I am Mi'kmaq

I know that I have been living before Facebook ever had me. I have been alive since 1985 and have 36 years on this planet. I know that I have been cousins since I was acknowledged by any social media. I know that I have rocked out on many occasions. And I know that I never had any Facebook in my teen years. My childhood never had any connections to Facebook at all. Other than pictures and people on it. I know that I have been through a lot throughout my past years before Facebook. My first Metallica CD ever was Ride The Lightning. One of my favorite CDs ever. I took good care of it and had a bunch of good moments with it.

I know that I have a collection of Metallica CDs and in that I want to keep collecting Metallica CDs. I'm that old school where I would buy their cassettes these days. I know that I want to have a good stereo with five CD players, a radio and a cassette player.

I know that I could appreciate a Five Disc CD player. I feel like I'm rich because of my collections I have. I know that I want to have a new stereo/radio. I feel like I have been living in the future where I could buy anything off the Internet. I know that I have been learning about online shopping through my sisters, female cousins and male cousins and my brothers. I used to be able to do stuff for myself without any prompts or anything. I used to clean my apartment after a good pop bottles hunting. I used to have a good amount of money in my wallet. And still have a enough groceries left to feed myself. But I remember when my groceries was stolen from me. I used to have to hustle extra because I couldn't really have any respect for my life.

It's usually threats or scheming off of me. I know that I never had any baking in that apartment that Rosie Basque had. I wanted to grow, thrive and flourish in that apartment where I could take good care of it. 

But Trent Nicholas kept on coming in. I hated that and I know that I wanted to have a good girlfriend there. But KJ bloge and Trent Nicholas had other plans. I shouldn't of let them in. Even though I'm Mi'kmaq, still I couldn't post anything online. My traumatized ass thought I needed a computer when I could've had a smartphone. Now I know that place means terrible significance to me that I don't want that apartment. I know that Rosie Basque didn't want me living there. Because I wrote on her walls like an insane person.

I know that I didn't have the support or help from Rob Shipley to clean that place. I never have any help from my friends because they are too dysfunctional. I know that I could make that Horseshoe Drive apartment the best damn apartment ever. I could've bought wood and make a shed at the side.

But ah, I couldn't because people kept on scheming off of me. I wanted some kind of garage-like shed at the side of my old apartment in 74th street. I wanted to cement or pave my driveway and have wires and plumbing for Spacemaker Washer and Dryer in my garage-like shed. I know that I could've enjoyed that little apartment with WiFi, online banking, online shopping with an online portfolio and blogs. I know that I was at a disadvantage with my enemies. I know that I didn't have any enjoyments in that apartment after I was attacked with larcenies, home invasions and thefts. I know that it wasn't the best place to have a home.

But if I had a second chance with that apartment I would be able to do all the things I wanted to do. I know that I would get approval from Rosie Basque for a girlfriend by going out on dates, and shopping for my future girlfriend.

Dating has been a traditional way of getting to know somebody. I feel like I have been living in Eskasoni without anything digital. I know that I want to go out on dates but with this pandemic world I don't think I will be able to. I know that I wanted to go back to Eskasoni when I do live my life and get Mt second transplant kidney. I have to lose weight and today I'd walked to the stop sign down my road. I know that I wanted to make that place a homey, cozy and updated place ever. I wanted to have home services like WiFi, cable and a homephone. Leaving that place was the best damn decision I ever made because I had too many enemies there.

I know that I was bullied, intimidated and threaten all my 7 years I was down there. I couldn't even keep my own Cleaning Tools and WiFi. I know that I couldn't even have a decent place without somebody coming in. I know that I didn't lived that good.

I am a former Transplant kidney patient and I couldn't really get my own rides from Sydney Renal Clinic. I couldn't really get medicine because of that. I couldn't really have any luxuries in that area. My stepfather could've cared less for my well-being like that. I know that nobody cared for my kidney because nobody wanted me healthy. I know that I'd struggled to maintain a good relationship with my own doctors. I could've solved half of my problems with online shopping, a smartphone and Playstation consoles. But no I had to deal eight people that were ready to steal from me like KJ or Trent Nicholas. I hate those guys.

I never really was able to exercise or work without somebody breaking in. I was shown it was Rob Shipley but still I did not want to believe in that. My life was so horrible on my own that everyone hated me for 7 years.  I couldn't really enjoy my own lady.

Thankfully I'd moved and enjoyed outings with my adopted Mawita'mk family. I know that I couldn't return if I wanted to because everyone here wants me to stay. Even my own family tells me to stay because Eskasoni is so fucked up with addictions. I was suffering while on my 7th year in Eskasoni. My final day in Eskasoni was pretty good. But I couldn't really enjoy moving out because so many wanted a shot at me. They were lucky that I didn't worked out. I could've kicked their asses if I kept up with martial arts. But I know that my stepfather held me back, everyone in Eskasoni held me back.

I couldn't enjoy a good meal because everyone there made me sick. Well mostly Trent Nicholas. I couldn't really enjoy my own  home because everyone kept on interrupting my home routines. I know that I couldn't get my own NSCC Plumbing Certificate from NSCC Marconi Campus because of bullies.

