Busy at Mawita'mk Society

I'm always busy at Mawita'mk Society because they have cooking lessons, yoga and exercise regimen. Mawita'mk Society is a growing Charitable Organization focused on helping people with disabilities. So many changes in my life happened. I know that there was life-changers, small changes and good changes. Mawita'mk Society is the healthy life of changes. Mawita'mk Society is growing organization and changes on a life-changing infrastructure is a good thing. I know that I have been remembering changes and the last time I was hungry. It was a comfortable impending death. But Mawita'mk Society is the positive influences, life lessons, positive outcomes of changes.

I know that changes have a bad or good thing. I recognize the impacts and I know the bad well. I know that I don't want to revert back to the unhealthy, malnourished and hurting person.

I want to be a positive role model. I want to be that person that have worked on redemptive works of self-forgiveness, compassion and love. I want to be this guy who has everything I need to drive, work and live. I want to have my full driver's license, my BA degree and job. 

I want to have my second kidney, car and personal development. Eskasoni could wait and I know that changes are what I'm grateful for. Consistency and constancy is what I need in my life.

Waking up to my life, I know that I'm disabled but educated. I cannot pursue any careers that would make me money while I'm under Mawita'mk Society's care. And they cannot let that on because they want us dulled, in self-delusion and living the life they want. I know that I want to go Cape Breton University and get my BA degree-training program. But Darlene said it was too much right now. I cannot do part-time.

I know that they are using my disabilities and lack of self-discipline as an excuse to keep me here. I know that Ann Marie Power has this experience with dealing with stubborn people. But I know that I want a better life for myself. I want to live a independent life of driving, working to my fullest earning potential and have my second kidney. 

Mawita'mk Society don't want me to write about those limitations of living here. I cannot rationalize how I am outgrowing Mawita'mk Society. It's like my independence is being subsumed like I have no right. I cannot get my full driver's license, BA degree or a job.

Even though there is limitations in this Mawita'mk Society. I still think that I have a good group home that has been helping me so far in this world. I got my ALP diploma, I got my Certificates and trade. I need to renew my Beginner's license.

But I know that I've been living a good life here in We'koqma'q community. It's just that there are some limitations that I have to work at. I know that I'm not allowed to make a good earning here in Mawita'mk Society because I have a lot to be thankful for. But I feel that I could make a good living in Eskasoni.

As I know this, I know that won't be allowed because I am paranoid schizophrenic. I have a lot of disabilities that I have to take care of. And living by myself, I know that it would be a struggle to get what I need to eat and live. Welfare won't do because I don't want to be on welfare. I know that I cannot get any rides back and forth from Sydney. And I know that I will be struggling to maintain a good-feel place.

I know that I'm stuck where I'm at. I cannot move or go back home.

Plus, what Mawita'mk Society represents for the family. The family sees Mawita'mk Society as a good home. They wish that they had something like this in their lives. Mawita'mk Society is a safe, growing place where it's the heart beat of the community. I know that it's their escape from me. I know that I need to start practicing my life skills because my stepfather believes that I'm not fit to live my own life on my own. And I know that my stepfather sees me as lazy. I cannot do what I need to because I am paranoid schizophrenic.

But I know that I could donate I need to do. To prove that I'm capable of living my own life. But I know that I need Mawita'mk Society now because my kidney is functioning to a degree or percentage. But I know that I'll need Mawita'mk Society until I can get my second kidney. I know that I've learned a lot in my time in We'koqma'q community.

I know that I've done a lot in my time in We'koqma'q community. But I want to have my own place at Eskasoni and live my life there. But I know that I enjoy the comforts, opportunities, benefits, routines and perks of Mawita'mk Society. I know that I got it good in ways of cable, WiFi and transportation. I know that I want to get my second driver's license and second kidney. But I have to be patient with everything. I know that the Transplant people are working hard.

I just hope that I could get on the list and get my second kidney. I feel that my luck is starting to get realized here. And I hope that I could renew my Beginner's license. So, that way I could get my second driver's license. Or at least work at it. I know that I need to work on my driver's license and personal fitness. I want to keep doing a lot in my time in We'koqma'q community. I hope that I could get fitness in my daily routine, and chores.

