Higher, Richer and Better Quality of Life Pt1

A woman in my life could be a game-changer. She could give me increase in a greater sense of purpose. And I could learn to do more with my brain. I know that I want to have a strong woman behind me and have a good woman too. I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. And I don't want to spoil it by ruining date nights or anything like that. I want to be this guy who suffers the consequences in a therapeutic way. And I want to learn much as I can about social justice.

I've learned to be happy with less. And I know that I want to be this guy who is active and productive in his life. I want to have work in my life as well exercises and walking. But I have so much that I cannot live without my books. I know that I want to live my life in Eskasoni because I wonder about life in Eskasoni. I hope that I could live back in my hometown.

It would mean I could explore my life even more. I know that I want to get my full driver's license and BA degree. I want to be independent in a way where I have my full driver's license and BA degree. I just got to renew my Beginner's license and get more driving experience in. I want to earn my sister's trust in driving, if I do that. That means I have mastered a level of driving to a competency level. And my next driving Certificate will be Halifax.

If Rosie could invest in me for driving. I could get a good driver's license and full insurance. I want to be the next driver at Mawita'mk Society. I hope that I could get my own car and I don't have that much financial needs. I have everything I need here. I just got to get them to point A to point B and back again. It's just a routine of driving and working for Mawita'mk Society. I know that I could handle the driving.

But she wouldn't because I have to be in constant routine with driving her mother back and forth from dialysis. I have to stay home and live my life with limitations. I know that I want to be well immersed into driving. And I want to embrace the road life. I want to be a roadie and live my life with a good car. I know that I have to be patient and enduring. I just have to be this guy who is patient because getting my driver's license takes time. I cannot get my full driver's license because I cannot get my sister's approval and trust. I haven't earned it. I know that I need to practice with Billie Jean.

I have to be patient with that. I have to re-focus on my schooling and health. I need to schedule my drivers in Eskasoni and hopefully, get a good driver from Eskasoni tomorrow morning. I need to get Darren to order Lamisil and I need to call Eskasoni Health Center for drivers.

I know that I need to get my courses done up and I need to get my Lamisil and good drivers for my appointments with Sydney Renal Clinic. I hope that I could get used of living like this. I hope that I could get my second kidney.

I know that a woman could make me feel much better. I understand that she could be my second income. And I could be this guy that has much to offer to her. I want to be this handy family guy. I know that I need to practice my home improvement skills. I want to have everything I need to be independent in a skilful way. I want to have plumbing skills, I want to have building skills and I want to have installment, assembly, build and cut my woods into benches, picnic tables and other things. I want to be this everyman kind of Handyman. I want to be a skilled tradesman. I want to have a background in Construction and cleaning.

To love a higher educated life of richer and better quality of life. I have to work on my physical fitness until I can get my muscular fitness. And hopefully, I can be coordinated, balanced and have far-reaching and long-lasting benefits of fitness, mindfulness meditation and education. I hope that I could get a good mindful transition from incorrect thinking to correct thinking.

I know that I want to learn everything I need to work this brain of mine. I know that I'm heterosexual and I want to continue to get off of boobs and pussies. But I know that my sexuality has cone into question because I'm struggling to get a date. I don't have any help in that area. And I need a good woman to increase my sense of purpose. I know that Curly thinks that and so does my stepfather. 

But my real dad doesn't think that. I hope that I could get a woman. I know that I'm struggling in the relationship department.

I could live a higher, richer and better quality of life with a woman. I know that I could because most of the women I have isn't for relationships. I just want to do something in their twenties. But I know that I'm the last of my kind.

I'd enjoyed today. I took the garbage down and took the box down to the garbage bin. I cleaned out the recycling bin in the laundry room. I came from dialysis today and I ate leftovers. I shaved yesterday but I did not shave today because I had dialysis. I went to see Adrienne's chicken and got a small coffee. I know that today was a good day. I posted a blog earlier and it's 10:24 pm.

I know that I had a good day. I made my bed and sone a lot with Adrienne and Connie today. They are good motivators but for some reason I felt anxiety with them. I know that I had control over it.

I know that tomorrow I need to make couple calls to Eskasoni Health Center, to dialysis unit and email my funders,or message them. I hope that everything turns out alright. And I pass this Cape Breton University with good grades. I know that I need to work everything I need into the writing skill I got. I know that I suffer a little alexithymia and I know that I need to work on my memories. I know that I have a good family with all their flaws and all their good influences. I know that is what makes life so difficult. Having the good with the bad.

