to get in shape because I would pound his head in. Roderick Gould don't know how to be without bullying. Clyde, Wayne and Lolie (Mi'kmaq name for Roderick) don't know how to be stigma-free. Nor do Mike or anyone else here. 

I know that people struggle with concepts because they refuse to give up this cultural ageism. But I know that I'd enjoyed the past 14/15 years of my past with Mawita'mk Society. Hopefully I can become a professional health care assistant or at least janitor at We'koqma'q Band Office. I know that I want to learn all the skills and practices, customs and procedures, protocols and other works to do the job I could be something of. I just want to be part of this community's infrastructure. We'koqma'q community is a growing community and knowing the battles they'd face, the legal warriors' Post-traumatic Stress disorder, the addiction issues and the people that struggle with grief. I know that I had a lot of issues in Eskasoni. I was distressed and forgotten my skills. 

But I felt that I could get DBT Skills program training and CBT training. Educationalism is a strategic learning experience, not anti-intelligence or methods to control information. The strategy part is teaching the study skills needed for habit-forming and learning. Navigating the educationalism is a guiding force of online ideas and in-person conversations. I know that we could come up with ways of creating safety, security and certainty in the building. I know that I have been humbled and taught about recovery models and how to be resilient, but in a different way for me. 

The power of a place is what my supports have tried to figure out. I know that I don't deserve hatred or anger because none of the relatives that have been involved, or pseudo-involved in my life in a superficial level. I have been learning serenity of sufferings and the reflections of my past. Trying to see the positive in the duality of good and bad that was my past life. Hometown Eskasoni doesn't necessarily mean I have to return. I am living in peace and learning from my past. My hometown community has been homey to me. The dualistic weighing of my historical justice issues haven't made to the courts. I am paranoid schizophrenic and most people hate me. Wondering why I want a car or truck. 

I wasn't taught true independence because my choices were limited to feelings and consequences. With people that had no business in my life because they are twisted and stupid. Not having no respect for people like me, that have been taught independence is something that is conditional and I cannot protect my peace or self-love because everyone keeps thinking I'm gay. Forces me into situations that I have no business being in, plus I don't have any respect for my money and choices, I don't have any respect for my independence because it's conditioned to response and react to certain people's emotions. I cannot choose what I want because certain people fuck me up. The big brother that I have been my strength and personal right thinking guidance, has passed on and I cannot relate to anyone because they don't respect me at all. 

I had conditional confidence because my step family always had the psychological control of creating emotional messes in my head. And teaching me how to think. Dodo had narcissistic personality tendencies which probably was worst for my childhood because I always have this prepared creativity and philosophical arguments against a grown adult narcissist. I couldn't end the argument at one point in my life until my step father stepped in. Nobody wanted me to run my own brain or mind because they wanted to claim my soul. I know that I don't have pleasant dreams in a way. 

But as I grew and learned, I was on the precipice of learning my individualistic independence. Then they give knowledge because they want to be credited with their level of controllability in my life. I had to move away in order to rediscover my self-efficacy in my individualistic independence. When individualism serves them well, they would use extreme prejudicial pettiness to make me feel like shit. People say that they are truthologists, or truth seekers. I know that people lie and manipulate me so badly that I don't know them. If you ain't true to me at first, than I cannot be true with ya. And if you do find the truth in me. That's your power over me because you've infected my life so badly with toxicity from addictions and traumas, that I cannot enjoy the present because I need truthfulness. You discover or reason that I don't need truthfulness from you. Than I know that's toxic manipulations because you aren't well emotionally. And I have to stay away from you. 

I know and recognize abusers technologically, financially, economically, nutritionally, domestically, electronically, physically, mentally, relationally, hegemonically, emotionally and spiritually. I know that people that don't respect privacy, wants power over everyone. I've been through so much that misrepresentations of my life have been post-truth. What about the Elders and old people in my life? Why do I have to obey authority bias in order to keep them in their level of comfort? They don't want me arguing and want me blindly obeying. I know that people don't want me critically and creatively thinking for myself. What's right by them is obeying them. Listening to some. 

Those are the worst people, people that needs to control and me to listen to them because they are emotionally weak or have weaken me through their ageistic, hegemonic influence. I know that people aren't sane in the right way. They want me more insane, more suffering. I have all these bad memories about them throughout my life; yeah they did good in some small way. And emphasized it in my head while lionizing their ways, beliefs and values and knowledge systems. I know that I'm just one kid and have respect for them to a certain degree. But if they are going to make me the brunt of the joke because they have discriminatory, hegemonic power and collective bigotry. Than I don't want any part of them. 

I hate people who likes discriminatory practices, collective bigotry and stereotyping from a groupthink experience. I know that I've been learning from books and podcasts, pdfs and dictionaries, encyclopedias and eBooks. People believe that they have a right to abuse because of their feelings. Well, they haven't studied enough to prove me wrong. Yes, they are coming from a twisted logic of compassion, love and caring and respect. But I say that people don't want me to stand up for my beliefs. They consider my way nothing when I haven't properly defined my way. Clearly jumping to conclusions is their specialty. I had a direction one time ago. 

Family have made me the brunt of the joke because they don't respect me. They don't value me as much as my stepfather's family, like Mark and others do. I know that they embarrass me online because they don't have any considerations for my feelings. I can go that way, or I can say if they aren't making fun of me they don't like me. Everyone hates me because I did not know how to control my emotions when it came to the mix. My real father didn't care much about who abused me, that's why he made me mistaken the importance of learning how people are. 

I should've taken people's questions seriously because there was a lot of people questioning the Morrison family. And Dodo was protecting what he could against me. I know that I was the brunt of jokes because people are mad at me for not answering them.

Anyways, I am learning that people are making me the brunt of the joke because I didn't verify or took my abusers to court. I know that I had a few of them that are tricky, manipulative and good. But I have one that are terrible influence in my life and allows herself to have certain liberties and freedoms because she got all boys in her life. I know that I don't have's any back-up or soldiers going to her house to get the truth out of her and them. I feel kind of stuck that I don't have any real powers or influence in the Morrison family's hegemony. 

I've been learning to deal with certain people my way and have a good life in ways. I know that my aunt Lori Aquan can be tricky and everything. But I feel that I cannot get truths out of her because her boys have protected her all her life. I know that I don't have any training from sports or martial art or military because I am not a moral coward. I know when people do me wrong and have to hide because of their shame and guilt. I feel that my biological mother isn't around to protect me n' learning that certain people have a good grip over my truth-telling. The Morrison-Doucette family is a good example of corruption and abuse. They think that violence and abuse is their way to treat me until I submit to their ways. And I have because I got no backup or have nobody on my side. I know that I am not a deadly force and the Morrison-Doucette have convinced me of certain things. And beat me down when I was feeling it. 

The confidence they could create and the lies and mistreatments of me. I know that they blame me for my older brother's bullying. I know that if I'd worked with my older brother I'd would've gotten the truth out and had all this settle. I know that I am ganged up and the Morrison do get their ways through lies, hypocrisy, duplicity, manipulations and force.