Simple Happiness

Feeling rich, appreciative and grateful of this life because they have such a rich quality of life here that I think I'm spoiled. Simple happiness is simply enjoying this paradise. With this kind of life I would have to accede to certain conditions. One I will be dependent on Mawita'mk Society for clothes, boots, shoes, coats, jackets, services and other things. Being dependent on Mawita'mk Society's care and support. And being dependable for Mawita'mk Society to have those feelings of taking pride, having job satisfaction and a sense of purpose with Mawita'mk Work Program.

But I want to learn so I got to stay healthy enough to learn all the recipes, ingredients, temperatures, food preparations and mixture and other things. I am happy how my life has grown into We'koqma'q community and Chapel Island. I've been taught well about job-related life skills.

I'm glad that I have turned out to be a recovering addict who had a rough life. Nobody wanted me to be strong in my motivations, workethic and commitment. I know that I have been living in We'koqma'q for 12 years and had a long, happy life in We'koqma'q community for twelve years. I hope that I could be blessed to have many more years to spend on this earth. I want to be a professional driver, a good employee (Full-time employment), fit person and a good lover, a good Judo Referee and a good student at Cape Breton University.

Proving myself strong takes forbearance and composure. I know that I had to learn a inner calm and build my knowledge around mental health. I know that I'm targeted but I know how to stay strong. I know it's useless to have a girlfriend because I wouldn't get any action, intimacy, connections and benefits. I know that I'm targeted through toxic women.

Blaming men for beaten on them. They don't chose the nice guy. They would rather have the badman and suffer consequences before falling for a good guy. This mean that they would rather have the badmen before getting in bed with a nice guy. They've spoiled themselves with badmen. There is a whole history of pornography worshipping women and variety of tastes. I know that women have become loose, slutty and a mess.

A simple man is simply happy with what he gots. I know that I was that simple man without technology, smartphones and bills. I know that I could've been happy with what I had. I did not want that for my sisters and they didn't tell me everything. I know that I am disabled but they used to call me pocket hulk and I used to try to beat down my teenage enemies when I was a kid. There are toxic men and toxic women out there wreaking havoc on society.

Its two way street for the sex battles. There is misogyny and there is misandry. The two extremes of the sex battles. My stepfather fostered a understanding of theoretical freedom and independence that reaches far back then what I used to be. Simple happiness isn't so simple anymore because of complicated, toxic women and men. The badder you are, the sadder you are. And I heard of this Intergenerational, traumatic cycle of hate and sadness too often.

With situational forces, understanding and morality I know that I could become a skilled counseling psychologist. The idea of choices changes into a life-changing thing. And I feel that I could learn changes and transformations. I know that I'm not faultless and I know, through hypersexuality I've made mistakes. I know that I'm learning relationship science and friendship and family.

I want my legacy to say that I'd tried to read and do much as I can at Mawita'mk Society. I have studied cooking under their wings, I've built for them, I've learned how to use that cricut machine, I want to practice much arts and crafts, beadwork, sea glass art and drawing. Learn about Mi'kmaq identity much as I can. My sisters deserve that house and they belong in that house as much as anyone else. Besides I don't think I'm spoiled enough and I know about the philosophy and culture of my people. There are many ways philosophy and there is Two-Eye Seeing philosophy. I know that I need to be open-minded and intellectual on my own family.

Much to my identity I belong to a family that have helped me in my development. What was that thing still remains a mystery. I know that I haven't been able to develop with a smartphone and learn with my siblings. The idea of having siblings.

The idea of having emotional intelligence from such family dynamics is something that has been part of my Indigenous descendant identity. I know that I've been learning about family psychology and who is my real blood. Not a lot of support from that blood families. I know that I never once been able to accomplish my driving goals. But I did got far with them so that says a lot. The simple happiness they are aiming for is to give up on my Goals for Independence. Genetically linked to the sisters I know that we share DNA through our mother, Diane who has connections with Jesse Denny.

