How Peace is Serving Me

How peace is serving me is by granting me the opportunity to develop from Books and eBooks and magazines. I know that I could spend my time reading but I want to scheduled out my day with a strict Activity Schedule. I want to sweat during the day and I hope that I could get a good momentum going or rhythm with the grooves of fitness training and reading. I hope that I could develop something of a good evening schedule for reading and a good morning and afternoon doing what I need to do for exercises and walking on the treadmill.

I know that I had no proud woman of love. Like Commander Worf did when he had his lovers. I know that I want a interesting woman who isn't average. I want a proud woman who has accomplished a lot in her life and respects my independence. A independent, proud woman who has done everything.
I am an experienced bachelor and tradesman. 

I have experience in driving, construction and upgrading. I know that I want a proud woman who has sky dived, scuba, surfed, done fitness training and building. I want to accomplish all that and get my physical fitness. I hope that I could get a good momentum going with fitness training and reading. I have experience in sexuality and I know a few romantic gestures. I feel like my life has been rich but I cannot get what I want because it's not a need. In my old life I did covered my wants and needs and still keep on working. I want to work at We'koqma'q Tim Hortons because that would be $400 every two weeks.

Peace is serving me here because I'd realized that I'm an experienced bachelor with romantic tricks and magic. I know that in another time I was an outdoor kid who has been mostly outdoors doing landscaping.
I know that I had a good reason to keep appeasing my stepfather with doing chores. 

In another time I was young enough to understand my role with my stepfather. I know that I wanted to have my own place when I'd returned home. I know that I do work and I want to keep working. But now I have to work for a boss in We'koqma'q Tim Hortons. I love Mawita'mk Society people. It's a good organization that has showed how me peace is serving me well. I get to go out on outings to pool halls, bowling alleys and movies. And I get to go out on cruises and little things like that.

I get to go get my full driver's license goal if I want. Here I get supported in my goals in ways. I know that I don't have any friends willing to help me in reaching my goals. I know that I have to get Rosie Sylliboy's help in getting my full driver's license. I know that I could be working part time.

I know that peace is serving me in ways where I could learn new hobbies like cooking and baking. Do forms of exercises in fitness training repetitively. I could do these in my spare time but I'm on dialysis and get drained out. I have struggles in maintaining a consistency in my 30s. I have walked yesterday but I need to walk where I'm sweating.

If you take away the beliefs and influences of me then you gonna get an empty shell of a man. I have done things that results in hypersexuality and addictions. I know that I have been in darkness and want to choose the light. My willpower to be independent and tough is what Rosie don't want. I want to be thriving and living by myself. I know that I need to be somewhat independent in ways. But I need to work with Mawita'mk Society to work on my fitness training. And hopefully get my full driver's license.

Peace is serving me in ways of personal growth, professional and personal life balances, and financial literacy and emotional literacy. I am learning to be honestly interested in books that could help me in aspects of my independence and life. I know that peace is giving me the opportunity to learn about sociology, relationships, dating, psychology, history, philosophy, politics, video games history, religion and art. I could learn about coping skills through Dr. Tian Dayton, Dr. Marsha Linehan and others. And relationship sciences through Dr. John Gottman.

I know that I care about Mawita'mk Society and I know that I want to develop personally from my collections of books and pdfs. I know that I have interesting books. I hope that I could get a good reading session in on my evenings. Learning about the meanings of patriarchy and how mature men act.

Learning about patriarchy is a mature male strength and wisdom. A man can be wise like my stepfather who has been a patriarch in my family. What is a patriarch without his matriarch? I know that my stepmother could be the new matriarch of the family. But my original family is wanting family to be the matriarch. How mature women and men can work together and be determined in anti-colonialism. I know that masculinity isn't that toxic because we have to express ourselves in ways that says we are men! Patriarchy is all the ever-learning wisdom and cultural knowledge of the male relationships.

I know what the world says about toxic masculinity. It's not toxic but it feels good because we acknowledge the strengths of men. How they express themselves and how peace is a killer sometimes. We need to exercise and work and do stuff. Our minds are wired differently to act in certain ways.
Peace is serving me in ways where I'm learning about family systems and patriarchy. 

This was a learning experience of being a good noted writing of a good evening. I feel that this is just how men are wired and understand how their masculine psyche works. They cannot change the wiring of men because it's our responsibility to learn about manly things. My stepfather has taught me about fishing, snaring and building. He has taught me how to make a swamp into a yard. 

And turn anything into a beautiful lawn. I'd learned landscaping labors of my stepfather's upbringing. I'd learned how to build a shed, I'd learned a few things from the Internet. But I got most of my training in NSCC Construction Trades Labor program.

If I was healthy holistically I would be earning that damn check daily. I would be working in We'koqma'q community or Eskasoni. I know that I have been learning a lot.

But I have learned about plumbing and building from my stepfather. Small stuff that I don't know. I haven't gotten the full experience but I know some stuff. I have to learn to take care of an apartment. I do have apartments experience. But I haven't been practicing my skills in taking care. That's why Mawita'mk Society is here, to teach me life skills in an apartment. I know that I have been sick for a few years. But I got back on dialysis in 2021 January 1st. I know that I would be doing everything I need to do for work in my early twenties.

But now I have an accomplished past in We'koqma'q community and I could get a part-time employment in We'koqma'q community. With Mawita'mk Society supporting me and keeping me from reaching my goals temporarily. I hope that I could get a good habit book. I know that I want to have everything I need from Books.

