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Feeling like I've Wasted My Years

Feeling like I've wasted my years in Eskasoni to a degree. I know that I had to make my own way into this world and have all the strengths in my life recognized and used. I hope to have coping skills, strengths and strategies in my life. I know that people don't want me to enjoy my age. And 37 seasons I've been on this earth. I know that I have been working and educating myself, as well had formal educational experience and training and driving. I had a lot of good moments in my life. I know that nobody was willing to hire me and the Fair Hiring practices wasn't being played in Eskasoni. Nothing but classism and ageism and sexism. Many forms of discriminations based on many criteria, standards and checklists. There is colorism, sexism, classism, hypergamy and most importantly ageism. I know that people don't respect freedom of speech. And they don't analyze all information. I know that Transactional Analysis is my way because I could keep Freudian influences i...

Eskasoni, My Hometown

Chief and Council don't help out with family matters when it comes to houses. I know that I need to find a place in Eskasoni or Membertou to enjoy my own sexuality. I know that my uncles don't want me to step back and re-evaluate myself culturally. I know that people get busy they fall into a busy mode.  My real dad wanted me to live with him or at his place. And my mom left the house in my name long ago. The Morrison family ripped me off. I could've rented it out but I know that my stepfather didn't want me to have such powers. I know that I have to deal with certain individuals at my mom's house. Feeling like I've been trying to make a good life in Eskasoni but couldn't figure it out. Relationships takes communication and talking about gossip. Maintaining a good conversation isn't that hard. My biological parents were social creatures and so are my step parents. I have a lot of good and proud influences in my life because they've created happy mo...

The People We Love

I know that I've cheated before and I know that hypersexuality has affected me in ways where I wanted more partners. I know that I've been learning the world of addictions and I don't recommend this world. Your consciousness will have to shift and you'll have to face certain demons. Your shames and loneliness. I was young when I first acted. I know that I started when I wasca child addict. People could tell that I was an addict. They knew before my biological mother did. Diane Mae Morrison was a strong woman who wanted me to live my life without addictions, intergenerational trauma, illnesses and anxiety. I know that she wanted me to learn truths and facts about my own life. She wanted me to handle myself with dignity and self-respect. I know that I didn't do that because I was traumatized and hurting. My hell was in Eskasoni and I couldn't really escape. Not until now that I have. I know that I have been learning about hypersexuality and relationships in pdfs...

The Things We Do For Love

The things we do for love is something that I'm ready to work on. I want an emotional connection through actual dating. I have been sober for thirteen years and accomplished,  with a level of education and employability to have in my corner. I haven't dated that much anyways. No ladies wants me for a hypersexual partner. I know that I've been learning my value on the market. I'm not that attractive because I don't have my own place or have any type of riches. I know that I am not gonna get a beautiful one. In my twenties I've never dated much. No one knows those rituals because I know that I don't have any respect or powers. I haven't attracted the right woman in my life because I haven't really experienced a good relationship. I am aware psycho-sexually. I know that I've had a lot of experiences. I know that in certain situations I am less of a man because I don't have any powers or respect. I cannot save everyone from the infidelity, pove...

Happy and Attractive

Independent life is taking the bull by the horns and driving it to the finish line. But for years my stepfather had to show tough love and kick me in my ass when I was young. Because I would have stinking thinking and he would use all his fatherly powers and influences to get me out of that kind of funk. I would be responsible for cleaning my own bedroom: sweep, mop and wipe down everything. Make and refreshen my bed, he would say sleep hygiene is a thing. I know that I have been learning about life skills, the significance of it and why it makes me feel much better.  Smelling nice and good attracts women in my corner. I know that I was a kid who never have any female friends or had any teen romance. I was a simple man who had his simple happy and attractive qualities in ways of money and candy when I was a kid. I know that I did not have any special lady in my life. I know that I want to be independent, happy and attractive. I want to be healthy and thriving. I want to be free t...

Social Gene

I am the heterosexual son of Diane Mae Morrison and Vincent Noel Syliboy. I am a Jown and a Syliboy. Two Mi'kmaq names that I have came from. Feeling like I have pride in my Mi'kmaq identity. I know that I love myself because the family values and beliefs. I know that family tradition or what is passed down, is what I have with my stepfather and biological mother. My biological parents were social creatures and they were very smart. I know that I had a bunch of good musical evolution over the years. It formed my personal musicology. My sister Billie Jean has convinced me that I don't have any social skills. I don't need any money and I cannot drive. She owes me thousand of dollars and no amount of driving would fix that. I'm always disproven because a certain gay guy wants me. I am sexisticallly discriminated where I have to face homosexuality. I know that I don't get recognize because I never was into sports or jobs. I know that in We'koqma'q communit...