A Level of Reconciliationary Progressive Baby Steps with First Nations

A more complete Indigenous descendant level of education and employability I have is something I could teach to the younger ones. I know that I am educated but in what exactly? I feel that I have a rich knowledge of the time. And I know where we are is at a level of Reconciliationary steps. Like Mawita'mk Society and me taking progressive baby steps so is the nation at a level of Reconciliationary progressive baby steps into a more sober and productive society. I know that each step requires decolonizationary process and a traditional step towards healing. Canada is the center of this level of Reconciliationary progressive baby steps. I know that we are learning as we continually earn, learn and yearn.

I'm happy where I'm at because I don't have to pay for anything. That means I'm not realizing the inflation rate and stagnancy we are in. Feeling like I've learned emotional stuff.
I know that I have been trying to get out of this stuck stage of life by exercising. I know that I can work on my three simple goals but nobody wants me to have that. Alongside that I'm stuck in Mawita'mk Society with stagnancy and dependency because nobody wants to help me work on my goals.

Mawita'mk Society is supposed to support me in my goals. But since Maugit passed away there isn't anyone to talk to about service and support. Every day I've been here I was stuck to have my goals done. Throughout my life in We'koqma'q community I've been at Mawita'mk Society stuck, stagnant and dependent. Yeah I got a level of education and employability but at what cost? Have I traded in my independence for a simpler life? Am I stuck where I'm at because nobody wants to support me in my goals of independence and freedom? I know that I'm not trusted but to stop me in my goals?
I know that I'm on dialysis and have rights but stopping me in my goals to get my BA degree, to stop me in me getting renewal of my Beginner's license and stop me in me getting a place of my own. I know that Mawita'mk Society cares for me but not like family does. 

My sisters are better at giving me a chance at getting my full driver's license goal. I just need to renew my Beginner's license and hopefully get my second stage or Nova Scotia Graduated Driver's Licensing Program. I hope that I could get something going for me but I just have to wait and see how this situation plays out with my sisters.

I know that I'm no fan of anyone keeping me out of my biological mother's house. I know that I've been living there since 1991 to 2005. And I know that I've celebrated birthdays and Christmases there. I haven't showed any steady routined progressive development that would stick because I miss home.

I know that certain family members don't care for my emotional well-being. I know that I haven't been able to surpass their influences and live my life how I see fit. I know that they don't want me progressively developing, thriving and flourishing on my own. I know that I haven't been able to do much since I landed on dialysis. Maybe they are right, maybe I don't have that kind of energy to drive. I know that Elizabeth isn't growing younger. And I know that I have been living at Mawita'mk Society for twelve years and gotten my Beginner's license and drove a couple of times.

But maybe I need a rejuvenation from my hometown? Maybe I need to live again to see what it's all about? Maybe I could live with my sisters and share cost of living, driving goals, fitness goals and part-time employment. I know that my sister Katt invited me to live with them. Not too sure about B.

I don't like living here because Mawita'mk Society allowes Vickie Pierro to put my family down, put me down and bring me down to her level of lowliness. I know that I'm about respect and routine because I've listened before. I watched as my weight went down as I was sick. But as I tried to make her laugh just a little while ago she said I have too many excuses, an attempt to bring me down to her lowliness. Being a Mawita'mk Society member I have to put up with her chronic downer syndrome. I know that I don't have any respectability here because of Vickie and Clyde. They love to use and bring people down.

Clyde is just depressed because of Vickie Pierro. I know this because he has been talking to her lately. And I know he is down because of Vickie B. Pierro. I know that I have been living here without her and had the happiest, warmest and coziest place here.

Without her I had some wonderful memories here. And she is bringing everyone down and picking on them. I hate this place now and she isn't native. Yeah anyone could speak the language and learn the culture but she is more white than native. Anyways that's my reasoning to moving out of here. I know that I'm working on my fitness goals because of Mawita'mk Society. They gave me the warmest, happiest and most coziest memories of food, presents and good music at Christmas time. I know that I had a lot of good memories with family and friends. And had the utmost loving staff and family I ever had.

I'm no longer a provider but I am one hell of an uncle. I hope I am because I know that I never was independent. Which would've been a good testament to my strengths and powers of independence. That means life skills and job skills.

I know that both of my sisters are willing to help me out with my full driver's license goal. I hope that I could renew my Beginner's license and keep working on my fitness goals and driving goals. I feel that I don't have any support from Rosie, Mawita'mk manager. I know that I could get something going for me and that will be it. I got my Steeper Climb Goal-Setting challenge series Certificate and Naloxone and Overdose Response training done up.

