Intercommunal Connections

I don't have any intercommunal connections because I know that would mean I'm no addict. I know that I have no way to find shelter in my hometown community. I know that I want to drive there and see what's up for myself. But I am an Certified tradesman with training and education from Unama'ki Driving School, NSCC School of Trades and Technology, and School of Access. I am also a Certified driver with an expired Beginner's license. I have some driving experience in. 

Now I'm feeling generally happy these days because I have a bunch of credentials, connections and people to rely on for work. I know that I have intertown and intercommunal connections because of family, friends and cousins. I know that I am very connected on LinkedIn profile and have Facebook connections. I know that I have Instagram account connections, Twitter account connections and other connections. I hope anyways.

I know that I don't get to move back home because I'm diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. I know that I'm stuck here for a very long time. This is my home for now. I cannot get a good home in my hometown community. If that was a possibility I could've moved back to my hometown apartment and get rides by contacting the Band Office. I know that I had to move out of Eskasoni because I couldn't really have my place to myself. Everyone there came by drunk or high. Back then the opioid crisis was on the rise, Indian Residential Schools were coming out. And I was under the Eskasoni Welfare system and collecting pop bottles. I made extra cash and had sugar, cigarettes and Red Rose boxes.

I know that I was happy with my Welfare and extra cash. I know that people wanted to have my money and make me waste my resources on them. I know that now I'm protected.
The level of intimate privacy they've violated and the boundaries that they've crossed. I feel that I never had any connections, I was paranoid for a good reason. I was being literally attacked by my uncle Dodo and others. I know that I couldn't get any respect from anyone because I like to be left alone. 

Especially with my side chick. I know that I want to have everything I need to live, work and drive. I hope that I could get my second transplant kidney. That way I could go back to work after a good rest.

I know that there isn't any justice and I know that it doesn't count unless I make a claim. Even that seem like a scary thing. I was intimidated to accuse and defend myself. I know that I wasn't allowed to think or outsmart them. I know that I wasn't able to too. In my world I'm the lesser one. I don't have my full driver's license and job. I don't have any degrees or diplomas for trades.

I know that in Eskasoni there was a transportation barriers that they've fixed and now I am tempted to move back home. But if I stay I would be safe and sound. I know that I will get three meals a day. A good transportation service to dialysis. And a pretty nice place to live at. But I wouldn't mind having my own hometown apartment in Eskasoni. I know that I could go and get my rides from Eskasoni Public Transits Service and get a good routine going.

I know that Eskasoni is a repeater beaters. I know that they want me to suffer. I know that I think of moving back home at times. Thinking it is better in ways. But I know that I hadn't made my impact. I want to contribute positively. But I know that I have enemies that will prevent, hinder or hold me back. I know that I cannot live in Eskasoni because I have plenty of bullies there. I am a Certified driver and Certified tradesman that's a nerd.

I know that I've never had any sort of self defense or crew. I know that I was learning that I was on my own in life. And my dysfunctional friends and family wouldn't want to help out. I feel like everyone was pulling my attention in every direction. And I know that those 7 years I've been owed a lot of money. I know that I have nowhere to go because I have been a child addict. I know that I wasn't really going far in my life. And I knew that I wasn't allowed to defend, thrive on my own or live it. I know that people wanted me broken into a million pieces.

I gotten used of life here. I have grown accustomed to the rules and regulations at times. I know that I don't want to depend on Mawita'mk Society for my own initiatives. And I know that subjugation versus accustomation is a struggle. I feel that I don't have any ways to live my own life. But Mawita'mk Society has provided results.

I know that I have been learning about the good lifestyle habits and routines. I feel like I've been enriched and rich with information, education and training. I know that I have been good with all I have and got. I know that some people could change for the better and others cannot. I know that I had to change my lifestyle before I die. When I first came here I was malnourished and mistreated by certain Eskasoni members. I had to move here and see what they got in store for me. I knew that I had to learn driving, adult high school education, trade and get life skills reminders. I knew that I was doing much as I can with my bedroom.

There isn't enough time for me to get everything I wanted, needed and desired. I know that I love life and want to be fit, muscular, lean and flexible. I want to be skilled in fighting. And have aerobics and cardiovascular exercises.

I know that I want strength training and have my comfortable emotional intelligence, fitness experience into action and routines. And have my life enjoying movements again. I know that Mawita'mk Society wants me to depend on them for everything. I have to for now but I know that eventually I will outgrow Mawita'mk Society by getting my full driver's license, job and car. I know that I have to earn everything because my fathers make any kind of excuses to help out.

I know that apartment behind 74th street has a terrible significance to me and that Mawita'mk Society, We'koqma'q Mental Health Services and my dad has worked on me for 4ish years. I know that I had been through a lot during the 7 years being on my own. And I know that if I had a second chance at that apartment I wouldn't take it because of thefts and home invasions. I know that I couldn't live with safety there.

I know that I could forgive but I'm staying away from Rosie Basque apartments. I know that I hadn't any protection from anyone. I know that I don't have any respectability, livability or even acknowledged pains. I know that I have to stay here in We'koqma'q community because I had so many enemies in Eskasoni. But I know that here I don't get to choose who comes in my bedroom. I know that I want female companionship and romance. But I know that I cannot even have that. Mawita'mk Society isn't adult situation, it's more of a teen and child level. They are stifling my sexual freedom but they produced results in keeping me in routine with the rest of the house.

I know that I need to live my life independently but I feel that they want me to see a positive view for them. I know, with a second transplant kidney, I could get my life thriving. But I know that I've recuperated.

I feel that I could get into routine better without their influences. I know that I am diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic but I also know how important a routine is, in my life because it would mean that I could so more stuff during my days here. I feel that I could learn much from Mawita'mk Society but I also feel that I could get a good routine in Eskasoni. But alas! I have to live my life here because I fucked up my opportunities with Rosie Basque. And I couldn't make that apartment a homey place. Especially with addicts coming, sniffing around for money.

But their influences have produced results and I know that they could appear strict. I just have no place to go in Eskasoni and my life in We'koqma'q community started twelve years ago. With my Eskasoni Treatment Center Certificate I got my ALP diploma, trade, and We'koqma'q Adult Essential Skills Enhancement Program Certificate.

Then I got my We'koqma'q Men's Wellness program Certificate, and couple credentials including Unama'ki Driving Certificate. I know that I have been a Certified Skilled Tradesman and Certified driver with an expired Beginner's license. I have an accomplished past in We'koqma'q community where I had a few graduations in my time in We'koqma'q community. I know that I am related to the Denny family in Eskasoni. I am part Jown, part Syliboy with a Morrison family mentality and a Mawita'mk spirit. I know that I am loving and loved. I know that I have a bunch of good memories with family and Mawita'mk Society.

I know that I want to produce my own results but Mawita'mk Society is showing me a kinder side of life. I feel like I have a good snack and three meals a day. It's the treatments that keep me here. And that there isn't any safe place for me to live.