JP(Wolfman)John Peter Syliboy(Syliboy Warrior(DC Universe Online))

With everything I've accomplished in We'koqma'q community, I say that I might've shifted towards good appreciative happiness in this home. I say that I might've needed people in my life. But what about my independence? Am I supposed to simply give up and let them do all the work? No! But it would've been easier. I have to carry much of my own weight as possible still but in the context of Mawita'mk Support System. I have to keep working towards my life goals and goals of independence. Hopefully I can work and keep at a life where I could be myself and they expect me to be a provider/protector kind of guy. But for now I have to enjoy the kind of support they are giving. I know that it's not the kind of life I would want. But it's a life and I have to live it. I know that people with real powers in a relationship don't need me because I don't have any real powers. Discourse in power is that I don't need powers to make an impact with the r...

Somtimes things can be disguised as righteous love. Through family psychology and mind games, you become a skilled professional liar. What is a lie and what is maximum intellectual creativity?  People can discriminate based on family psychology. The truth about family is that they are much important to you as they are in your life. That's what Barbara said. I had no real love and deep attachments of loyalty and mutual respect from this mixed step family. I never was something dateable. I look for truths, facts and love. I know that I don't have any real meanings from marriage, dates, long-term relationship or anything like that. I'm more likely to be alone for the rest of my life because I don't have any attractive desirability or qualities or characteristics or traits or muscles or height or riches. But my family would strengthen that inner beauty!  But I have wasted my twenties because I don't have any long-term relationship experience. I know that I wanted to cho...

I know that I had a computer in the house. I had a messenger identity and I could've made my online videos in pranking my grandmother. She was a stringent kind of woman if caught off guard. I wanted to use my YouTube account for music and I had messages on my Messenger window.  Sometimes I could've read my messages, other times I had to play my Playstation. It was a magical device that allowed me Search Engines and music hacks. I could've learned much from my cousin Ray. And I know that I did not get invited to parties and stuff. But at night I was on it while I had research and pornography because no woman would want me. Even that I would get into trouble like they were my parents. That much I understand now because I still look at porn. My game hasn't changed and my step-parents wanted me wilfully ignorant. Or controlled. Their methods were sneaky and conniving. They didn't believe in teen sexuality which was okay kind of experience. I had pop bottles and an fin...

Before I went insane or moved to Leonard Paul's apartment building. I'd moved to Eskasoni, Horseshoe Drive Apartment 50. I had a good simple life because I did not needed anyone in it. I know that I had been meeting people who wanted to ruin my life.  Rob Shipley kept on breaking into my place to steal certain groceries because I did not eat(so he claims). It wasn't my problem that he had to pay Eskasoni Welfare for his schemes. I know that I did not have any happy home with him. It was desolate every time he left. I couldn't have a secured and safe apartment because I never experienced that. I know that people kept on sneaking in while I went on a job. People did not wanted me to get ahead. They wanted my place to be under my name and them playing around with my place. My place was unsafe, unsecured and dangerous to live in. I didn't have any friends to back me up or had security cameras from friends. But before that I would cook, clean and keep my place organize...

My sister sold me out. I don't like it that she wants me to be exposed with my codes. But I know that I could change my access codes. I know that my worth in terms of sports isn't that much. I know that my worth in terms of early graduation from grade 12 isn't that much. But I love my sisters all the same. I love and I am proud of how far all my siblings came. They've gotten their graduation I think and I know that I love them even I'd they didn't. My Brothers Mark and Sonny graduated in 2013 and 2012. And my sisters Katt and Billie Jean graduated in 2013 and 2009. I am happy and proud that me and my family have reached this far in our lives. I know that my family hasn't graduated from trade school but that's alright. They could take their sweet time in getting their degree or diploma. I know that it could be a Certificate too. As long as it's a credential I would be happy. I know that I love my siblings and I value them for their inputs. Feeling p...

Before I went mentally unstable a little. Before I went back to my old addictions. I was sobering up and smoking cigars and cigarettes. I know that I didn't need to back in 2005 be this kid who needed much to grow. I know how to cook and build. I just didn't remember because my step uncle was hiding.  I was living in Sydney, Cornallis Street where the most racist people lived. Schemers and Liars. I know that I did not needed to get back home. I know that certain people tried to rip me off and I did not have any respect to work, live and use my skills. Feeling like I was trapped in a world where nobody was proud of me, not even my family. They were jealous and wanted me to suffer. Certain family members. I've been struggling with work discriminations from landlords and the people who wanted me to stop doing what I needed to do. I know that I've been learning about psychology. And learning about how discriminations works within the organizations. Ableism, sexism, classi...