My Fitness Training

My family are stronger than me. I was told that I should do fitness training in my teen years. That way I could build my body up alongside my friends and family. But muscles mass can deteriorate, disappear or grow and expand. Myology is the study of muscle mass in human, animal and other beings on this earth. I know that I've done so much in my time that I got to say that Mawita'mk Society is a sustaining me in ways that I know that I have to work with them. But I know that I haven't given up yet. People were so hateful back then I knew there was something wrong.  But I haven't given up faith in my hometown.

I know they have something in their sleeves. I've heard about the events that are defining Eskasoni. The fighters and bullies are going at each other. And I know that my Grammy was trying to heal what she could. Like me and my cousins.

I have to keep faith that the Lord's love for these We'koqma'q, Paq'tnkek, family and First Nation communities wanting peace on earth, strength to forgive and apologize if necessary, and to recover emotionally and heal spiritually is strong. I know that I've been learning to accept myself in this lifestyle. Where I could move back, at times I think I can but I remember the bullies and enemies. I know that I have to deal with certain people. In We'koqma'q community they are peaceful, progressive and rich in culture and traditions.

There is a stratifications of hatefulness and traumas in both countries. I know that I don't have any attractive qualities or characteristics but I have knowledge, education and training. I know that I'm Indigenous descendant but I want to stop the hatefulness. From my historical/generational perspective I am an nobody. I haven't made any impacts in the world.

I haven't done anything significant other than write this blog. I know that I'm trying to find positivity in a real heavy hateful place. Eventually I will drive on out of here with all my stuff and credentials. But I have to figure out how I want to live by myself. I play scenarios in my head "What if I drove up to Rosie Basque's place of business after I have accomplished my BA degree? Bachelor of Social Work degree? And full driver's license and fitness and a second transplant kidney? I know that I would be happier in ways of having my myological development.

The hell I've been through was mostly theft, undermining my authority, bullying and forcing myself to work through the traumas. I know that I want to live long enough to get my muscular fitness in my life where I'm at top shape, have hiking experience in We'koqma'q community. Growing personally accustomed to Mawita'mk Daily Activities.

I am an Indigenous descendant nerd who is  an experienced Indigenous descendant fitness trainer. I know that I've been using Eskasoni Fitness Center for fitness knowledge and traditional training of the fitness world. I know that now I got to rely on Johnny's Gym to exercise my knowledge, body and weights training. I hope that I don't get any discriminations or anything from Johnny's Gym. I know that people can be hateful here. And I know that I don't got any right to pay fair prices here.

I know that I don't have my physical fitness, I have to work at walking and exercising. I'd dropped all the bad habits, I just got to stop overdrinking because I'm not exercising. I know that I'm still motivated and determined to work at my fitness. It's just I'm losing strength, powers and influence. I don't want to because I know that my old mentality is going through changes.

I know that I never proven a thing in fitness training. I'd never plateaued in my fitness. Being a Mawita'mk client I could access certain programming at Mawita'mk. I got an interest in cooking. I know that I could learn from Shauna, Adrienne, Fran, and other workers if I'm willing to work alongside them. I want to make enough money to put in my savings account from my professional schedule of that month. I know that I want to have two jobs on the weekly schedule, have two jobs on the weekends, part time and I want full time on the five days a week.

That's the kind of professional schedule I want to have if I was to get my second kidney, my fitness and BA degree. The working class has been something of a good life. All those times I was doing landscaping and building. All those times I'd learned off of the Internet about plumbing and cars. I know that I just got to work at walking.

I know that I need to learn more. Being a Indigenous descendant bachelor who has accomplished past in We'koqma'q community, I know that I could get a good job and a good portfolio. I could work anywhere, I just need to accomplish my Red Seals and Bachelor of Arts degree. My choices are based on my introduction to Mawita'mk Skills set. I know that I could read a lot with mental health literature but I'm learning hands-on cooking skills. So far I'd learned how to grade cheese and I physically worked on preparing the meals.

A strong sense of friendship and community. Eskasoni has been a good therapeutic cartharsis. I know that I have been learning it is necessary to learn how Discriminations and Prejudice works. I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society, arming my library of books, eBooks, pdfs, etc. I know that in expanding my life in another community.

I am experiencing the strong sense of fashion, appearance, workethic and community. Growing personally accustomed to living here I am learning my own peaceful fashion. I know that learning these things and trades! Getting dirty, worked and believing in myself. I know that these two First Nation communities have a strong sense of family fashion, appearance, workethic and community. Growing personally accustomed to living at these two communities and learning the dark side of one of them. I know that I was forgiving people in Eskasoni.

Like genetics and personalities, a sense of fashion in a family is a bright spot on your appearance. I know that I've been taught to have a tough inner beauty but a strong sense of compassion. Have a balanced active lifestyle but know how to relax. Have regular meals and drinks but do fitness routine for balancing out my meals.

I should look sharp for my Mawita'mk business position. I am receiving money for my work. Obviously I have to look sharp and spiffy. I know that everything is paid for at Ni'kinen house and I know that I'm a valuable, contributing and willing client of Mawita'mk Society. I just got to work with them even though I'm on a dating app. I feel like my life is rich but I'm still humbly poor. I know that I have my level of education and employability at Mawita'mk Society. I could study my books or learn off of YouTube. I know a thing or two about construction. I got experience in that and I know that I have been part of land construction.

My stepfather went through my weight changes over the years with me and I've been living with him. I know that I've had the happy memories of learning commitment of summer jobs. And a good bonding experience on the job.

I know that I have a strong and tough inner beauty. And I know that my soul is beautiful alone. I just feel lonely because of my nerdy little ways. Living without troubles for twelve years and working on my level of Independence over the years with driving, education and employability. I know that I have a level of training from certain people from NSCC Community College. I know that sense of professionalism. That professional fitness, effective efficiency and quality. I know that I could do a thing or two about learning professionalism in retail, food industry, disability sector and public service sector. I know a thing or two about trades and pugilism.

I know that anything could become professional grade and quality. I know that socioeconomic reality. I could feel that psychology could be my main income. And I could have a side business.

I could have my own Red Seal professional quality of cooking, landscaping, carpentry, plumbing or electrical. Depending on my understanding of my booklets, books, encyclopedias, PDFs, printouts, dictionaries, articles, and other things that have words on them. I know that I could have many Red Seal diplomas with a Bachelor of Arts degree and a Bachelor of Social Work degree. I am a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic who is an experienced Indigenous descendant bachelor nerd, who has a level of education and employability that I could get a good job anywhere in Nova Scotia. I've accomplished a lot in my past in We'koqma'q community.

I wanted a few decades of professional experience. I know that I never had that because I was working on my education and employability. Feeling like I've learned emotional intelligence from programs, Eskasoni community, relationships, family.

I don't get Star treatment because I haven't worked. Because I want to move on my own and live my life how I see it. I know that here I'm doing stuff. Going to Workshops and AA here. I know that here I get my bi-weekly injection and get my fitness going. I know that here I get the latest news of this community, of Reconciliation, of survivors and their descendants. And I know that I've been listening to music here. I have NA on Tuesdays but mostly I'm busy with Mawita'mk Work Program and Mawita'mk Bingo. At We'koqma'q community I'm in routine with Mawita'mk Society.

I don't have any legacy or job. I have to second look for a house or I cannot build a house because I cannot afford it. I know that I was learning nothing but construction and land construction. I know what I need I just got to do it. Earn a good living and have my money saved up for a freshly built house.