I know that I'm making my life in We'koqma'q community with the goals of getting my full driver's license, my BA degree and other degrees and Certificates I hope that I could get from Cape Breton University. I know that I want to be in good standing with Eskasoni and We'koqma'q community. I know that I want to have a good, positive impacts in this community. I want have my educational goals of having my BA degree majoring in Psychology, Bachelor of Psychology, Master of Psychology and Doctorate. I hope that I could get that far with a physical fitness where I have reached a muscular fitness. I want to have good habits in my life and get information on a regular basis of my life.

I know that that's the reason why I'm staying here because Eskasoni Public Transits Service isn't ready, Eskasoni is just growing. And I'm always busy at Mawita'mk Society because I get to go out, get to do chores.

Inherent in Trust is the potential of betrayal and I know that I have to work at trust. I know that there are new workers at Mawita'mk Society and I know that I miss living in Eskasoni. I just hope that I could get my second kidney and move out. Remembering that I want to get my full driver's license and BA degree majoring in Psychology. I know that I've learned emotional intelligence through relationships and therapy. Therapy is the emotional work of the mind and not psychiatry.

I know that I need to work at my health and general medications. I need to learn my schedules to live an independent life. I feel that I'm enriched with knowledge, experience and driving experience. I know that I need to live my life now but I hope that apartment is on hold until I can get my name on the list. I want to get a feel-good moments if I do get a new apartment in Eskasoni.

I want to thrive in Eskasoni where I could get a job in there. I know that I want to get my driver's license and BA degree, a good car and a good general fitness until I get stuck muscular fitness. I hope that I could create memorable moments in We'koqma'q community where I sky dive, drive, Scuba Dive, do outdoor activities and be an exceptional Outdoorsman. I want to be well immersed into Cape Breton adventures and outdoor activities. I want to be this guy who is up for everything even though he doesn't want to. I know that I will be happy at the end of the day because I got agood home. Meal is cooked and my bed is made.

I know that I'm lazy with certain workers and I hope that I could implement a routine in We'koqma'q community. I want to be social outdoors in Winter, Fall, Spring and Summer. I want to get used of the outdoors throughout the seasons and be a seasoned veteran.

I want to be a seasoned veteran Outdoorsman that has a lot of construction experience, building and shoveling. A good exercises and walking. I want to be this one doing outdoor activities in the winter, spring, summer and Fall. I want to be this guy who is sociable outdoors and have a good memberships to gym, to ATV groups, to all sorts of hiking and outdoor activities page and apps. I want to have that kind of experience with We'koqma'q community. I want to be sociable person in outdoor activities. Learning how to share my life with these community members and enjoying the good times in We'koqma'q community.

I have 25 years in Eskasoni and I have 21 years with renal transplant kidney. My first kidney. Now I just need a second kidney and hopefully, I can get my muscular fitness through outdoors. I know that I could improve some stuff here.

But I know that I don't have much of a choice when it comes to my life. I know that Connie and others like to tell me that I'm limited. I know that I'm going through some stuff and I cannot really enjoy my routine. I know that I have significantly drank less than what I'm want to. I know that it's a hard life on dialysis and I know that I have to be strict on myself. Connie doesn't believe that I can be strict on myself because they all believe that I'm lazy.

I've been trying to keep busy at Mawita'mk Society since I got here. I want to be this guy that doesn't waste time no matter what. But apparently I have to drop out of school and get nothing in my name. They are focused on keeping me here until I can drive, have my second kidney or grow up. I hope that I could get my full driver's license and BA degree in my future. Today's time I have to be this guy who has everything I need to live in Eskasoni on my own.

I know that I want to be happy with my life but I hate it when Mawita'mk Society puts restrictions on me. I know that I have to remain open, forgiving and trusting. But it's a struggle and baby steps I have to take for all that. There is limitations and a growing restrictions in my life. I know that I want to be this person that is a tough earner. I want to be this diligent, tough earner that earns everything in my life. 

But I have learned that we are a redistributive socioeconomic society. And I have to be more aware of my options. I know that I have to get my full driver's license but I have to be patient with everything. I an on dialysis but it doesn't mean I cannot go to school or work. But Mawita'mk Society wants me to take it easy when they have me do things for them. I mean I haven't been that active with them but I know that I want to move out on my own in Eskasoni. But that seem like a lost cause because I'm deemed. 

Yes, they are not bullying me but I feel that I'm learning again. For the first time. I know that I've been through this before and I know that I want to be this independent, resourceful and smart kind of guy who has street smarts. I want to be this guy who needs social life instead of deindividuational social abuse.