The Definition of Independence

Independence is freedom from control, support and management of a ruling authority, organization or entity. I know that self-sustaining is learning life skills for myself to move back home. And live my life sensibly in a good, self-directed and self-motivated way of life skills, routines and habits. Without any support from Mawita'mk Society. It's self-supporting my own motivation, directing and managing my own life. And being self-contained and active.

I know that independence is learning from my experience and training. But my stepfather rather have me controlled and manipulated in ways of managing expectations and aspirations. I know that I want to be independent which is freedom from a regulatory group home. I know that I am trained or taught to fear certain little nuisances like living my life. Yes, there was barriers in Eskasoni community.

But as Eskasoni community is growing I am learning that I could be in Eskasoni and live my life there. There is going to be Eskasoni Public Transits Service coming in on late summer. I know that the old barriers that were there aren't anymore. I could get rides back and forth from Eskasoni to Sydney, Membertou, Port Hawkesbury and We'koqma'q community. I know that I could get used of living a good life in Eskasoni.

Being independent is deciding to build a home routines. I know the life skills, I have online accounts and I know that I could get my own mailbox in Eskasoni. I just hope that I could because Mawita'mk Society has made a convincing argument that I cannot. I am too disabled or persuaded that I'm too disabled. I know that I'm comfortably institutionalized or regulated. I know that I cannot finally move out on my own because someone will have something to say.

I know that I cannot live my life in independence because I am supervised, regulated and monitored here. Mawita'mk Society respects my disabilities but not my independence because they wouldn't control, manage or patrol my expectations or aspirations. I know that I'm not told a lot but I want to move but I'm afraid that I will bleed. There is a lot of risks involved moving out as I am.

I don't have the resolve or determination of living an independent adult life as a 35 years old. I don't have any feeling of being in control but I know that I known Mawita'mk Society for eleven years and throughout those years. I've worked on many different types of programs and got all these credentials hanging on my wall. I know that I will miss Mawita'mk Society if I do move back to Eskasoni. Wording my feelings about my hometown in a positive light is good.

But I do appreciate Mawita'mk Society's service and care. I know that I have to look for ways to explain myself because I don't have any good memories working for me. I know that I want to be well educated in Cape Breton University and live in Eskasoni. But it's hard to get an apartment because there is so many people there. I know that I have a lot of different credentials from so many different types of programs. Some similar and others good.

I know that I want to get used of this grief of losing my hometown apartment. I promised Leonard Paul that I would take care of the apartment he gave me but my sister wouldn't help me at the time I needed it. I know that she suffered but I wish there was an Eskasoni Public Transits Service back then. Right now, it's possible to live in Eskasoni and get my BA degree-training graduation from Cape Breton University.

I mean there is Eskasoni Public Transits Service but I hope that I could get enough respect of my independence to have domestic management systems and routines in place in my future apartment. I'm thankful for Mawita'mk Society reminding me about my independence and life skills. I know some survival skills but I have life experience where I've been a mentored plumber, volunteer landscape laborer and volunteer Carpenter. I know that I had tons of good work experience with my stepfather, Eskasoni community and other jobs.

But If I do move back to Eskasoni I would go to Cape Breton University's Bachelor of Arts program in Sydney and get my BA degree-training program like that. Hopefully, I get enough credits to make work terms for three semesters. I know that I'll be doing part-time studies so that way I could live my life with dialysis.

Respecting my independence is Respecting the freedom of information and choices. I know that I've been through so much that I need to sprucen up my security methods. But I need safety and being at a spot where people could hide their crimes are something. I struggle to manage my mind the right way. I know that there is a lot going on and a lot of people want my failures. I've seen that I have been hated enough that they are willing to trick or convince me that they don't hate.

I know that I have been bullied, intimidated, assaulted and home invaded. I know that throughout my life I was beaten and introduced to different people to increase my risks. I know that I wasn't living the real proper productive lifestyle of a holistic and whole kind of life. Mawita'mk Society's modus operandi in disabilities Service is an excellent way of doing stuff. But I had a past which I had to heal from.

Mawita'mk Society is trying or thinking that I have to stay here. I know that independence requires professional skills, job skills and fitness. I know that I have to be very practiced and very disciplined in routines of life skills habits. I know that I have to learn the right financial way, do the right baby steps to getting my own apartment. And become environmentally responsible.

I know that I have a good hometown, a good second home and a good understanding of Mawita'mk Society. They want me to be self-reliant in ways and build, create and share a good life with them. I know that they want me to prove my independence like a self-governance of my life, to show life skills education and a good understanding of life lessons, stories and articles. I know that Mawita'mk Society is the ideal place to set up my homebase, not home headquarters, in We'koqma'q community.

