The Last Breed of the 80s/90s Rock Ages

I know that I'm tougher than nails. I know what is healthy relationships are but I am going to get Certified in We'koqma'q Prevention program. I had many mentors because I've been through many things that I didn't want to experience. I know that I had to work through hell and back to get to my original sense of self. My emotion dysregulation is in a coordinated action. My beliefs of forgiveness and struggles of accepting heterosexuality. I know that I was going through hell and back again. I don't want to stop working on myself because there isn't any issues. I know that I'd recovered from my traumas and in that I have to work on forgiveness.

I know that I will have my life to live. I know that there are types of relationship out there. And it does depend on the level of comfort from both partners. But I know that I am a bachelor and that I'm still looking. I know that I don't want to get into any complications.

We don't grow with time management skills. I know a book that could help out a few people with certain things in their lives. Enjoy their quality time with each other and have a career, time and a good relationship. All my missed opportunities I've suffered, all the bad deals and bullying, all the rejections and failures I had, all the beatdowns and thefts I've suffered, all the criticism and tirades I've suffered. I still wake up fucked up and ready to go. I know that I don't let all my bad experiences affect my present moments. Well actually I wake up happy and ready to go.

But I know that a screen in my head has memories of bad experiences. I was held back because they all wanted to make an example out of me. I'm the last breed of the rock ages and I know that I want to build a little rockers out of my nieces and nephews. I know that it's about strength for me and rocking out.

If anything I want to grow a epistemic curiosity out of them in ways where they are willing to read my books when they become teenagers. I hope that I could get something like that going. I'm reading books like Dr. Philip Zimbardo's Time Perspective and Lucifer's Effects and Dr. John Gottman books and Dr. Tara Bennett-Goleman and others like that. I know that I want to read everything I have but in due time. I have to pace myself with eBooks and books, pdfs and encyclopedias. I know that I love reading but sometimes I have to be patient at working these books. I know that I am almost done Trauma and Addiction book by Dr. Tian Dayton.

Learning about emotional literacy and how to apply it in my life. I know a thing or two about addictions. I know that I've been through Eskasoni Rehab for a few months. I know that I hadn't much thought to the experience.
I know that I have experience a lot in my time. 

And in that I don't want to be this guy who complains. I know that I have been waking up to get my dialysis done during the mornings I've been here. And I know that I want to enjoy my books, eBooks, magazines, comic books, encyclopedias and dictionaries. I know that I have audiobooks and pdfs on my phone, including eBooks. I know that I have been a good client and resident. I know that I hadn't many to date but I know that Mawita'mk Society is looking out for my well-being. So, I think I have to move out because I want to date.

But I know that I have to get my second transplant kidney and become independent. I know that I care about this place and family. I know that I want the best out of my life, their lives and my family's lives. I feel like I had a good life in ways. But I know that I want to be fully licensed driver.

I want to be Certified in Judo Referee Specialization, Dialectal Behavioral Therapy, Retail Council of Canada courses, ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute Custodial Technician Training program, We'koqma'q Prevention program and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I know that I'm studying for these things and hopefully, I can get them. Wouldn't mind having those credentials hanging in my bedroom wall.

I know that I could do more stuff for my own sake. But if I had a woman by my side maybe I could bolster my efforts. I know that I have to be patient, strong and motivated to keep going. I know that I want to enjoy myself with a good woman. I know that I have culture  family, tradition, religion, history and heritage to back me up. I know that I don't need any pompous or anything like that, come into my life and fuck things up for me. I know that if you are down for it, good.

But I want you to know that I've been through hell and back. I know that nobody is in it out of the kindness of their hearts. I know that I don't want to have to deal with somebody's boyfriend or something. I feel like here I have an rich and accomplished past in We'koqma'q community. And I don't want to have to move because somebody had a boyfriend who was stuck. I know that I've been resilient and hopeful for a good relationship. And hopefully, I can help out much as I can with time and money management. I know that is all its about, having time and money.

I feel like I have a rich resources in Mawita'mk Society. I know that I have been learning a lot about finance and time. And learning a lot about relationships and forms of therapy  traumas and addictions, discriminations and losses. I know that I'm not the only one who'd had losses and tragedies. I know that there are others out there.

I know that I have a heavy heart and in that nobody wants to me satisfy my needs or heart. I know that has been something that I feared in the beginning. I know that I don't trust anyone with that part of my life. I know that I have to earn my way and work on reading my books, eBooks, magazines, comic books, encyclopedias, PDFs and dictionaries. I know that I have a lot of knowledge to read about and the types of love and relationships. I know that I have been learning through these mediums and for years, I hadn't really tried a smartphone until my sister showed me what it is good for.

My knowledge on relationships through Dr. Tian Dayton, Dr. Marsha Linehan, Dr. Tara Bennett-Goleman and others who I have. I know that relationships could be beneficial but too, toxic as hell and simply wrong. I know that I hadn't any relationship experience whatsoever.

