JP(Wolfman)John Peter Syliboy(Syliboy Warrior(DC Universe Online))

My particulars are going to get me killed. I know that I have to let Mawita'mk Society do their job but I want my independence. I know that I want to be in the Shadows. I feel like this is my blog and I get to personalized it as a journal. Just to get some stuff out of my system. I know that I'm still learning to deal with myself and my idiosyncrasies and particulars. I feel that I hadn't any love in my life because I don't make a good lover. I am selfish, I want to have my independence for myself. I hope that I don't end up on the streets and mentally ill. I know that I'm stuck here because of my family and disabilities. I know that there is inflation. And I know that I'm still looking for ways to make money. I know that I want some kind of income to pay for online stuff like World of Warcraft and other online gaming I hope to pay for. I want to learn all the necessary online stuff I need to make a good PS account. I have online social media accounts, Pla...

I know that I'm related with the Jown family. I know that I an related the Syliboy family. The Jown family is in Eskasoni, Paq'tnkek, Membertou and other places I don't know. I feel that my family identity and personal identity is rich. I have the Catholic Church, Mi'kmaq tradition, Christmas, Vatican Church, Schools and other things that define me. I have reached up to Grade 9 before I had anything. I know that I was discriminated with bosses. I know there was a type of favoritism. There is so many ways to believe in my hometown. I know that my Jown family is large and my Syliboy family is large. I know that I'm still learning about the family tree. My biological mother is a Jown. And my birth father is a Syliboy. So I was adopted by the Morrison family. And treated like I was a fragile and easily used kind of person. But when it came to certain jobs around the house or yard I was yelled at and tiraded. I couldn't really get used of work because I did not pos...

I never done sports, never entered military service or went to a company. I never was a sportsman or RCMP or anything. I know that I've been used to make an organizations look good. Even my own stepfather don't want me.  I have absolutely no fucking connections to the employment systems or anything. I know that I'm not trained in anything that I'm good with. And I know that I don't have any careers or jobs. I know that people wanted me to suffer. I am an absolutely nobody that was traumatized and left for death. My only salvation was Mawita'mk Society. I couldn't really get anything going for me in Eskasoni because I was a social pariah. My stepfather didn't want to deal with me in any fashion or way, considering my careers or sports or anything. My stepfather condemned me to a life of mediocrity and level of no potentials. I couldn't do anything for myself in Eskasoni. My step family didn't want to bother with me in any successes, personal acc...

I know there isn't no more Pull and Push Struggles. But I know that is what kept me motivated, the trauma and pull and push Struggles. I wanted a good life and direct myself to fitness and productivity. I have to find motivation in peace. Peace has defeated my purpose to work at my own fitness. There are so many safety reasons to stay active. I know that writing is all I have left. I know that I'm still learning how cruel the Internet could be. And I know that family wants secrecy and privacy. There is so many health reasons to stay fit and walking. I know that I'm happy right where I'm at. It's nice and homey and cozy. I know that I have to be resilient and get back to active independent living. I know that I feel that peace has defeated my motives and purposes. I know that I have built a good life here and I want to enjoy my active walking and home exercises regimen. I don't want to be homeless and stuck on the streets. I want to be thriving with a good homey...

I cannot post pictures of my baby nieces because my sister Katt requested me not to. I've broken a promise and I'm terribly disappointed in myself and sorry. I feel bad with all that. I just post them out of love and pride. Seeing the joys on their faces and having a means to show all that through posting a picture is my best work of my own family albums. I know that I'm happy where I'm at and happy that my family are healthy. But taking those photos and showing them to my friends on Facebook is my greatest joy. But I do have to be cautious because people could steal them and post them on their Facebook. I know that I don't know much about online security. I know that I have been learning about Facebook security. I know that I'm still learning about online stuff. Hopefully everyone that I know could help out with security. I know that there are 7.753 billion. 7.753 billion people on this planet and we are ever-expanding on this planet. Soon there will be new c...

You could say that I was tough and independent for keeping at pop bottles and jobs around the community. I did not say that I was tired once even though I was. But I know now I could try to get a good job. There isn't any guarantee that I would get a job. I know that I'm still trying to develop personally and independently. I feel that I have been trying to walk more but my right leg is bothering me. I'd broke it and have to keep working at it. But I know the hyper-reality of hypersexuality. I know that hypergamy is the social reality. I know that I don't have any respect or love from anyone in Eskasoni. I feel that I wanted one girl but apparently I don't have any choices in that matter. I know for the most parts of my life I have choices and willpower. I know that I wouldn't make it out alive in the real world because Mawita'mk Society is languishing me. I know that I just have love from family and dysfunctional friends. I know that I want to gather up e...

I know that I cannot have true independence because of my disabilities. I know that I want true independence which meaning that I could thrive without Mawita'mk Society's care. I know that I cannot have true independence because I'm diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic with limited lifespan. I have Thoracic Jeune of Dystrophy which means that I have a limited life span. I should've died long time ago. And I have dialysis now because I couldn't get my full driver's license in my teen years. Any day I could die with the Thoracic Jeune of Dystrophy. And diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic I've lost my sanity and the ability to live a fully functional independent life. Yeah it's not that great out but yeah, I could keep working on myself because I need my full driver's license. I know that if I graduated from Eskasoni High School. I would've had more done in my time. I felt like I did not live up to my potential because of my stepfather. I know that I did...