JP(Wolfman)John Peter Syliboy(Syliboy Warrior(DC Universe Online))

With this Intergenerational and intercultural racism through colourism, ageism, hypergamy/hypogamy, managing losses and grief, anger and frustration, pains and stratifications of hatefulness. Feeling like I'd had a rich life in Eskasoni both on the bad side and good side. I had a few good years in Eskasoni. I was productive without a day's worry one time ago. I enjoyed my books and fitness. Accepting myself as a experienced bachelor with a level of education and employability. I'm doing productive things in Mawita'mk Work Program. I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society reaping benefits of their services, of their Mawita'mk communication bundle and indoor plumbing and electrical. I know that they have cable and TVs in each bedroom. I know that I've been listening to stories about this place. I know that I hadn't any relationship experiences in We'koqma'q. I have to take personal responsibility over my own life. That much I know beca...

From my upbringing you would think they would imbued me with a strong sense of friendship and community. A growing Mi'kmaq family that has been teaching me all that and what is a good relationship. My step family has been close to me like real family. Like blood but a little more closer to my identity. I know that the Morrison has their faults and downs. So do I but they would rather emphasize mine before they say their. See I haven't be able to get over the fact that my step uncle Dodo has done wrongs too. I don't know what but he has been working on wrapping it up. Generational/historical dysfunctional cycles are what I've been trying to break. The way they see it isn't how I know it is. I know that I don't want that hypersexuality to be instilled in my family. Having a healthy relationship is stepping into the psycho-spirituality. The psycho-spirituality of the AA, NA and seven sacred teachings. I know that I've been listening to stories and how common ...

My family are stronger than me. I was told that I should do fitness training in my teen years. That way I could build my body up alongside my friends and family. But muscles mass can deteriorate, disappear or grow and expand. Myology is the study of muscle mass in human, animal and other beings on this earth. I know that I've done so much in my time that I got to say that Mawita'mk Society is a sustaining me in ways that I know that I have to work with them. But I know that I haven't given up yet. People were so hateful back then I knew there was something wrong.  But I haven't given up faith in my hometown. I know they have something in their sleeves. I've heard about the events that are defining Eskasoni. The fighters and bullies are going at each other. And I know that my Grammy was trying to heal what she could. Like me and my cousins. I have to keep faith that the Lord's love for these We'koqma'q, Paq'tnkek, family and First Nation communities...

I want sex I could get it from prostitutes and if I want go explore my fantasy, I look at pornography. I'm happy with my options because if I want romance I could get dates.  Some rejections, others more pleasing. But I know if I cannot get it from women, I get it from female prostitutes. I never was out in the field for a while. But there is inflations and stagnancy. So stagflations. Somebody was smart enough to capitalize on that. Hopefully I can be that kind of eligible bachelor. Racism plays a crucial role in this dating game. But I'm learning much as I can to keep a woman in my life. I'm learning about Dr. John Gottman's works, Dr. Tian Dayton's emotional literacy I'd learned. And Dr. Daniel Goleman's Emotional Intelligence. I know that I have a lot of books to read yet. I am learning about the consequences of certain actions. I am loved and cherished so I'm happy. I'm loved and cherished and so happy about the knowledge I have, going to read ...

I know that inflations is on the rise and living at Mawita'mk Society I know that they don't want me to have my money. Mawita'mk Society is sustaining me in ways where I have to work with them. I want to leave on really good terms of level of education, fitness and employability. I want to have my own online goals like getting my BA degree and full driver's license. I know that I have to try to work at the viability, workability and possibility to get my Bachelor of Arts degree. If they haven't bugged me they wouldn't care. They put in their hours with us and work with us. I know that I have walked with Shauna and Vickie. I know that I am going to do stretches for fitness. Accepting myself as a experienced bachelor with weight changes over the years and practice over the years. I'm sick and tired of the weight changes. I know that I need to start being more walking around We'koqma'q community. I've been through mad stages of hatred and vengeanc...

I used to be able to focus and concentrate on positive thoughts. I know that was my powers and way of problem solving, deduction and intelligence. I know that I had a happy disposition or calm thinking. People got sick and tired of that. And start to bully me. People get easily sick and tired, it's easier to find insanity and addictions instead of happy disposition. I know that my cousin have introduced me to weed and other drugs. I know that I had to struggle and be less happy. I wasn't delusional but rather solving problems. I feel that I had my life in solutions and answers. I know that kind of thinking. My stepfather fostered that kind of thinking. I caught on early where he is. And I know that I was forgiven, have forgived and been forgiven. I know that I accepted and had that kind of self love. My mother had taught me inner beauty. And addictions have attracted the wrong crowd. I know that my thought processes have changed and I know that I didn't have my power anym...

My stepfather's peace is important to me because Billy Morrison have been my father, role model, dialysis Technician and teacher of Trades since day one. He has been my access to technology, a child to my heart, good boss, guide and emotional, mental and spiritual support. He has nourished me and kept me active. He has been a constant in my life that guided, counciled and counseled, taught and gave examples through movies and entertainment why I should care for my lineage. He has reconciled my past with the present by hashing out my issues. And been something of an unconditional love father with compassion, empathy and sensitivity. He has been my protector, food-giver, candy-source and money giver. He has been a way of spending energy and keeping focus. He has been my source of strength and power. He has exercised restraint and wisdom. He has been teaching from experience. But I wasn't the ideal child. I was a child addict then sober, a teen addict then sober for a little whi...