My Enrichment

I know that I want a richer, higher and better life in terms of my aspects of independence, as in driving, spirituality, Treaties and reading experiences. In fitness, work and recreational activities. I know that I've been through so much in my life that I have an rich life of traumas, healing, forgiving but not forgetting. 

And I know that I've learned emotional intelligence through relationships and therapy. My enrichment of life I want to have nature as my religion and work as a Professional Firekeeper for Eskasoni Rehab. I want to be well immersed into the culture, tradition and heritage of my people. And I want to be well educated, trained and experienced with my culture, tradition and heritage. I want to know what it means to be Mi'kmaq. I used to be an outdoor kid and love nature walks. Now I got to reconnect with the outdoors and be an Outdoorsman. I know that I want to be immersed into the music, heritage and accomplishments of my people.

I know that I am not in the city and I know that I cannot participate in this economy, at first because I was surrounded by racists and greedy people. But I got my ALP education, Trade and couple community programs, Unama’ki Driving School program and Eskasoni NADACA Prevention Online Wellness program.

I know that I want to live back home but there is my doubt of domestic respect, safety and security. I know that I don't want to go through the same things like I did before. And I know that I've been discriminated against others.

I know that I miss Eskasoni but I don't want to ruin this life and I want to keep developing, growing and thriving. I know that I would struggle and hurt in Eskasoni. There is a plethora of cultural, traditional and knowledgeable heritage in Mi'kmaq Studies.
The ideologies, practices, customs and rituals of the culture, tradition and heritage. What political advantages we had in all this mess? And what relationships with Canada, the Church and RCMP is toxic?

I know that I have a fulfilling life where I satiated my hierarchy of needs. Abraham Maslow proposed this idea in A Theory of Human Motivation. And have been widely accepted by scholars, teachers and instructors. I even think it is accepted by Counselors and Therapists. I know I just need self-actualization of my Mi'kmaq Spirituality, Culture, Tradition and Heritage.

I know that I've been working slowly on my needs and I know that I needed warmth, water, food and a place to rest. I had an apartment in Eskasoni but then I needed safety and security needs. And to have a greater sense of purpose with a woman.

I know that I needed belonging and love. Now I just got to fulfill aspects of my life with economic aspect, mental aspect, spiritual aspect, emotional aspect, behavioral aspect and self aspect. Like the 7 dimensions of health based on the Medicine Wheel. I feel that I have to work on aspects of my life because I have appreciated Mawita'mk Society. And I want their approval to live by myself in due time. I want to be extremely independent where I got my driver's license, BA degree and job. Where I could save up for my own car.

I know there is the bottom of the basic needs in Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. The Physiological and then safety and security. Than belongingness and love. Which with Mawita'mk Society I have safety and security. So, I realize that I'm missing a lover in my life. And my Mi'kmaq Spirituality, Culture, Tradition and Heritage.

I know that I want my driver's license, lover, and Mi'kmaqness. I know that I have a lot to consider and I know that I want to have everything in my life to function. I know that my enrichment of life is because of Mawita'mk Society so far. But I want to be independent and strong. I want to be resilient, respected and treated good. I know that I want to be well immersed into Cape Breton cultures. And I want to speak the languages of this land.

I know that I have something of a fulfilling life. I just don't have a lover in my life. Or driver's license or BA degree. I know that I want to live in Eskasoni on my own where its free to be sexual. And I know that I want to be independent and free. See? I have disabilities and my needs are different. So my needs are met with Mawita'mk Society and I know that I could get my driver's license, BA degree and job.

I know that I could be integral, crucial, central and essential to Mawita'mk Work Program. I know that I could be a counselor but work as a We'koqma'q Health Center Addiction Counselor. But if I do live in Eskasoni and work there, I could become my stepfather's Professional Firekeeper. A cultural volunteering duty of sacred teachings and upbringing. I was born to do this for my family and I know that I want to have a Firefighter's outdoor fitness and be immersed into the cultures of Cape Breton.

I want to follow my stepfather because he follow the culture, tradition and heritage of Mi'kmaq nation. And I know that I want to be well immersed into that Spirituality of Mi'kmaq. I know that I want to be going through the Firekeeper kind of life. And be a Firefighter of Eskasoni or We'koqma'q. I know that i don't want to be just sitting on my ass. I want that motivation.

That motivation that my stepfather inspires out of sheer willingness to act. And it was pro-active, favoring action over laziness. And I know that I don't want to just react, respond but I want to get used of doing actions for myself. The will to act was bestowed on me and I know that I want to set an example of exemplary skills and knowledge. I want to show that I have a good workethic, commitment and self-discipline in work, school and volunteering. I hope that I could develop, grow, prosper and thrive in We'koqma'q community. It has good music, good Netflix shows, good food and good company. It is a cherished value of mine to have such healthy people around me and eat at that table.

It's an old Mi'kmaq taste that I have. And it gets inspired when there is good music, good food, good drinks, good company and good Netflix shows or radio shows after the meal.
I listen to some podcasts like Much podcast. 

And other podcasts on CBC radio app. I live in a group home and I need that much positivity to get my motivation directed for them. I know that I have a protectorial instinct and I know that I am an unofficial security and safety officer.

I know that I am learning a lot from my stepfather, from my real family and father. And I am learning the value of good company. I listened to radio shows like Strombo Show, the Vinyl Tap and Drive and Aftetdark. I listened to 60s and 70s and 80s music on YouTube Music app. And I listened to Heavy metal to rock and soul music, to a whole diversity of music. Family is the key inspiration for my happiness and I know that I'd learned to enjoy music through their company. I enjoy music by myself and better with company that enjoys all sorts of music. I feel happy, joyous and glad that I got this far.
I could've died many times by myself. And I could've missed many things that Rosie Sylliboy caught. And I congratulate Mawita'mk Society for their service for eleven years and counting. My enrichment isn't fulfilled yet. I still need a good woman by my side and I am working on that.

I know there is many pretty women but I don't want a woman that's willing to betray me for my protection. I am an old warrior and I am a 35 years old soldier in a way. I know that I will protect myself if necessary. But I don't dominate. That's my flaw and I will live with that. I am the older brother, precedent taken by my two oldest brothers Steve and Luke. Of Billie Jean and Katt, Edna and Shannon, Mark and Sonny, Matthew and Vincent. I know that I have to show respect and I am still learning to be a humble leader of this little rad tag home team of a family. I would try to protect but they refused my help.

I have to show respect for their brains. Their independence and free thinking creativity. I know that I want to better myself at relationships and relationships dynamics. It's not shirking my responsibilities or priorities either. It's letting them grow in these communities and learn their own solutions. It's unique to see what they have cone up with.

I know that I want to be the oldest brother where I could protect. I love then that much. That Metallica song" All Within My Hands" is about anger and protection. If I could control their movements like Mario or Tekken or Mortal Kombat. I would be winning every time.

I know that I havebt fulfilled my sacred brotherly duty to teach, guide or instruct. I know that I wanted to but I had to let the parents do their jobs and work within limits.