I'm learning to be a mature adult tradesman. I know that I need to learn everything from work balances to habits and coping. I know that I have been living here for twelve years and I want to grow personally through my books. Struggles of adult life could be covered in my collection of books, pdfs and eBooks. I know that I could listen to music or audiobooks. I know that I want to learn everything I need to, to have a thriving relationship.

I want to be out on my own that's why I'm reading. Gathering information daily and trying to develop a routine. I want to work and move out of here because then I could do my own thing in Eskasoni with Mawita'mk Society's way of self care holistically. I know that I love Mawita'mk Society and that's why I got all these books. I want a pretty decent job and a good life. I feel rich with life experiences and good street education.

I know that I want to live my life in Eskasoni because it's my hometown. I know that it's a risk with all the disabilities, addicts, fiends and bullies in Eskasoni. I know that l have to get in shape to get on the transplant kidney list and to be more attractive. I know that if I accept my body, I have to work on it. That's why I need to get a good eBook about habits. But I know that Mawita'mk Society is the safest place. I could focus on safety and security but that would be an expense I don't want. Especially since Eskasoni is known for being thieves, addicts, fiends and bullies.

I know that I did not have any good influences or positive impacts of my life. I know that Eskasoni is a growing community and in that I have benefits in Eskasoni. I know that I want to devote my life to earning a good living. And have a few professional credentials hanging in my bedroom. I know that I want to have NSCC Plumbing Certificate program.

I want to get my Red Seal papers in that and become skilled in landscaping, janitorial, building and Pipe Trade diploma program. I know that I have credentials and want to get NSCC, CBU and ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute credentials. I hope that I could make a home out of the earth. I want to develop and grow accustomed earning a living with my second transplant kidney. I hope that I could have a muscular fitness lifestyle in name of my brother Steve Joseph Syliboy-Morrison. I want to commit to a daily routine of having morning habits, afternoon habits and evening reading habit books.

I know that I have a good life that only focuses on needs. And I need to cover my needs and wants on my own. I know that I need to incorporate life skills, coping skills and other skills in my life. And develop routines from all that. Alongside workers at Mawita'mk Society I have to grow.

Outgrow Mawita'mk Society and grow accustomed to living my life under a scope. I hope that I could get a good momentum going with reading and cooking. And other habits and skills I hope to master. I know that I want to personally grow accustomed to living my life here where I'm cooking my own meals, cleaning and organizing mu bedroom, doing morning routines and daily routines. I want to do all this with care, love and loyalty to myself. To build faith, confidence and assurance in myself. Originally from Eskasoni I want to build a good life in We'koqma'q community where I've had my own apartment, second transplant kidney and fitness.

I know that I love Mawita'mk Society and that is why peace is serving me in ways of using my time to develop personally and build my fitness level up. I hope that I could because Mawita'mk Society has a washer and dryer.

They have a treadmill, sit-down stationary bike. And I have my own bench and stand-up stationary bike. I know that I have my weights and curling bar. I know that I got options here and I know that I want to do it with certain people. I know that I have a good home because all my things are here. And I know that I could build a shed. I have options to build my muscles at Mawita'mk Society because people at Johnny's Gym don't want me.

I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society for twelve years but in my twenties I was still walking around. I just got to get up my walking endurance with Mawita'mk treadmill. I hope that I could build my physical fitness level up to a muscular physical fitness. I want lean muscles on my body and use my weights with calisthenics and cardio. I hope that I could do push-ups and sit-ups. I want to be disciplined in that.

I am sober and I hope that I could get a good habits of reading in the evening and at the start of my day, do a morning routine and afternoon routine. I hope that I could learn habit books and other things. How imagined order could be an egalitarian idea of social sameness when we face such diversity, differences and uniqueness. I know that mythology has a narrow scope but I know that myths of opportunities are just that, myths. 

I know that I don't have independence and freedom because I would've been working. A mental capacity I have is by imagined powers and skills. If I could creatively think I could figure out. Yes, it's a lie and so is socioeconomic realities of the globe. We imagine an order and a pre-existing shared imagined order. Hoe these myths of opportunities only narrows our scope to accomplishments. 

It's a human activity that we have such imagined complex order. I know that we have an institution of human activities and we are ever-expanding, ever-learning and dynamic. But imagined order could be written on paper which can be crystallized and concrete. Which makes a mind believe in an imagined order. 

It's a shared imagined order in a socioeconomic realities of the globe. But it's a way of looking at it in ways that we have to go straight to the source of corruption and demoralization. And make good the institution of Canada through the Era of Reconciliationary steps, building and laboring. 

With the Mi'kmaq nation we had Centralizations and the Pass System. We had poor economic opportunities and overcrowding. We had addictions and discriminations. The social stratifications of racism and colonialism have impacted us intergenerationally in ways where I'd become anti-colonialism. I want a more caring community and a more loving place. 

I know that I don't have that in my hometown. I hope that I could get my fitness to get on the transplant kidney list. I know that there is a shared imagined order in the system. And we have to listen to our hearts. I know that I am anti-colonialism which means I don't want any colonial standards for beauty, personal successes and professional and educational accomplishments. I want my people to understand that I'm an Indigenous descendant nerd who nobody really wanted. Having to work at my body and fitness, to build a muscular physical fitness body.