Remembering Eskasoni Hometown For A Sec

I know that in Eskasoni I lived a simple life. I didn't have any technology, no Playstation consoles, no X-box 360 or no PSP. I did not have a computer desk or laptop. I did not have online banking or WIFI. I know that I definitely did not have help from family to go out and get stuff I need. My bank was Credit Union and people wanted to get in and control my Financials. I couldn't get a moment of restful sleep because so many wanted to bother me at night.

I know that I've been through so much in my twenties that I couldn't really get used of living the good life. Humility and self-reliance wasn't the answer and I know that I had to learn that freedom came at a price. I always learned that lessons from bullies in so many people. I'm kind of sadden that I lost that opportunity to build a updated version of my hometown apartment. I did not trust my sisters or anyone about technology.

I did not know how versatile a smartphone can be. I wish I had all this technology in my hometown apartment. It would've been really good to have. It would've gave me an edge instead of relying on walking endurance. I know it takes a day to get to Sydney and back. That was my only means of shopping. But with this Covid-19 pandemic I fear that I cannot go anywhere. I know that I want to move back home with all that I have accomplished, got and started on. I just got to wait it out until I can get a second kidney.

Eskasoni could make me feel like I don't have any friends. Just dysfunctional friends when in fact I got friends that want to heal, forgive and work. I know that I have a lot in my life and I am rich by the definition of commaderie, friendships, knowledge, education, life experiences, books, pdfs, encyclopedias, eBooks, magazines, comic books, dictionaries, articles and entries.

I know that I have tons of people for information and help. I just got to ask. But I know that I have to make a good case for it. I owe a lot and I know that through Mawita'mk Society and Eskasoni Public Transits Service, I could pay back if I could get a good paying job in Eskasoni. I know that I could be more balanced, moderate, frugal and careful with my money, professional skills, driving skills and fitness. I know that I could become a paying person through financial management and budgetary schemes.

I know that I could get good plans for recycling business. I know that I could get something going for me in Eskasoni and live in We'koqma'q community with Mawita'mk Society. And since I don't need to pay rent or mortgage, I could get email information for online banking and have all my past debts paid. I know that I could stay here longer and I know that I got to find ways to make money.

I could have two incomes as a counselor and a laborer. I know that once I do get my second kidney I would be more free and independent. But I know that I have to be patient and wait for certain things to get better. I have to wait for this little health problem to pass and I hope that I could get my second kidney.

I know that We'koqma'q community, with Mawita'mk Society is an ideal place to pay all my debts off if I do get a job in Eskasoni or We'koqma'q. I would prefer We'koqma'q community because the commute will be hard. I would have to wake up early and get my ride from Eskasoni Public Transits Service. But if I could get a work term job in We'koqma'q community I hope that I could get a good paying job part-time. I know that I will have to study part-time and work part-time. I know that they have a good community here.

I just miss my hometown. That's all. I wished I could've had Eskasoni Public Transits Service long ago. I know that I am working on getting back to school. I know that I had a good support system in NSCC Strait Campus. But I want to be working on my education in Cape Breton University.

I've romanticize an ideal return to that kind of freedom. I know that I have a lot of good health center services here. Mawita'mk Society's service and care and modus operandi is pretty good disabilities service that has a lot of cultural, traditional and social aspects to it. As well academic.

My specialty is addictions and relationships. That's what I want to specialize in with my psychology major. I hope that I could get a good job in We'koqma'q community because I would need to specialize in relationships and addictions.

I know that I want to specialize in relationships and addictions through couple programs with CBU. I know that I could become a good counselor and work in this area of my volunteer specialization experience. I know that I have a good understanding of the basic functionality of life skills. And I have a good understanding of sobriety and a good happy home. I know that I could get a good job in We'koqma'q community and walk to my jobs for now.

I would want to be included or belong to a family or group because my traditional and cultural pride allows me to enjoy social/cultural networking. And to gain a good understanding of my people through lessons, stories, books and other ways of teaching. I know that I have learned philosophy of diversity by the saying " accept all walks of life. May it be four legs, eight legs, two legs or three legs."

