My Potentials, Workables and Angles

I know that my potentials of today's First Nations are extremely fraught with inequities and economic conditions where they have to face racism and a systematic racism. I've been fooled by racistic people that don't want me to succeed or thrive in this life. I know that my people have endured injustices across the nation and I know that we have suffered violence by the same people that's supposed to protect us. RCMP and DFO is a disgrace and horrible people that don't want to do their jobs for First Nations. Considering that RCMP is fraught with the Indian Residential Schools, you would think they would sprucen up their image with First Nations. But nothing to that effect.

I know that I care about my people and the recent 215 Indian Residential School children that have died should be answered for. And the pope should apologize. I know that I want to talk with the pope and see what he says.

I know that I care about my First Nations and Native Canadians. I feel that I want to be part of the system and working with the system somehow. I know that I've had a lot of teachings, life lessons and life experiences in my time with Nova Scotia. And I heard that Canada consider themselves separate from Nova Scotia. They don't know Canada’s history in its truest sense. Which makes for the national common values twisted in a way.

Man's Search For Meaning and Modern Man's Search For a Soul. I got two books I wanted those many years ago and I know that they are classics. I want to finish reading Trauma and Addiction by Dr. Tian Dayton and I want to finish another book. First Nations, Identity and Reserve Life. I know that I've talked about reading these books but I haven't picked up the Trauma and Addiction book since I read about that entry. I know it's a tough book and most of my books are a tough read.

I want to be experienced like that in my reading habits where I learned everything about my people's spirituality, Treaties, history, culture, traditions, customs and communities. I know that I want to be learning everything I need to to relate to another culture like this. Before the trauma there were life before the trauma and I know that I've experienced happy, glad and thankful joyful heaven of a home. I know that I was ignorant of the world and I did not want to learn anything because of the thankfulness and joy I got from living the life I've had with God then. I was in His presence and I know that I wanted to do anything that was good because of God, my worshipping parents and my older brother.

After the trauma I'm happy that I've recovered, satiated that I've recuperated. Joyful that I'm in a safe place again and thankful for Mawita'mk Society.

I am proud of my graduations. And I know that I'll need to get my driver's license and BA degree. I know that I got a lot of books like Getting Well Again, The Dialogues of Plato, The Inconvenient Indian, The Red Road to Wellbriety and Neuroethics: Mapping The Field. I hope that I could read all these books in due time and finish them in due time.

I know that I got a few books I would love to read right now but I'm working on Trauma and Addiction. And hopefully, I can figure out how to apply this knowledge into my life. I got a book coming to me, Neuroethics: Introduction with Readings. I hope that I could do this in my recreational studies and researches of the brain to figure out what's right and what relationships are effective in maintaining my sobriety. Through these recreational studies and researches I hope that I could make a good entry or post on my Facebook about these books.

Right now with Trauma and Addiction book I am at chapter nine and learning about life after trauma and before trauma. I know that I am learning a lot with this book and I know with First Nations, Identity and Reserve Life I hope that I could get a better understanding and comprehension of my Nova Scotia First Nation Communities. There should be a Nova Scotia First Nation Communities Act where they have to keep productivity and recreational studies into these lands. I know that I've been living with recreational studies and researches into the mind and how to be right for myself.

The potentials of my life today is immensely great because of the hard work of TRC, Native organizations and tribal councils. And other things in my life that make my Cape Breton University's education a gift to appreciate in this life. I am no longer the wayward son but the recovered little boy.

I was known as the Sick Kid and the Shit Disturber. I know that I was learning a lot of patience and coping skills. Emotional entertainment and pastimes to learning how to cope with life with nothing to do. Recreational studies and researches into the relationship dynamics of addicts is Dr. Tian Dayton's specialty. And I know that Dr. John Gottman is the better half of this social atom diagram. I feel immensely confident, appreciative and joyful of the fact I am coming from Eskasoni and I have suffered and recovered there. And done my best there.

I know that Eskasoni could only provide so much and I know that in my two distinct worlds of social atoms, I feel that I have to learn a lot of patience and pastimes to coping skills. Emotional intelligence and literacy through reading and recreational studies and researches into the mind, relationship paradigm and other things of life.

I know that I could learn a lot about psychodrama and other therapies that are I'm used with this life. I know that I could learn a lot with certain things and get into industry with a PhD. I feel that I'm not so stuck with certain things and I want to keep developing my skills and dedicate a lifong learning journey with Employability and education. That includes recreational studies and researches into my books and encyclopedias and dictionaries. Hoping to have my driver's license and BA degree. I hope that I could read all my books in due time.

I know that I'm working on Dr. Tian Dayton's book Trauma and Addiction: Ending the cycle of pain through Emotional Literacy. I know that I want to have tough reading experiences and I know that I could relate to these books. I was adopted by my step parents and they have provided a stable, functional, comfortable home.

And I knew, with compounded grief, that I would never have the good life as good as my parents have created in ways. I know that with that grief, and the compounded grief, the grief of losing a battle and earning a paradisacal place. I felt I did not deserve anything. And I wanted to, out of independence and self-reliance, to create my own happy place of joyful heavenly, musical and technological and updated home. I wanted to turn that apartment with Rosie Basque, into a comfortable home with WiFi, accessories, homey feel, cooking, online accounts and online banking. And other things to create a happy home.

I know that I wanted to have the easy life with living in Eskasoni. But everyone has anxiety issues and control issues that they did not want to teach me how to do it. I know that I have all that accounts and online banking now. But I should've had it in my living.

It would've been easier. It would've been easier with a smartphone and online accounts. I know that I wpuldve been walking less and building a life better. Especially, with that address it would've been well used. 

Ordering washer and dryer. And so much. I would've hustled and got so much monies that I would've had something earlier in my life.

I just got a new app for all my hiking. I am on Nova Scotia Hiking clubs on Facebook and I got Alltrail app. I know I got Command Rides and I know that I could look for 4-wheeler trails with that. I know that I could live a good life with all these apps and spend $50 every week steadily until I can get a real job. I know that I could get something going for me with the New Activity Center known as Uncle Ben's Place. I know that I could get a better pay one of these days. And I know that Rosie is the great manager of Mawita'mk Society.