A powerful connection if there was one. Billie Morrison didn't want this part known but I'd listened in and I know that my sisters needs a place more than me. Feeling like I've been enriched with Mawita'mk Society I know that my sisters will respect my decision to stay here. They could have the house.

They could learn and use life skills to the best of their ability. Besides them living together can result in many benefits. They could learn as much as they want. And babysit each other's babies. Simple happiness isn't so simple and everyone has a problem with my sisters. I know that I have been happy where I'd lived for twelve long happy years. I know that women need control over my life. I know that toxic women need to discriminate against me. And if I do go against certain individuals I would be discriminated against by women and men. I was introduced to hate against men.

Any accusations that I do get they have powers over my life. The driving forces of women is extreme prejudice. Not to be messed with because women have all the powers. Courts decide your fate and I don't have any powers to defend, stop or make anything stick. I know that women hated me.

Wants me to exercise because I am not big enough. I'd chosen peace and I know that nobody knows how discriminations work. Obviously I was weak and pathetic because women have been controlling and patrolling my life. I know that I'm less chosen to be talked to because I am Unattractive. I have no attractive qualities or characteristics because I don't fit the criteria of women. Being an experienced Indigenous descendant bachelor I know that toxic women are willing to discriminate against me. If I do choose to fight back then the reigns of extreme prejudicial pettiness and hatred will rain down on me.

I couldn't live in my hometown apartment because there was so much hatred. Such animosity driven me insane because I needed weed. There is both extreme prejudices from misogyny and misandry. I know that the sex battles I've experienced has been discriminations.

Toxic women and toxic men have been in control of my life, telling me that I don't deserve anything. Hypersexuality seems to exclude me because I am surrounded by women that want control, powers and influences. I know that I've been listening to stories about how certain discriminations works. How certain people don't want me to earn a living. Or do what I need to do for motivation. I know that living in Eskasoni I was surrounded by hateful people that have bullied me, controlled me and patrolled me.

Nobody recognizes toxic women let alone toxic men. And I've been through hell just to eat. I couldn't really get laid or have my own place. Eskasoni is full of hateful people who have extreme prejudicial pettiness and selfishness in hateful intergenerational traumatic cycles of addictions and discriminations. I'm guilty of getting vengeance and perpetuating these cycles.

I know that I wasn't given much look back in my day. I know that I wasn't sexed or had any experiences in dating beauties. I was trying to develop and grow. I know that I couldn't really defend myself because nobody wanted that. I know that hatred has been my guide for years. Refreshing my perspectives on love and health. I know that I need to work with Mawita'mk Society to implement transformative strategies into action. I know that if I return to that hateful, prejudicial pettiness that I call home I will suffer from discriminations. With certain people there isn't any discriminations.

Family has been holding me up. Generationally different people don't want to discriminate. And I know that hateful people love to sneak, connive and use duplicity to infiltrate the good. I have to be aware and incorporate all my job-related life skills and survival skills into my life.

I know that people that went through abuses know that hatred. Truths of discriminations and prejudice is what I'm interested in. Feeling better because this kind of sickness is boiling. Hatred has been a part of my life and I am over it. I wanted to hate and get vengeance but I knew that my coping skills could help out. Yes, I've bullied back before but I don't want that. I am an simple guy who wants to enjoy my paradisiacal home. I wanted a happy home by myself. Originally from Eskasoni I know that kind of hatred and animosity.

I dont have any powers, control and influence over my life. Everyone wants that prejudicial pettiness to guide them. I know there isn't any justice for me because I am a man. Hate fuels this country. I know that I'm less of a pick because of hatred. I am that nerdy little descendant bachelor who don't have any attractive qualities or characteristics. 

I know that I'm nobody in the dating world. I know that I don't get chosen first because everyone wants me to be hated on. I don't get to choose the women I want because I'm diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. I cannot take good care of myself or provide for myself because I got no kidney. I am more of a liability for the ladies that want me. And for the available women that don't want me I have to deal with. 