I know that I'm learning from Doctors who have studied it in depth. And have been Doctors way before I was born. I know that some of these doctors have a good standing with the Board. And I know that I want to have what they know. Like Time Perspective Therapy and other forms of therapy that I could get Certified in. I hope that I could get Accreditations and Certificates in all this. I know that I have been learning to lighten up a little with Darren and Kendra. But I know that I am studious in heart and have been enjoying learning about stuff over the internet with Mawita'mk Society. I know that there are good reasons to stay here and keep my stuff secure, safe and sound.

But I know that sometimes I go down to We'koqma'q Tim Hortons and enjoy myself. I feel like I have a hub of information where I could practice these coping skills, positive reinforcers and reminders.

I know that with Mike MacInnis I could learn a lot and enjoy a lot. I love learning anything that is sociable and demonstrateble. I know that I am a working progress in being a student of life. I know there are types of relationship, many beliefs and types of love. I know enough to respect those beliefs and be non-judgmental because my biological mother has taught me to think of non-judgmentalism as a philosophical notion and theoretical work. There is a lot to it that we have to not assume. There is a psychological works of neutralism until needed. Me and my mother had this skill and hopefully, everyone can have that kind of work in the applicability of the Philosophy of Diversity and Dingity of Labour philosophy. In it you have to accept all walks of life no matter what species, animals or human they come from.

I love these workers like cousins, not like aunties yet.

I know that I have knowledge on Quality of a Relationship. There is non-judgmentalism and neutralism that could be two philosophies I could work out theoretically speaking. I an a Philosopher in ways of thinking theoretically and having knowledge in Philosophy. I feel like I could be a Philosopher/Psychologist and be skilled in certain therapies where I could do such things. My mother taught me to be open-minded and looking for a relationship. I know that I hadn't any because I wasn't on Tinder that long. I know that I sm looking for a good woman to motivate my ass into outdoor fitness.

Accepting myself as an bachelor who is on Tinder is a great thing. Sharing positivity and good advises is something that I could do. I know that I care and love my people in Unama'ki. I know that I want to read and take a lot of good bites out of my books and pdfs.

And I know that I want to enjoy reading with music in the background. I feel happy for those who have been in relationships. I know that I hadn't such luck and I know that I want to be skilled in many things. My success is measurable by the facts I have education, reading, philosophy, politics, health benefits and other things to consider. I live a rich life now and hopefully, I can live an active lifestyle after I read all my books in due time. I know that I am learning about coping skills, values, culture, tradition, religion, history and heritage. I know my people's heart and I want to show that they care.

A sense of community is what I get when I do visit Eskasoni. My family and my friends making me normal for them. And I know that I want to learn more about types of lovers and types of relationships. Dr. Micheal P. Nichols has a good book too. The Lost Art of Listening.

I'm a studious bachelor who likes to learn in a joyous way. I know that I love to read books about Trauma and Addiction, The Lost Art of Listening, DBT Skills Training Manual and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I know that I'm reading as much as I can with all that. I know that I have spent most of my time reading Mt books. I feel like I could have more knowledge. Erudition of psychological works with professional doctors that have wrote and typed original works of psychological literature. With A Critical History and Philosophy of Psychology I could understand how far they've come.

I know that I had the Five Animals of Motivation like the Erotic Animal: motives for sex, the Competent Animal: Motives to achieve, Social Animal: Motives for love, The Hungry Animal: Motives to eat and Belligerent Animal: Motives to fight or exercise. I know I had a lot of good influences over the years.

That psychological work is by another doctor. 

I know that I have been learning a lot and I get to read, enjoy it and have motives to read without a lover. I know that I could prepare for future growth in my life. And continue to personally, educationally and professionally grow. I know that I have a lot of good reasons to stay here. To keep building a good life here and continue to grow. As this acceptance of being a bachelor I could learn much job skills and career skills.

I'm jealous of the opportunity for people like Darren and Kendra to be in relationships. I know that I have been learning about trauma, addictions, discriminations and losses and grief. I know that I have something of a heavy heart and in that my world has been pretty stable. I know that I'm happy where I'm at because I could keep on building a good life here. And in that I could get my second transplant kidney.

I know that I'm the last breed of the rock ages in the 80s And 90s. I used to go out and enjoy my time as an outdoor kid. I don't know why I've changed into an indoor kid. It's stuffy and I know that I could buy a bike. Cycling maybe a good thing. 

Back in Mt days I used to watch Muchloud at midnight. And watch a full hour of rock, heavy metal and alternative. I know that I had a bunch of good Much News on the telly. And I know that I couldn't really enjoy myself unless Muchloud or some kind of rock music was playing. Glamor rock, rock, heavy metal, thrash and others like punk rock, alternative rock and others that made my day. 

I know that I had bumps, bruised and scrapes. I know that I've been beaten, battered and bruised. I know that I have been through hell but I keep doing. I don't stop because I want to learn as much as I can. 

I know that I don't want to stay here because there is a lot of reminders of being held back. I know that I don't want to be held back. I know that I have a few eBooks, pdfs and audiobooks on my smartphone. It's so handy that I know that I have a bunch of psychological works of love and types of love. I know that I want to enjoy reading and writing about it. 

I know that I'm getting Certified in We'koqma'q Prevention program and hopefully, I can get a good momentum going with my life. I know that I am working towards a good thing. And hopefully, I can get Certified in Dialectal Behavioral Therapy.