Reminiscing About Eskasoni Home Sweet Home

I know that I have lived without online banking most of my 30s and twenties. I have lived without online accounts and online banking. I have lived without a smartphone and a laptop. I have lived without a computer or cable. I have lived without a car and driver's license. I have lived without an educational accomplishments in my life and a good woman by my side. I have lived without many things that would've made my life easier. I know that I've walked and endured the pains of walking. But now I have my online stuff.

Eskasoni is growing and it has its own transit system in place or its going to have a transit system in place using the summer. I know that I want to move back to my old place in 74th Street when I do graduate from Cape Breton University with a doctoral degree. But for now I will wait for the assessment for Transplant list and get my BA degree.

Most professional jobs need a car and I don't have a job. I know jobs that I could walk to and get my hourly wages. I know it isn't much but I want to do it when I do get my second kidney. Hopefully, I can get assess for the Transplant list and get my second dose. And my second driver's license. I hope that I could continue in We'koqma'q for now until I can save up for a car. And get my driver's license and BA degree. I know that's my sister plan, to keep me here. Might as well make the best out of this situation and try for Firefighter's school. If that's possible.

I know that I want to be an Ground Searcher with an ATV experience in We'koqma'q area. I know that I want to be well immersed into the recreational activities like exercises, Scuba Diving, boating, whiteboard river rafting. Sky diving, skiing and snowshoes. I want to go hiking and 4-wheeling. I want to use that Mawita'mk Garage well.

Hopefully, I can make a vibrant Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tik Tok, YouTube, LinkedIn and Tumblir pictures and other posts. I know that I want to be well immersed, well educated, well informed and well taught in the land, hunting, fishing, trapping and snaring. I hope that I could get those kinds of experiences in We'koqma'q community and get to know these woods. I know the roads from traveling as a passenger with Rosie, Candice, Connie, my stepfather and stepmother. My uncles and aunts. My grandmothers. And my own driving.

I hope that I could get Skydiving tickets, Scuba Diving lessons, hiking trails and other things summery. I hope that I could get vibrant, good pictures of me doing all this and getting used of the walk, the land and the outdoors. I want to be the Outdoorsman where I could get my life in full richness of nature and recreational activities of Summer.

Recreational Activities through winter and Fall. I hope that I could get much life experiences in We'koqma'q community as I got life experiences in Eskasoni but much more. I hope that I could pay for gun ranging and practicing. I hope that I could develop, grow and mature into the outdoor fitness that I hope to get for being a We'koqma'q Firefighter.

I have went on outings with Mawita'mk Society for ten years and I cannot seem to get a woman to come home with me. Mostly because Rosie won't allow it. And I want to make the woman comfortable in my home. Feed her and make her feel special. That available woman.

But I know that I will have to move back to Eskasoni in order to find a woman. And I know that I want to be working with either Eskasoni Mental Health services or rehab.
I hope that I could get a job in Eskasoni and get my life going in Eskasoni with all the online accounts and banking. I know that I will have trouble with KJ and I know that I will have troubles in Eskasoni. So, I might as well try to make the best out of this place and make Mawita'mk group home my personal gym. And homey place.

I want to live in Eskasoni but without troubles or problems. I don't attract them but I know that I have to deal with them. I know that Eskasoni is a troubled and problematic place to live. And I know that I won't be left alone. I know that I will have to remain in this Community where I could get my driver's license and BA degree. I hope that I could because I want to get a job, a car and incomes. I want to be well adjusted to independent life in We'koqma'q community. Where I could live the rest of my life in Eskasoni.

Remembering that I used to be free and independent where I could make my own choices and work within my own skills set. I know that I had a lot of yard work, small roofing experience, six weeks job, odd jobs and collecting pop bottles. Cleaning and organizing them. And having my welfare in Eskasoni. If I could get Eskasoni Welfare system to do Direct Deposits, I could get Direct Deposits with GST, Welfare and other things I hope.

But I know that I had past partners but I know they were empty gestures. And I couldn't make a good life out of them. I feel that I had love but I wasn't able to capture it because at the time I had trauma-filled emotions and I was in chaos. I couldn't keep an apartment clean or keep up with stuff. I was declining in my mental health and I know that I had to move to We'koqma'q, from Eskasoni. I am high functioning and I have abilities.

I know this because I remember learning life skills and life lessons with my dads and I couldn't really explain it at the time but I was learning deep psychological theories and beliefs. I was learning to go by theories and learn to keep critical, keen and creative. I learned to keep an intelligently open-minded view of life. I know that there was all sorts of walks of life and I know that I had to accept that. I feel that I could develop, grow and educate myself in Mawita'mk apartment. But I know that I'll need to be punctual and learn to keep a good schedule going. Mawita'mk Society isn't what they consider fair-minded. I know that I needed to use the bathroom a few times at medicine time.

I know that they monitor my use of the English language and want me to cool down with the swearing. I know that I can't get comfortable and simply shoot the shit. I feel like that's fucked up for an adult environment.

I know that they don't treat me like an adult and I cannot get comfortable enough to shoot the shit. I know that they want to create or make me into the modern man of weak and meek feelings. And I know that I don't want to feel like that. A few times they got me to watch my mouth and I know that Fleur and Connie are vocal about the profanity.

They shouldn't have authority over me. Just simply support me in what I need. And I need to shoot the shit without children around. I want to be the good vibrant conversationalist of my dark comedy. I grew up shooting the shit with friends and I know that we use profanity frequently. It was a way to get comfortable and loving. I know that I couldn't really have that at a professional environment because Mawita'mk Society isn't my home. It's a good place to live but it isn't a real hone where I have to pay for room and board. Or rent. It's a place to recuperate.

It's a place to recover and get educated at. I feel that I could use Mawita'mk Society for support for my dialysis but I know that I want to be well educated in Cape Breton University. I know that I could get my driver's license and BA degree in Eskasoni since they are going to have a public Transit system put in place in summer. And I know that I have to wait until everything is settled and I have everything set up in Eskasoni.

Anyways, they treat me good all in all. And I had many cherished memories here for ten years. And I know that if I do move back to Eskasoni I would have to set everything up medically. I have to take care of my medical stuff like medical appointments and other appointments. I know that I have been living the good life since I got here and I wouldn't mind getting a job posting stuff on many social media for Eskasoni. And I know that I want to work that kind of communication.

And have Eskasoni Community News on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Tik Tok, YouTube, LinkedIn and Tumblir. I know that I want to be posting stuff online and give Eskasoni all the benefits of social media platform. I would post upcoming events like Elections and what is necessary for Chief Leroy to make a laundry list of problems in Eskasoni. And how to deal with them.