Social Gene

I am the heterosexual son of Diane Mae Morrison and Vincent Noel Syliboy. I am a Jown and a Syliboy. Two Mi'kmaq names that I have came from. Feeling like I have pride in my Mi'kmaq identity. I know that I love myself because the family values and beliefs. I know that family tradition or what is passed down, is what I have with my stepfather and biological mother. My biological parents were social creatures and they were very smart. I know that I had a bunch of good musical evolution over the years. It formed my personal musicology. My sister Billie Jean has convinced me that I don't have any social skills. I don't need any money and I cannot drive. She owes me thousand of dollars and no amount of driving would fix that.

I'm always disproven because a certain gay guy wants me. I am sexisticallly discriminated where I have to face homosexuality.

I know that I don't get recognize because I never was into sports or jobs. I know that in We'koqma'q community I am recognized as a differently abled person. My social life is controlled and patrolled through Mawita'mk Society. I cannot socialized with certain people because Mawita'mk Society recognizes them as gangsta. I know that I had to go without representation of my hometown. Yes, I'd suffered! Yes, I didn't like it but I know there is forgiveness and healing works. The bigger picture was to get my ALP diploma and trade. It was to work on my fitness and conditioning. Using weights and treadmill, I know that I've never reveled in hypersexuality.

I know that I did not have those kinds of lady-friends who wanted me to have a healthy sexuality. I know that I couldn't really enjoy my own sexuality in my hometown. Feeling like I've been ignored and forgotten.

People call me the Native Professor. I connect the intersubjective science to social applications and other things. I know that I need to work within my realm of knowledge that is expanding into the intersubjective mathematical science of relationships, dating and bidding, women and courtship. Hopefully it works to get a traditional woman. I know that I love, I just have to wait until I can get a good woman. They call me the Professor because I have been using big words I'm an applicable way. I know that I don't have the biggest vocabulary but I could learn. I know that the ontological generational knowledge is something hidden.

I don't think I'm attractive because I would've had a few women while in We'koqma'q community. Making me think that I don't have anything attractive because I don't have attractive qualities, traits, muscles, status, height, job and a house.

I know that I don't have any attractive desirability to cross that barrier. But I don't think I want to pass that part in my life. I know that I need to start walking on the Mawita'mk treadmill. Everyone keeps telling me how my story is going to be if I do move out. But I want to move when I'm good and ready. I know that I want to escape the narrowing grip of Mawita'mk Society because they don't have any faith in my abilities. And that's because of the inflation rates of Nova Scotia. The increase of overall prices in Nova Scotia are the expensive cost of living. I know that I'll need Eskasoni Food Bank and a good deal of hustle. Hopefully I can get fit physically and get my diet going. Then I wouldn't have to worry about my weight.

I know that there were things weighing me down. And I didn't feel like I should walk. But now that's taken care of I could walk tomorrow.

I cleaned my hands and I don't care who gets what. I know that this was toxic and I couldn't handle it. Having knowing Darren as an asshole who doesn't respects me. I know that I don't need to respect his doing. I know that I want to move because he has sickened me for years. And I don't care if he is nice I hate the bastard because he doesn't give me proper respect. I bet you in his childhood he is still afraid of his older brothers. I know that I hope that I could get back on the walking path now. No matter how much he oppresses me emotionally I will be sicken. I knew that this day will come. I know that I don't have any respect for this guy anymore.

Feeling better about that I know that I don't respect Kendra too. I don't have to because I know what I know. Feeling like I was trapped and stuck here without a fulfilling life. I know that Darren and Kendra should try better to hide what they are doing.

He doesn't face the consequences and I know that I have to deal with certain individuals. I know that social gene of telling the truth is my instinct. Well something that I need to get off of my chest. Anyways that social gene of communication and eloquence. I love doing that. Nobody appreciates the power of talk. I know that I had a lot of good childhood friends who are trying to make it in this world. 

And I know that I have to keep quiet with certain things because I don't want to talk about it. Not here anyways because the passion for being a conversationalist is ability and range of knowledge to talk about politics, philosophy, psychology and addictions.

Money makes the world turn and I know that it's all one short-income kind of thing for military and other people. Growing personally accustomed to living like this I know that I don't know what its like with Ukraine wars.

I know that I love my country and want the best of it. Having knowing my lifestyle and the current cost of living. I know that I have it made but I know that I don't want to deal with certain individuals. Everyone has an opinion about my life and wants the best for me. But nobody wants what I want. I want to get the hell out of here when I'm good and ready. 

