Brave but Smart

If I was brave but smart I would wait until I get a second kidney to move out. Or wait until I get a second kidney, my full driver's license and BA degree to move out. I should continue to make a good life in We'koqma'q community because I have my Playstation consoles, my Unama'ki Driving Certificate, my ALP diploma, my trade and couple of credentials. I have my Xbox 360 console and video games from all those gaming consoles.

I remember the Y2K new years. We survived and computers kept going. I was all partied out and I had to go back to school. I dropped out because I thought it wouldn't mattered but I had to take TEC classes and get my ALP diploma. Which I have and which I got my trade in 2016. I know that I got my Beginner's license in 2018 and it was two years before it would expired. So, one more stage was added and I was doing pretty good. I know that Connie was overly critical but right.

I know that I was in that apartment for 4 years, working with We'koqma'q One Stop for a year and 10 months. And I had to move back to Ni'kinen house. I know that I have went through a lot during my time in Eskasoni. Throughout those years I had a lot of losses, life-changing experiences and a lot of work experiences. I know that I wanted to have my full driver's license in Eskasoni. Feeling that I'd missed out on schooling opportunities in my twenties. I know that I was taught fear and worry for the wrong procedures. I know that there was a ride to Sydney NSCC Marconi Campus. But a lot of people didn't want me to succeed.

Here I get all the rides to appointments and they are dental, gastrointestinal, dialysis and blood work, X-ray, CT scan. So far I had that much tests done to me. I have to make good with my teeth because I have to take care of them.

Having family in care and one cousin passed away. I feel that I'm learning all my skills again. I know that I had my Uncle Alex passed in 2019. I'm still trying to figure out my problem. I know that I'm care for much here. I don't have any vindictive psycho bitch trying to keep me down. I know that I don't have any good memories with Rob Shipley, Marie K Joe or any of them. I felt that I couldn't really focus on my own education without bullies or enemies. And I hate the fact that I have an inherent negative bias. I know that I've suffered under Rob's helping hand. I know that I couldn't keep anything safe.

I never knew essential skills set for an modern adult. I know that I couldn't really get my full driver's license, truck and credentials back in the day. I know that I've done so much in my time in Eskasoni but I, now exist on paper.

There is so much to live for in We'koqma'q community. I know that there are games unfinished, subscriptions to pay for and bills to pay. I know that I need to live my life in We'koqma'q community. Mawita'mk Society is an accommodation, care, service and support for native youths, elders and other Indigenous disabled. I know that I love living here because of the good meals, well prepared and cooked. I like the outings, I get to choose between bowling, pool hall or movie theater. I get to choose, too, just to eat out and go home. We go for cruises and trips to Cabot trail. We go for family vacations if family is willing. And if not we go for Mawita'mk vacation. House vacations.

My stuff is safe here. I know that I got safety, security and good staff. But safety doesn't necessarily mean secured. Sometimes small things get misplaced and I have to go after it. I know that I want to get my driver's license.

I know that Christmas is coming up. It's November 15th, Monday/2021 and the year is almost over. I know that I don't have any Resolutions yet. I know that I have used this year to get re-acclimatized to dialysis. I know that I read to an extent. And I know that I enjoy my books. I know that I have tons of good reasons to live. I know that I have coping skills, driving skills and a good plumbing skills. I could make a living in We'koqma'q community and still be able to live at Mawita'mk Society. I feel enriched with this quality of life that Mawita'mk Society, family and me have built in We'koqma'q community.

I know that I had a few people believing in me. I know that I wanted to have the latest technology experience in my old apartment. I know that I was happy where I was at first because I was collecting pop bottles during the evening, doing odd jobs during the day.
I have the comforts of routines, hominess and they keep me well informed, updated, upgraded and educated. I know my training and education is good. I know that my employment history and I know my job experiences is good here. I enjoy the benefits of learning from Mawita'mk Work Center, a good community colleges and universities. 

And I get to get my full driver's license and still be able to live here. Feeling that I have a lot of good reasons to live at Mawita'mk Society, I feel enriched and living in my basic luxury.

I know that I have my second kidney to look forward to. I am getting my assessment done from the Transplant kidney people. I know that I could learn much as I can from Mawita'mk Society because I have coping skills, social strategies and diplomatic strengths. I know that I do need to consider myself lucky because of my family.

