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Synthetic versus Independence

I know fake love when I see it. I know that people don't want me to tell. What's the use of having independence when people want you to be subsumed by an organization. My mom had to prove her immortal family love to me. I wasn't that sheltered in 74th street. I was exposed to a variety of feral things. I felt that I had no words online. And I did not have any other chance to get my writings online other than my biological mother. I knew that I was learning about emotional intelligence that I was experiencing, learning and growing. I know philosophy of diversity. And philosophy of labor from Frank Tannenbaum. I know that I've been taught a lot with certain people. Personal leadership requires reading and researching. An investigation into the knowledge of True Fair Hiring Practices and what to base it on. I know that the foundation of True Hiring Practices should have Philosophy of Diversity. And the foundation should supplement Philosophy of Labor by Frank Tannenbaum. L...

Forever and Ever, Amen

Eskasoni will be my hometown forever and ever. I just have to make a name for myself and learn those responsibilities. Having a job, professional career and full driver's license. I want to be world experienced with cooking and baking. Get my NSCC Cooking Certificate and NSCC Baking and Pastry Art Certificate. My accomplishments and success I could have with cooking and baking. The idea of having skills set matching NSCC programs like NSCC Horticulture and Landscape Technology diploma program, automobile service certification and Carpentry. I have setbacks because I have kidney issues. Nobody can decide my fate and I know that I've been through trials and tribulations. Street style and I know that I have to move on out of here. Nobody wants me to thrive in this world.  There is too much hate in this world through the classes. I am Indigenous descendant. I have no attractive qualities or characteristics but I'll try to do something. But I am experienced with women. I know th...

Simple Happiness

Feeling rich, appreciative and grateful of this life because they have such a rich quality of life here that I think I'm spoiled. Simple happiness is simply enjoying this paradise. With this kind of life I would have to accede to certain conditions. One I will be dependent on Mawita'mk Society for clothes, boots, shoes, coats, jackets, services and other things. Being dependent on Mawita'mk Society's care and support. And being dependable for Mawita'mk Society to have those feelings of taking pride, having job satisfaction and a sense of purpose with Mawita'mk Work Program. But I want to learn so I got to stay healthy enough to learn all the recipes, ingredients, temperatures, food preparations and mixture and other things. I am happy how my life has grown into We'koqma'q community and Chapel Island. I've been taught well about job-related life skills. I'm glad that I have turned out to be a recovering addict who had a rough life. Nobody wanted m...

Shadows of My Past Mountainside

I know that I'm loved and in that I'm loved, cherished and valued: Significance? I cannot explain because Alexithymic Profundity of happiness. I want to keep my apartment with lamps down low. But I am in this Ni'kinen house and I have to explore other people's works. I know that I'm learning and I am happy to learn. Feeling enriched with mental health literature and poetry. I feel like I can spend my life with Mawita'mk Society. But what does that mean about my sense of independence? What does that mean about my pride in my independence? It means that I am simply happy and don't need this and that. But truth that I need is the truth that I can be independent, have powers over my own feelings and thoughts. And have faculties to decide my own actions, thoughts and feelings. I know that there is forced sharing of mental space, wrong thinking and feeling. I know that I have been trying to regain my independence because my stepfather's family has taken it all...

Hell Can Become Heaven, Heaven Can Become Hell

I'm surrounded by old people and with that comes the non-chalant attitude to talk more with certain combination of workers. Mawita'mk Society hasn't earned my trust because professionally they know their stuff. Knowledge equal damages and disinterestedness. I know that I want to move out on good terms. I could provide for myself because I have a smartphone. Everything I need is here and I know that I could use Mawita'mk Society's accountant. I have online banking and I have online social media accounts. I could make money if I could make it presentable, watchable and intellectual/educational videos. I have all these apps and I have to make a presentation out of my YouTube account. I know that I could make it presentable, watchable and intellectual. I know that I have been learning to work my own YouTube, Tik Tok videos. I know that I don't want to record the workers on my YouTube. Feeling like most of these workers care more about talking than us clients. I know...

Home, Sweet Home

I got 4 sisters, 4 brothers and a bunch of male and female cousins that are in ranges of my generation group. I know that I haven't been able to make my home yet. I know that home, sweet home isn't home, sweet home. I haven't worked professionally in my early teen years because my stepfather held me back. He did sports coaching, volunteered and worked for 25 years and I'm stuck here in stagnancy, dependency and jobless because of him. I know that I never was independent enough to stay out of these group homes. I know that I'm still learning about life skills, strategies and techniques. My Morrison family has held me back from getting anything on my portfolio. I know that I had 21 years to make something of myself. And my stepfather held me back throughout my early teen years, my full teen years and my early twenties. Now that I don't have any respect I was shitted on by them. I never was independent enough to thrive and outgrow the Morrison. They always made hel...

Chance To Go Home

I know that I don't have any chance to go home. With a smartphone I could use a mailbox to get stuff. I don't usually attract any woman in my life. And I don't do much these days. I'm almost 40 for God's sake, I'm 37 years old. Still single and still jobless. I don't have my own place and I don't have my own car. I haven't to accomplish what I wanted to in my life because I was disabled. And there is nobody to talk to here when certain workers come by. A chance to go home and live my life how I see fit. I sure hope that I could get into routine. I know that I don't have any attractive qualities or characteristics because I would've had a chick by now. I know that certain workers dread to talk with me because I don't have any interesting topics to talk about. Nothing they are interested in anyways. I cannot talk about Star Trek canon because I know that I'm a little nerdy. Yes, I have a temper but I outgrew it. I want to outgrow Mawita...

What I Got, What I Could Get

I know what I got at Mawita'mk Society. I cannot get a happy home in Eskasoni. I know that I got electronics, technology and tools. I know that I got clothes, boots, shoes, coats and jackets, closets and washer and dryer. I know that I got sweaters and hoodies. I feel like I am enrichen in ways of having stuff and technology. I got a computer, a laptop, a Playstation Portable, a Playstation 4 and Playstation 2 and 1. I know that I got an Xbox 360 and a variety of collections of video game. I need adapters for my gaming consoles. I know that I'm a father, an uncle, Certified Skilled Tradesman, Certified driver and trained in verbal Judo. That's what I want to say because I had secretly a son. But I'm an uncle, godfather, Certified Skilled Tradesman and Certified Skilled driver. And I am a Mawita'mk resident, client and member. If I do move I hope it's on good terms. I want to admit that I'm something of a disabled addict father. Disempowered in ways of being ...