I know that I could live here and set up my Twitch online gaming station in this homebase. I know that I could have an outdoor life and an indoor, online life. I know that I could set up a command station seat in one of those apartments. I want to be a part of a future like Star Trek. With generations of doctors, military men and scientists that we have a Solar-powered technological, Galaxy-class spaceship that is powered by the stars.

The economies of First Nations was redistributive economies were gift-giving was essential for food, clothing and other things. There are types of exchanges or economic exchanges in today's economics. We never knew greed but we are learning how to share our knowledge. Be the multilevel of Canadian economics. I know that I want this Canadian nation to welcome us like Treaty Indigenous people. Through intergenerational Reconciliation there is hope.

But they have to accept the crimes against humanity, the cultural Genocide, war crimes, and crimes of aggression through RCMP, Vatican and Canadian government. I know that they have to be patient, working on our shared journey of Reconciliation steps. In 2017 the Trudeau administration was building a pipeline and they weren't consulting Treaty-land Indigenous people.

A premise is based on an argument, theory or undertaking( experience) and I know that my premise is based on my young upbringing of body politic of the past assimilatory discriminations, stereotypes and prejudice. I know that we had redlining, racial colorism in the community and methods of division through assimilatory modus operandi. But Trudeau administration is not fulfilling their promises of building nation-to-nation relationship with Indigenous, Mètis and Inuit peoples. I know that we have to be patient.

But we are sick and tired. We just found bodies of unmarked graves in former Indian Residential Schools. I know that we are going through a lot and the number is going up. I know that we could've had a lot of good people in Canada and live. But to simply live isn't good enough, we have to work extra hard to get real justice from the Trudeau administration. Ever since I'd started to follow Pamela Palmeter, I'd learned that she is a strong, intelligent and respectful woman of such great strengths and powers of truth. That she has been working on the future of Canada.

This is a criminal deflection, criminal negligence and massive-passive indifference of Indigenous injustices. They are irresponsible for what is now Canada and I know that they have been born into white privilege. A racistic advantage over disadvantaged Natives, Mètis and Inuit.

I know that racistic discriminations comes from a racistic-sexistic discriminations of First Nations. We are innocent and we don't know the world's largest human diversity, when in fact we had tons of connections and political alliances with a few settlers. I know that we got along with Gaelic, French, Irish, Scottish, German and anyone that came across our homelands. I know that we are original peacekeepers, diplomats, civic guardians and affable warriors. I know that we wanted to share these lands and create a Canadian-original multifaceted ecomonic opportunities of jobs, gift-giving and sharing of service through bartering.

We wanted Canada to reconcile with us but at first we wanted Canada to become a Treaty Nation of shared lands. We wanted to be recognized at first but John A. Macdonald had other plans. He thought he could get rid of a lot.

And Justin's father, Pierre Trudeau thought he could get rid of the Treaties of First Nations. But really its supposed to be a shared experience of these lands. That's what we wanted, a good relationship because we are sick and tired of war. We had a good peacekeepers' challenges, insurmountable odds and impossible diplomacy of Reconciliation. But we have to work together and Trudeau has to stop fighting Indigenous hometeam because Trudeau administration responsible for so much. The Indian Act, Residential Schools, Millennium Scoop, Sixties Scoop, White Paper, Enfrachisement, poor economic conditions, underfunding of First Nation essential services and online hate. I know that we are creatures of shared lands but Trudeau isn't making real efforts to reconcile. It's just all a show of for purposes of deflection, networking, finding the insights and using against us. I know that we are in these lands but it's Treaties.

Shared ecomonic opportunities, shated viable businesses and other shared infrastructural developments would be a good thing. We have given so much but I'd lost faith with the Lord that they so religiously pray to. I am hanging by a thread and want to practice our First Nation spirituality. I know that we are heading towards enlightening the people of all these and more injustices. Racism is deep-rooted into Canadian nation. We are dehumanized in the perspective of some settlers. They are holding on to their prejudice because they don't want to accept these realities of Indigenous injustices.

I know that we hadn't any problems with sharing because I know that we had to learn how to manage our own feelings about all this. The smallpox blankets, the alcohol introduction, the crimes of war like that we had endured and still we want Reconciliation. I know that we are working hard. For Murdered and Missing Women and Children, Residential Schools survivors and to show our truest sense of peacekeepers' resilience.