I have a sense of control and reasoning of better self-discipline and habits. With Mawita'mk Society I could learn to manage my life with their help to be more pro-healthy in a whole and holistic way of a quality lifestyle overall. I could get a good sense of me being trained and helped for my personal health. I know that Mawita'mk Society respects my independence but too how to balance the respect of independence and disabilities with a measures of preventives with my patience?

And I know that I'm liked to be healthy, strong and enduring way in a healthy way. I know that I have made headway of my life in eleven years in We'koqma'q community. I know that I have a good ideal home to pay all my debts off in order to develop a good relationship. I know that I could learn to emotionally attuned to my family, extended family and precious Mawita'mk Society.

I'm still learning this emotional literacy, emotional intelligence, emotional self regulation and emotional attunement. That's what build emotional connections to grow, develop and prosper in ways of personal development, emotional heritage and shared experience. I know that Emotional Attunement is the beginning of all emotional reality in a relationship.

Emotional communication is a skill starting out with emotional attunement. Attunement is attending to relationships like a radio frequency of emotional reality, provide emotional safety for birds and animals but be compassionate for yourself. Be patient with yourself and try to tune into the emotional radio frequency of our world. Turn towards your partner for emotional safety. She is strong and tough for you. She has been.good to you. Emotional understanding requires patience and compassion.

It is dealing with the emotional radio frequency of your world. Try one thing at a time. Act like you're lost in space and you and that one thing is the only thing that's keeping your emotional sanity.

Try to non-defensively listen to your partner or animals. Depending on depth of emotional trauma. Paying attention to the nature or that one thing can help, do it. You are in recovery and have to be emotionally nurtured.

And empathize to your lover. She has been through a lot as much as you. You two have been through a lot and you have to beat the emotional numbingness. You have to be patient, compassionate and understanding of your deeper wounds.

I got to have emotional self-discipline where I could be patient, enduring and diligent. I know that my emotional reality is dark.
But I could see the light at a good distant. I know that my complex, give-and-take is better with what emotional coping skills I have. The emotional communication reality where interaction and reception is taking place. I feel that I cannot lie or cheat people. And I know that I've emotionally loss a lot in my life. 

Friends, family and potential lovers. I don't have that willingness to be sociable in ways of enjoying the benefits of life. The intimacy I have, the dark associations and the deflections and criminal negligence I've faced over the years. I know that I had to struggle with remembering and confessing.

There was a mass suicides in Eskasoni and I know that there was a loss of youths. I would think that we had a good life in Eskasoni but the isolation and barriers of transportation in public was an issue. I know that I couldn't really move back because there is original works of redemption and other works to be.

I'm learning about relationships and addictions because I want to be a good knowledgeable student of Cape Breton University and life. I know that I want to be able to understand the shared histories of addicts and significant others. I know that I want to be a relationship and Addiction expert. Learn from my profession and figure out how to create a healthy communication of emotional literacy to build a good emotional heritage of emotional intelligence through relationships and therapy. I know that I want to teach the emotional skills and coping skills and strategies of keeping up with life.

I know that I have good life skills books for relationships, financial, career and family life. I know that emotions that are attached to memories I gave to cope with and emotionally regulate is a good progress since I've made such headway in We'koqma'q.

I know that I'm realizing the possibilities of living an immersed life of We'koqma'q community. I have been here for eleven years and I have been productive, living my life with Mawita'mk Society and getting educated through NSCC Community College. I know that I have a good life but I know that I want a car or at least get a Community Accessible Transportation program going in We'koqma'q community. Grow like Eskasoni and get a good thing going. Eskasoni, Sydney, Inverness, Cheticamp and Port Hawkesbury. I know that Strait Area Public Transit, Cape Breton Public Transit, Cheticamp could make good money with this community.

I know that I want to be able to drive to places skilfully and competently. I know that I want that kind of mindset and experience of driving. And I want to be independent and living by myself eventually. But I know that I could get work in We'koqma'q community.