JP(Wolfman)John Peter Syliboy(Syliboy Warrior(DC Universe Online))

I know that there isn't any virgin ladies out there. Learning that I've lost opportunities for years to come when I didn't socialized with Eskasoni. I knew that I was going to because the traumas that I've suffered made the word "suffering" a bad word. I know that we all suffer every day and night. We have to suffer when moving because that's fitness. I used to suffer for fitness. I used to endure and be tough. See? Suffering makes us stronger physically and mentally. Too much compassion would annoy me. My life have been about suffering because I am that tough. "Tough" meaning to withstand adverse conditions or able to endure hardships. "Suffer" meaning to undergo something difficult, unpleasant or painful. Fitness is painful and good eustress helps manage the pains of repetitions in fitness. I don't think I value my body because I haven't suffered fitness lately. I've suffered emotional traumas without working on the suff...

I've witnessed a cheating of my biological mother where she stressed me to keep the secret of what I've witnessed. Reading about childhood traumas like beatings over the years, childhood addiction and a good deal of sustained stress from Dodo and my mother.  They didn't want me to admit that I was sexually abused and sexually active. The children of Eskasoni trying to compensate for their losses of childhood. But my real father makes the idea of living a hardship that I did not want. There is philosophy of suffering, the logic of suffering and discipline that comes from suffering. I've lost all my original immediate family members from my arsenal and don't have anyone to correct my thinking.  But I know that suffering is a good thing. It means that I have control over my narrative of suffering.  Suffering for the right people means that I have to take the brunt of more traumas and shaming. They could work the conviction and weaken it. Demoralizations is all about w...

They say that elders are wise. They hold the powers for independence and they ain't supposed to. Allowing us using knowledge and skills from experience is learning that I value my elders. All except my biological mother. She wasn't truthful and that damaged my relationship with my old man and stepfather. I was taught Small Engine repair by an elder but I did not learn anything. I know that something isn't right I want to fight. My instincts to fight with Other Authority in my life has been struggling with my rebelling heart, anti-authority mind and trained instincts. Barbara has gotten me listening to my biological mother. But my biological mother have taught me to never give up. I know that I was learning to ration my water bottle and learning to be mindfully focused on the exercise. I know that my biological mother have taught me to get out of my head. And let the flow of things happen because I had common sense. I used to have a peaceful and happy mind when my grandmot...

I know that I could live ideally in We'koqma'q community with Mawita'mk Society. But I am goal-oriented and I want to move out on really good terms of independence, level and depth of education, training and experience in jobs. With my books I think I could learn to charm a woman by being there for her emotionally speaking. I know that Dr. John Gottman has this emotional, evolutionary psychology to a woman. And getting her seems to be a dance in the elaborate labyrinth of games. That's what is exciting. I know that I don't want any extra responsibility and I know that I'm not well trusted. I don't know why women don't trust me and have this repulsion against me. I know that I'm lessen of a man because I don't have any attractive desirability or qualities or characteristics or traits or muscles or height or riches or extra curricular activities in my life. Women simply don't like me. Stinking thinking is a addiction term. And that's what...

I know that I had a lot of good moments with music. I've enjoyed rock and roll, alternative rock and heavy metal. Learning that I had a good life in Eskasoni with a certain can-do attitude and growth mindset in my life. There was a lot of challenges I've had to overcome.  And with my stepfather, counselor and everything I've had for support. I had a good life from this perspective. I have a good life now and I'd had a good education from my community-operated school system. I know that greed speaks to my family. I am disabled and have to deal with an over-emotional brother. Death or eschatology isn't taught. I had a good support system in Eskasoni. Ideal and good but not protective or preventive. They allowed me to learn about the real world. I know that I have faced with schemers, thieves, cowards, bullies, addicts, misers and fiends. They are all enemies of hard-earned stuff. And enemies of my health. Extortionists, RCMP racists, Indian Act, Indian Residential S...