That's with lifting weights, walking the treadmill and walking. Hopefully I can get a good fitness going with lean muscles and a good deal of well used calisthenics (Body-weight training) or gymnastics.

I know that I want to build my muscles and grow my own brand of cardio and calisthenics. I know that I had a lot of good influences over the years doing stuff like types of push-up and sit-ups. I know that I have a lot of good influences over the years that I was in Eskasoni. Feeling proud where I come from. I know love, loyalty and respect.

Lost my dignity and self-respect. To be honored by my fellow generation people is to be fully respected in ways of humble pride and a good sense of judgment. I know that taking pride in my Mawita'mk Membership is something that I do enjoy because I am an social descendant. I have that kind of social gene where I could get something out of socialization. Especially since it was independent. I want to live a independent thriving lifestyle where I'm working full-time employment and have a professional schedule where I have my fitness and conditioning. I want to live because I know that I could meet a good woman I could share a connection with.

I know that I had a lot of good open-minded philosophical conversations about women and having emotional intelligence and empathy about them. How they absorbed societal stress more than men.

Nobody heard too sick to see the shame before. And I know that I don't offer a safe-saving face. I know that I have to make the best out of a good situation and stay out of it. Having knowing that I'm not well respected anyways to tell the truth. I know that I have been ignored before because of passion and lust. Guilty all the same and I know that they are too sick to see the shame. I know that certain people aren't that safe and in that I cannot do anything. I have to witness all of it and nobody coming means nobody knows. I know that I have been socially equipped through knowledge and experience from my stepfather and biological mother's teachings.

If I am to get a good woman I have to face certain difficulties in my life. And hopefully she gets familiar with Dr. John Gottman's psychological insights and knowledge. She has to be motivating and inspiring me. She will increase my sense of purpose.

I know that I want a rocker chick who is an intellectual and have a job and car, or travels through the public transits and wants me for me. I have social trust in finding such a chick. 

I know that I have to make my own life happen. Feeling like I have to make the best out of this kind of situation. I'm feeling good about the Kendra and Darren situation. I don't feel malaised or uncomfortable with seeing them together. I know that I feel completely sick-free and malaised-free and I feel ten times lighter. It doesn't bother me so much as it used to. Ten times lighter and more confident in what I say.

I know that she is a lovely woman but I haven't sacrificed anything to make my own house. I have committed to anything to have a sense of purpose, job satisfaction, pride in what I'm doing and sacrificing my time in an investment to build a little empire of my own. I want my own restaurant building.

And I want to make connections, network on my LinkedIn profile and Facebook. I want to get a good level of education and professionalism that I have that kind of workethic, dedication and loyal attachment to my sense of purpose to build my own restaurant building. Hopefully I can live my life with the knowledge that I love strong women who initiates. Because opening my heart like that has been partly controlled because I don't want to let go. I know that I want to control who wants my heart like Count Dracula. I know that I have been living here for thirteen years and accomplished many things in my past with We'koqma'q community.

I know that I had a lot of good memories in Eskasoni but coupled with bad memories strongly. I know that I don't have any bravery when it comes to truth. Why should I care for a woman that is with another man?

No! I don't have to because love is questionable and so is women. Yes they received society's stresses. I don't know my true feelings when it comes to living at Mawita'mk Society. Especially since I was learning about trauma, illnesses, stresses and addictions. Hypersexuality is an addiction and a risky behavior type too. I know that women don't resolve their trauma. Another words they cannot heal unless there is safety in the culture. Right now there is a toxic human culture and in that collective wasteful emotional sickness they have to get out of that addictive darkness and come to the light of health where Jesus is. You could have a strong personal Jesus and faith. Such a level, depth, range and quality of such a collectivity there have to be emotionally speaking people.

They are covering all their bases and I hope that they don't reach any further. I hope that somebody stops this collective.

Happiness is being with yourself and enjoying yourself. It's a self-love that pervades everything in your entire being. And shows people that you care annoyingly. The culture pervades our society but self-love where it is selfish can have benefits. My biological mother taught me how to do this through religion, food, medicine, family and music and movies. And going out every Friday and enjoying my outdoor experiences. My biological mother taught me mindfulness, forbearance and self-respect. Yeah I'd lost a few years in school and yeah, I did not have any extra curricular activities.

Out of love can come strong faith, active intellectual open-mindedness and a good deal of self-acceptance. I know that I was taught all this and to have an inner beauty and strength. Everything I needed from my cousins, aunts, uncles and parents and family.