But I do got to start taking confidence in my own skills, coping mechanisms and life skills. I know that I have tons of them because my stepfather showed me once. I got to start admitting that I got driving experience, I got to say that I got driving skills. I have driven in Sydney, Port Hawkesbury, to Eskasoni and We'koqma'q. I have drove around We'koqma'q community and Eskasoni. And got that much driving experience in.

I know that I got a good staff here. Feeling that I have an enrichments of quality of life. I feel that I am blessed with luxuries of people, technology, electronics and gaming consoles. 

I know that I have a good bed, a good company and good music. I know that I have a lot of good memories at Mawita'mk Society. And in that I have a lot of good experiences. They take good care of me by being there for me. By simply getting information they need to function as a Support Staff.

Knowing that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society for eleven long happy years. I just got to communicate what I need and I just get it. 

No strings attached. No schemes, no plans or earning back. I get to live in comforts and luxury of Mawita'mk Society where I could get my full driver's license, NSCC Plumbing Certificate and get my own truck. Still get my BA degree and still be able to live here. I know that I got my NSCC ALP diploma, I got my NSCC Construction Trades Labor program Certificate.

I got my We'koqma'q Adult Essential Skills Enhancement Program Certificate. I got my We'koqma'q Men's Wellness program Certificate and Unama'ki Driving Certificate. I got my Eskasoni NADACA Prevention Online Wellness program Certificate. I got my Nova Scotia Skills Record Certificate. I got my Mi'kmaq Treatment Center Certificate. I just need my Beginner's license renewed.

I know that I got my Playstation 4 video games, online and in CD form. I have my Original Playstation video games and memory card. I gave my Xbox 360 video games from all those years. Spending time to solve what I needed to. I know that I have been living in a good way with pride, love and a sense of contentment, satisfaction and fellowship. I know that I had a good time at Mawita'mk Society every Fridays, Thursdays or Sundays. I have a smartphone and this thing is very versatile. I have apps on it and I have bills to pay on it.

I think I'm used of life here. I feel pretty well accustomed to the holistic lifestyle of Mawita'mk Society. And in that I know what to do, I just want to be lazy sometimes. I do enjoy the comforts of Mawita'mk Society. And I know that I have a pretty good understanding of Mawita'mk policies on driving, careers and education.

They should name that the Mawita'mk Economic Resources policy. And have a good understanding of the philosophy of diversity and open-mindedness. I know that I want to be part of Mawita'mk Society in a integral way. And have my Red Seal diplomas hanging up on my wall. I want my NSCC Plumbing Certificate and NSCC Cooking Certificate. So  that way I could get my Red Seal diplomas in Cooking and plumbing. That way I have a clear understanding of jobs. The diversity of jobs, the many diversity of jobs. The companies and industries.

I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society for a while now. I have grown accustomed to Connie's strictness in ways. I know that I appreciate when she relaxes. She has self-discipline and I know that I used to have self-discipline but I'd lost it when I became diagnosed. For some odd reasoning, I cannot be strict on myself.

I have grown lazy over the years in comforts and luxury of Mawita'mk Society. I consider SUVs and vans as luxury. I never will have one of my own because I have to get my second kidney. I know that I want to have my own life in the acclimation and accustomed way of Mawita'mk Society in an active, productive and thriving lifestyle. I know that I need to live my life with Mawita'mk Society because I know that they are my transport.

I know that my real father's story is going to be written. I hope that my Syliboy and Jown family writes about their experiences. I have grown accustomed to writing poetry here, I consider this place home. I have written poems for 23 years. I know that I have started in 1998 and got my Literacy from a tutor named Joe MacKenzie. I know that I was learning about breaking down the words, sound it out techniques and how to pronounce the words.

I am writing an autobiography and hopefully, I do get some help with certain things. I want to go through my personal history on paper. I think it's important because addictions is indiscriminate and I know that I don't have any strengths to carry on. 

I know that if I do move I'm afraid that I won't be as happy as I am, with Mawita'mk Society embodying my family's level of home. I know that I have tons of reasons to live at Mawita'mk Society and that they have provided a home, meals, skills-building center and a good understanding of native cultures, traditional knowledge and literature. And a good Treaty understanding that everyone in Canada is a Treaty person.

I know that I have beeniving at Mawita'mk Society for eleven long happy years. Successful, accomplished and thriving. I felt a good happy lifestyle at Mawita'mk and I wanted to get much as I can from them. I need that support system from a wife, if I am to move. 

I know that I've been thru a lot and I got a rich autobiography to write. I could possibly write two, if possible.