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Who Am I?

The Relationship Cure book is a really good book. Emotional communication skills to emotional heritage and emotional command systems is an interesting thing. The things that I want to learn and the social cues and emotional bids that I have to decipher. The perception is only sharpen through knowledge or wisdom. Dr. John Gottman have solved most of the mysteries of the socioeconomic complexities of society. And I an learning what he is saying. And learning from Roger Merrill and Dr. John Gottman I feel thankful and happy that I got this knowledge. It's  practical intelligence that we are learning. I am learning the socioeconomic balance of careers, opportunities and personal life. I know that I could learn much as I can in Mawita'mk Society because it's a safe place and I know that I will learn. I've watched the documentaries of First Nations and movies. I know what it's like to live my life. I know that I will have to be patient with learning and being a student ...

A Rich Personal History: I Hope That You're Happy

For a long time I've felt miserable in Eskasoni, a delusional happiness of a good life that was below good. It was meager life of no academic achievements and professional development. I know that I did not have what I had now. A ALP diploma, a Certificate of Accomplishment credential in Construction Trades Labor program. A We'koqma'q Adult Essential Skills Enhancement Program Certificate. A We'koqma'q Men's Wellness program Certificate, a Unama'ki Driving School Certificate and a Eskasoni NADACA Prevention Online Wellness program Certificate. A NSCC Nova Scotia Skills Record Certificate and a Eskasoni Treatment Center Certificate. I know that I got a good upbringing and a good education in We'koqma'q community. I'm originally from Eskasoni and I should have more Certificates from there. But them the breaks. I'm not that proud because most of those are participation certificates that I got over the years. I know that I got a good teachings,...

Fortunate and Thankful

I've lived a life filled with traumas, anxiety and miseries. I know that I had my stepfather to thank for all the supports that my family had brought. I know that I need to confess but I cannot right now because they had been a good influence so far: Mawita'mk Society. It was hard for me to admit this because I had such love for my hometown. I wanted to thrive and prosper in Eskasoni but I couldn't because of certain people. I know that I wanted connections to employment and professions. I know that I wanted to network with my fellow community members. The lost opportunities I have now are my, mine alone. I know that somehow, some way I will make it to the TRIUMF University and live my life there. I know that I don't know what it's like to live outside of my hometown community. Mawita'mk Society has served me well and I want to thank them for their support, service and great hospitality. Through Mawita'mk Society and Mike MacInnis, I am learning to accept ...

Better Off Emotionally Awake

The powers over my mind is mine alone. I know that I need to live my life in a productive regular basis where I get accustomed to work, exercises and recreational study. Depending on my mood at the evening. I want to do early morning exercises where I could start my day strong. I want to get accustomed to a active, regular efficient daily basis kind of productivity with a pro-active grip, endurance and patience to enjoy the movements and strength. I want to learn how to work on certain aspects of my life that would benefit me in the long run. I know that I don't have any responsibilities like kids or parents to take care of. I know that I'm enjoying my single life where I am progressing nicely. My life is much easier in terms that I live at Mawita'mk Society and its an ideal place to work on my personal growth. To enhance my aspects of life in terms of a first car. My first fully licensed driver's license and a BA degree. I want to graduate from all these programs whe...

Fortunate

Yes, I am grieving for some losses in my life. The loss of my uncle Alex, the loss of my desire to go Eskasoni. The loss of connections and political advantages. The lost of relationships with women that I used to have. And the lost of my emotional sanity. I cannot really give up right now. I have been fortunate enough to have such a good life. And I know that I want to have everything I need to be independent at Mawita'mk Society. I know that I have been living with Mawita'mk Society for a while. I know that I had some saying to in how they've been treating me. I know that I want to be able to choose my own fate. I know that I could settle for one chick but I know that I have to live my life with Mawita'mk Society. I've lost my apartment and I know that I've lost my sex life for the time being. I just got to get back on the horse and keep on riding. I know there is a good place in We'koqma'q community. I know that I've enjoyed many outings with th...

Trying to Take Heart

My sister Billie Jean has been going through financial stress. And learning this, I've learned that her phone broke. And she has been trying to get us on Public Mobile incorporation. I know that my sister means well but I could understand her frustration with bills. I know that I have to be more appreciative of what I have. This Android smartphone is versatile and I like this phone. I know that I had a chat with my sister and she said she will handle everything. I will just have to pay $50 a month and it will be financially easier. I hope that it's a good plan and I hope that I could go back on Bell Mobility as I go into my new job with Mawita'mk Center at the highway. I know that I'll need to have a pay increase or raise on my pay. Hopefully, every two weeks I get paid and hopefully, I can get a good pay out of this kind of employment. Bell isn't a good company. Eskasoni has kept me down and beat me down there for their own sense of fun or violence. I know that I...

The Philosophy of Self-containment pt 2

I know that learning things by myself means reading recreationally. I know that kind of independence at Mawita'mk Society where I could choose my snacks or to follow the advise of a nurse isn't a choice at all. I believe that getting knowledge, information and data from books, eBooks and pdfs on a regular basis is a good thing. I know that I want to learn much as I can because I know that I've learned knowledge, tradition and language through my family. See, perpetuating dependency is a psychological conditioning of my mind that requires me to listen in order for me to use certain faculties. My ability to choose is reduced to a element of choice and I don't even get that. The image that Mawita'mk Society respects my independence is a lie. They love to control everything in my life. They don't know how to take criticism and they assume the worst. Most of these people have their lives. Mawita'mk Society needs to show that they care through letting me choose....

The Philosophy of Self-containment

I know that someday I will find love. Lucky are those who find young love and live their lives to the fullest potential of their personal growth. The enhancement of personal lifestyle is a good thing. Especially when coming from so much struggles and miseries.  I am self-contained, meaning that I enjoy my solitude because I'm strong enough to be alone. There is a philosophical notion or inkling or sense about that. An ancient immortal's epistemological one that comforts and loves. What is the beginning of the ancient philosopher's origin knowledge? How to make the baby years interesting? But I have been doing my first day at Mike Power's men's building workshop. I know that I like to live my life with someone but I'm 35 years old and I'm kind of used of the downtime, solitude and being independent in a way. Moments that defined my independence back in the day. Yesterday I've made my bed, changed my clothes and went for my injection, waited at Therasa M...