I know that I want to learn a lot. I just have to keep exercising this brain. I'm used of doing that and I just got to keep doing it. I know that I have enjoyed a relaxed life at Mawita'mk Society. I have enjoyed a few graduations and a good Beginner's license. I just got to renew that and get my 9th graduation in my life. I know there is plenty of graduations left.

I had Eskasoni Rehab graduation, I had ALP graduation, Nova Scotia Skills Record graduation, I had Construction Trades Labor graduation. I had We'koqma'q Adult Essential Skills Enhancement Program graduation, I had We'koqma'q Men's Wellness program Graduation, I had Unama'ki Driving School graduation and Eskasoni NADACA Prevention Online Wellness program graduation.

I know that is 8 graduations I've attended and I'm very knowledgeable but that means I know a few things. Not a lot. I have a rich life in We'koqma'q community but I want to get better in ways of fitness, driving and BA degree. I hope that I could become proficient in driving where I do errands and taxis. I want to be this guy who knows certain skills set and have a good standing in We'koqma'q community. I feel like my past accomplishments are mine and my alone. But if I have a good woman  I could do better.

I know that I'm educated but it doesn't mean I have to stop learning. I am an student of life and the world has plenty to learn from. I know that I'm happy where I'm at for now. I just hope that when I do get my second kidney I can renew my Beginner's license. I know that I need to work on my driver's license. I hope that Christie Cremo can make some room for me to drive her car once I ask her. And I hope that I could learn from her.

I know that my sister Billie Jean is still busy with her life. She just moved in her new home and hopefully, she can create memorable experiences in that place. I know that it's rough for a young schooler to have everything changed. I hope that she gets along well and I know that I want to see all my nieces and nephews. Ones in Millbrook and the ones in Chapel Island and with Katt and Billie Jean. I know that I love my family and I won't stop at nothing to protect them.

I know that my real dad is trying to gain my trust. I know that he wants my sister. I could tell. But I know that I have to protect my sisters from him. I know that my Syliboy blood isn't what I'm used of. My childhood was filled with the Huts because of Sharon Hut, my Godmum. I know that I miss her dearly and I know that I was helped through them.

I was taught that art is therapy and I always could practice writing whatever I wanted: a sci-fi First Nation futuresque military world. A planet full of potentials and science. And a good understanding of the trillion known galaxies as potential homes. I know that solar-powered Galaxy class spaceship is our best chance. And to make it into a technology of solar sailing, I feel that I have the front seats in the present to make good materials and resources for futuresque style of a First Nation military in the known galaxies.

With technology like smartphone, laptop, tablet and computer desktop. I know that I could move all my stuff around in Eskasoni once I do get my driver's license and BA degree. I know that I want to get my second kidney, full driver's license and BA degree in order to move out on my terms. I know that I want to be independent and living by myself. I want to have a good relationship with a good woman and live my life in Eskasoni.

I'm hoping to make it to 15 years in We'koqma'q community where I have my full driver's license, BA degree and second kidney, my fitness and richer experiences in adventures. I hope that I could learn scheduling skills and Trades. I could have my dad in my apartment and visit me. I could go visit him. And I have to learn to share my place. I know that I want to be able to drive and work in Eskasoni. I know that I want to have memorable experiences from Mawita'mk Society before I do leave.

I need to create memorable moments in We'koqma'q community. I want to be this guy that has a bunch of good moments in We'koqma'q community. I know that I got eleven years of memorable moments with the original staff I met. But I need to create memorable accomplishments like getting my full driver's license, BA degree and job.

I know that reading my books, encyclopedias, PDFs, eBooks, magazines, comic books, dictionaries, articles and printouts. I hope that I could come to an understanding of economics. An ( micro- and macro-) economical infrastructural developments in the process of my BA. I hope with everything in Cape Breton University, I could learn the political much as the infrastructural. I hope that I could create an philosophy from great literature like Rawls's Laws of The People, Hegel's Phenomenology of Spirit, Aristotle's Metaphysics, Augustine's City of God.

I know that I could benefit from Rousseau's The Social Contract. I could be this person that knows great literature in economics, relationships, addictions, types of trauma and dysfunctionalities. I know that I want to be knowledgeable in a good way. I know that I need to increase my pay and get my second kidney.

I know that I have this one life to make it good. I never had any teen romance that had far-reaching and long-lasting benefits of a greater sense of purpose. But I know that I have been living with Mawita'mk Society for the past eleven years. And they have served me well over those years. I know that I want to prove my independence to them. And I know that I cannot get a date while I'm still dependent on certain people. I know that I need time explore these options of proving myself while I'm on dialysis. And getting that kind of vouching.