I know that muscles and experience can define how well I am a exceptional fighter. But everyone thinks that I am hiding when I'm trying to accept my position on violence. I know that I'm such a disappointment because I haven't been able to do everything I wanted to. And I don't have any sports on my portfolio because my stepfather has denied me that. And so many other things in my life. 

I'm over my childhood addiction, traumas and emotional upheaval. I've recovered over this and I have recovered multiple times in my life. And I had to recovered and moved. I know that I'm happy where I'm at but I know that I have homesickness, emotional nostalgia and romance. I had sex in Eskasoni and it wasn't healthy. I know that I was traumatized and vengeful. I wanted to have my teen years by myself. 

Having a woman is something of a risk. I don't have any respect as a writer or have any physical, fighting prowess. Having no cars and not meeting up with women's checklist of a good man is something that I could take pride in. Feeling like having a woman is more of a risk than having a prostitute. They take everything away and keep up with prejudicial pettiness.

This society of hate and pettiness is why I don't want to stay here. I want to develop, provide for myself, protect myself and grow into a single bachelor. That means I could work for $500 and live my life alone. That means I could have lady friends over and enjoy myself. Originally from Eskasoni I know that I could enjoy my life without discriminations and prejudice. Rosie Basque wants that kind of control where she could control if I have a prostitute or a woman. 

Fucking cowards want to fuck my world up. I know that I was taught love and loyalty. I know that I want to get laid but I know that I've learned emotional intelligence from my biological mother's connections. I know that everyone has their Cheater's paradise. I know that living today's society I have to have a transplant kidney. Mawita'mk Society has supported me but I know that I never had casual sex. 

I am kind of a comedic goofball at times. I know that I have a sense of humor and I do enjoy these women. Being an experienced Indigenous descendant bachelor who has accomplished past in We'koqma'q community I know that I could get work. And take pride and enjoy my job. Economically trained by NSCC Community College and Unama'ki Driving School. I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. 

It's been twelve years since I got laid and it has been 19 years since I got a smartphone. So my deal is that I'm new to this technological world of online dating. And I have developed pretty quick. Yeah I'm that nerd that has experienced hate and animosity. I wish that I wasn't that nerdy little guy. 

Am I mentally deranged? Am I a evil psycho? That would be too easy to discriminate. It's easy to discriminate because cowards do it. Cowards of the lost sad ones. I know that I used to be hateful but I still distrust people. Growing up in Cape Breton I'd learned there wasn't a free paradise. That's why I take pride in lying ta people. 

Can I tell toxicity in people? Can I heal them or guide them? Can I learn what strength I need to heal them? I don't know thats why I am asking am I mentally deranged? Am I that evil psycho? Yeah its easier to discriminate because everyone gives into hate. 

Men are protective, providers and gentlemen. That's the good side of men and toxic women have shitted on good men. I know that I've been learning to live my life without these toxic women and toxic men. I'd wanted to move back because I have unfinished business to deal with these toxic people. Well I don't want to deal with these toxic people anymore.

And that's a good thing. I feel like I've been enriched with meaning, significance, value and purpose here. These women of Mawita'mk Society are questionable. But I know that I have been loved, created memories and enjoyed their company. Friends nah. 

People die and fuck every day. This world where technology can provide online dating or potential dating is something. I know that I never had any relationship experiences because I was hated. I am excluded and isolated because I don't need ostracization, I'd lived it. 

I know that people become homeless. And I am living in my own hometown apartment. Yeah like most of my enemies would allow such things. I cannot fuck in peace, I cannot eat in peace, I cannot be left alone and play in peace. And I cannot listen to music in peace. Peace is non-violence living and having a good head on my shoulders. It's saying that Eskasoni is peaceful with low crime rate. But it isn't and I cannot move because I have too many enemies. 

I know that my enemies don't want me to build muscles and gain experience because they afraid I might torment them. Feeling spent because I was on dialysis and don't have any powers, control and influence in We'koqma'q community with Mawita'mk Society. I know disempowerments when I experience it. 

I've been learning perseverance, endurance, forbearance and composure. I know that I've practiced all that and kept on going. The power of discriminations is what everyone don't want to stop.