I enjoy learning because of such profundity, range and overexuberant of my self-love. I know that being alive is something that I love because I had this exuberance. I know that I have a lot of good reasons to be in Mawita'mk Society. They support me and they showed me how a car can change my life. How a car can be very useful. They have showed me a good life out of my hell and showed me what the outside thought was about Eskasoni. 

They'd showed me what I could be having if I have worked. They'd showed me a good deal of love, compassion and care. Even when I couldn't really enjoy myself. Why are women getting conned all the time to have a baby with a badass?

Because of self-destructive despair or no confidence. I've been around women and to find the truth in being a father isn't their vocabulary. I have books about being a good father. I know that I have time on my hands.

So I use it well and read, listen and pay attention to the women I'm around. They have relationships and they know where they stand. Nobody wants the truth of love because fearlessness isn't something they could handle when it comes to the right way. I know that all these young punks don't give a damn about love or they'll be learning. And learning is multifaceted and needs good attention span. I know that I've learned love when I was a young kid, learning about coping skills, mental health, personal histories and a good deal of culture. I never was on stage but I am behind the curtain.

I couldn't provide for myself because I couldn't get myself basic stuff and prescription glasses I needed. My mental health suffered because I wasn't paying attention. I know that I did not have any help with understanding my Canadian income taxes or taxes. I couldn't really get GST. Plus I did not have the necessary money to pay for my glasses. Those people didn't want to help out because I was native. 

I know that I couldn't really trust myself getting my own prescription glasses or pills. Because there wasn't any blister packs back then and I know that I did not have any special accessibility to driving. I don't know when Christmas bonuses came into effect? I cannot live in comfort if I'm accusing. I know that Rosie believes in facing the accuser. I believe that I don't have any strength to fight back. I know that people want me to do the stand up thing and follow through. 

I know that I told Rosie that I am sure what I saw. But to tell the truth I'm not too sure and I feel like withdrawing my formal complaint. Darren and Kendra making it uncomfortable here by kissing. I know that reinforced my belief it was Kendra that Darren was fucking. 

People argue that I'm not trying hard enough, that I could be doing something more. Like what? I know that I'm new to the dating scene and I have to read a fricking manuals for ladies before I can get laid. I don't have any attractive qualities or characteristics or traits or muscles or height. I am not rich, have no fancy job or have a high degree. I know that this dating game is something that I don't know because nobody helped me in that way. 

I know that there are steps to be taken to secure my sense of peace, harmony and happiness. But Darren don't take those steps and doesn't know the correct thinking. I know that my mind is off to space and I don't have any respect or powers to stop people from certain acts. Female toxicity is bringing the thoughts to a stymied or dilemma and trapping me into thinking powerlessness, helplessness and stagnancy. Feelings those negative emotions draw thoughts of stinking thinking. 

I know that I was an alcoholic and drug addict. I know that I had to keep quiet with Mt drinking and smoking. Nobody knew that I drank a few times in front of them. So I know that I drank privately and smoked up privately. I always took care of myself because nobody would wanted me sexually. I know that nobody wants me now because I got no girls to go to. 

There are social, personal and psychological reasons to stay anti-social. To have a private world and live my life like a zombie post-apocalyptic romance with the world. Yeah I was a drunk and reefer but I was a responsible, clean and neat Virgo pop bottle collector. Using mindfulness and forbearance as a coping skills in my arsenal of coping skills. People want me to show social understanding of the excitement women hold over certain psycho-social situational designs. 

I know that I'm not well respected because nobody has that kind of self-respect. I know that I loved myself through my mom, step parents and family. I have family values and beliefs. I have cultural understanding that I could say I'm culturally aware. And I have a good deal. I know that back in the day 500 beer bottles was 75 cents and $500 of those I could get a good cigarettes and weed. 

There are psychological, cultural, social and spiritual and personal reasons to stay anti-social. To have a simple happiness about me and not to have female toxicity, male toxicity and toxicity from people who are in the human culture. To read more and to enjoy my life the way I was taught. A personal anti-social independence and self-sufficiency is having a simple happiness about me. To enjoy my books, encyclopedias, dictionaries, WiFi, eBooks and audiobooks and podcasts and pdfs. 

So Mawita'mk Society is the perfect place to live. And this Covid-19 pandemic just proven how stupid society has become. I have a rich battling with my hometown community and family. I have a good deal of traumas and illnesses I have suffered in the hands of community, family and friends. K.J. Francis is my childhood friend and family, I hope that we could get over any hurdle and betrayals.