I am a natural recluse but I try not to be. I want to be a social butterfly like my mother. I don't know how she handled her bullies but I know that I want to have everything I need to live, work and drive around Eskasoni. I hope that in could have all the credentials I list and have my job experiences with those credentials. I want to get my Retail Council of Canada credentials where I have a good amount of education through my EI programs for educational funds. I want to return to work but at We'koqma'q Tim Hortons where I could get all that training and education from Tim Hortons.

I'm glad that I've made it out of Eskasoni but I miss it like hell. I know that Hometown Hell was where I don't want to return. I know that We'koqma'q community has a lot of good people in it. I know that I could learn to appreciate Mawita'mk Society and We'koqma'q community.

I know that I could become a serviceman through We'koqma'q Tim Hortons, Retail Council of Canada courses, NSCC Plumbing Certificate program from NSCC Marconi Campus, Cape Breton University Bachelor of Arts program, ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute courses and a bunch more with educational accomplishments in We'koqma'q community. After I get my second transplant kidney. I had a terrible time on my own for 7 years in Eskasoni. At least I could make something out of my life in We'koqma'q community. Never know I might have a Red Seal papers and a Master's degree in political science.

I know that I'm enjoying my life in We'koqma'q community so far. I got my ALP diploma, got I'm Certified tradesman with training and I'm Certified driver with an expired Beginner's. I know that if I stay here I could build a good couple job experiences in We'koqma'q.

I know that I could get couple job experiences in We'koqma'q community with a few credentials and licenses and courses done up. I know that I could learn to cook, plumb and learn about Customer Service through We'koqma'q Tim Hortons and Retail Council of Canada courses. I feel like I could get a thorough education through We'koqma'q Tim Hortons and Retail Council of Canada courses. I could learn selling points and techniques for We'koqma'q Tim Hortons. I would have to take a few weeks vacation. But I know that I have many reasons to live in We'koqma'q community.

Nobody messes with me and I could enjoy myself in We'koqma'q community. Mawita'mk Society has outings that would entertain thoroughly. And I could enjoy my life in Mawita'mk Society and We'koqma'q community. I have a laptop in my bag and I am hoping to get used of being careful.

I am hoping to get used of being careful with my laptop bag. I know that I have tons of good reasons to be careful with my laptop bag. KJ might steal everything from me and I know that I cannot live in Eskasoni without troubles. So I'm living at Mawita'mk Society for every good reasons. I get to have my things safe and sound, and I do appreciate that. I get to have three meals a day and I do enjoy that. I know that nobody here wants me to suffer. I know that I don't need Eskasoni because Eskasoni is just another community.

I know that I have a good understanding of Eskasoni as a dark community. And I know that I couldn't get paid in there even if I did worked hard. I know that I had a six weeks job, paid internship with a chance to get that Custodial Technician job. I know that I could have a bunch of training in We'koqma'q community and move to Sydney if I could get that far. 

But first I need that second transplant kidney and I need to keep my weight in a certain amount. I know that I didn't have anybody helping me out other than taking advantage of me while I lived in Eskasoni. I couldn't have a moments rest in the 7 years I lived there. I know that I couldn't really defend myself against a group of my enemies. Who had muscles and where bigger than me. See? I have a condition of dwarfism, a type of thyroid dwarfism. It's called Thoracic Jeune of Dystrophy. And now I have a mental disorder called paranoid schizophrenic and I have PTSD because of trauma. 

I know with the Medicine Wheel there is four stages of life, four seasons of nature, four directions represented by color, four aspects of independence and life. Four times of day, the four elements, the four medicines and the four colors. I know that there are seven sacred teachings and forgiveness ceremony for the Mi'kmaq. And there is a Forgiveness Feast and a beautiful forgiveness ceremony on my fathers' death beds. I don't have to carry it around with me. 

I know there is a lot of options with transplantation. I know there are stem cells research, I know there are implantable artificial kidneys, I know there are gene-edited pig kidneys and I know there are human to human kidney transplantation. I know that I could make a good fitness out of my equipments. And I could do calisthenics too, with the exercising equipments I don't have. I know that my life is pretty good so far. 

I just got to take the initiatives of starting my day with fitness. I feel rich with opportunities to build my life up to a good level of healthy fitness. Take self-care further into fitness and ever-expand my muscles. I know that I've done a lot in my short time in We'koqma'q community. And I'm hoping to get my second transplant kidney and fitness. 

This place is suited for disabled Mi'kmaq. I know that I could write a blog, post my tik tok videos, YouTube videos and reels from Facebook and Instagram. I know that I could learn to update my Facebook account with pictures and reels of a new purchase. I know that I could do something that makes me happy. I feel pretty good about having these social medias. 

I have been building a life and future in We'koqma'q community with Mawita'mk Society. I know that I could enjoy walking outdoors and taking pictures of that. I feel that I have built a life in We'koqma'q community where I am working on aspects of my independence. Where I have something physical like a car or truck. I know that I could work on myself physically because I am gaining weight. And I have to start exercising in gym and at Mawita'mk Society. 

I don't do anything anyways. I just have to penciled in my physical life at Mawita'mk Society for daily exercises. I know that my grandmother would tell me just do it. But I'm putting my mind to it by writing and outlining my platform of goals and aims. There is a litany of goals I could work on at Mawita'mk Society. Getting my family here and enjoying my birthdays better. Having physical fitness until I can have physical muscular fitness. With a vitality, vibrancy and zest for physical life.