I am a 90s kid and an 80s baby who has been taught a more independent life of living by my stepfather who is a boomer baby. I was also taught how to do certain jobs by Internet and friends. So what I mostly do is landscaping, carpentry and automotive service. I know a thing or two about plumbing from Books and Internet. And from Vicktor and my stepfather who is a baby boomer. Post-world War 2 and other decades that followed.

I know that I have survived the 80s, the 90s and 2000s. The turn of a century was something I was proud to be part of. My stepfather survived 60s, 70s, 80s, 90s, 2000s and 2010s. I know that I haven't been able to understand him completely because I thought he was always on the right path. I know that I haven't been able to live my life with a good woman because of my fathers. Nobody wants this genetic freak because my fathers wants a young fine thing that their son has picked up. I know that I never was independent enough to have any knowledge of women.

My stepfather passed decades of living with earning his way to the top. He made Clinical Director and I know that he is still selling the house. Thankfully my sisters have my other Jown family and Doucette family. And I know that I could get good driving practice in with Katt. She is moving here I hope.

I know that I don't have family here that know me. And I know that night shifts I used to have with my stepfather in rehab summer job. I knew that I had that kind of connections. To be a janitor at Eskasoni Rehab but I need that ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute Custodial Technician Training Certificate. In order to go on my Cleaning journey of expert.

My quality of life have changed drastically because of Mawita'mk Society. I don't have to worry about WiFi, cable and electricity and plumbing. I know that I have three meals a day here with medications and a routine of bi-weekly injection. I know that I appreciate Mawita'mk Society for taking us out to movies, pool halls and bowling alleys. I know that I have all my things here and I'm safe with it here. Safety and security here is pretty good. Regular treatments of medicine and food is good.

I just have to balance out my regular treatments with walking. Which I am making it a routine. I know that I have a good life at Mawita'mk Society. But I want to live back in Eskasoni where I could share my cost of living with my sisters. Eskasoni inspires me to work at my physical fitness harder. I know that Eskasoni is a large community and I would walk that place until supper. But this place is the comfiest, coziest and happiest place I could be at.

I am glad to be cleaned, sober, shaven and fresh breath. I know that I'm happier when I'm like that in a good way. I feel that I should take my time with doing this stuff because I don't have any job to go to. Or I don't have any schooling to go to. I could tell that I'm going to be stuck on dialysis for a little while. I feel that I have to be cleaned, sober, clean shaven and have a fresh breath in order to feel the full effect of this place.

I am happy and have Life satisfaction to a degree. I just got to balance out my treatments of regular food and medicine with fitness and walking. I know that happy status quo bias keeps me happy with being an ambivert. I know that I have been balancing out my life in We'koqma'q. And work towards being an ambivert of We'koqma'q community. 

Growing personally accustomed to living here and comforted by my bedroom. I know a thing or two about love and care. How health works and how I can feed properly, take my medicine properly and have such a routine with fitness and walking.

Vickie Pierro doesn't balance her life out. I know that she doesn't have regular routine of food, medicine and fitness. Accepting that I'm a single, experienced bachelor with a level of education and employability I could use in Eskasoni. I know that I have it made here. I don't have to pay for anything.

She is a bad influence and I hope that she balances out her life with food, medicine and fitness. Accepting myself as a experienced bachelor with a level of education and employability I know that I could get a part-time employment with Eskasoni Tim Hortons. 

I know that I want to balance out my life with regular food and medicine through walking and fitness. I know that I have to be independent of the cultural respect in ways of cultural ageism. And hopefully earn my muscles and fitness. I know that I'm happy here,  it's just that I don't want to take advise from people that haven't gone through the holistically healthy lifestyle. With regular three meals a day, medicine and fitness. And bi-weekly injection.

I know that I want to deal with people that want that kind of lifestyle. Where food and fitness can go hand in hand. I know that I have self-care for a good lifestyle.

Happy that I am comforted by my bedroom. 

And happy that I'm still learning about women, relationships, sexuality, courtship, and romance. I know a thing or two about sexuality in an hypersexual insecurity kind of way. I know that I'm still looking for ways to outgrow, improve myself and discipline myself. Originally from Eskasoni I know that my old motives to learn is still valid as it is today. I know that I have been trying to make walking a good routine here. I want to be experienced with fitness where I'm muscular and toned. I want to have that kind of energy and motivation where I know that I could do the exercise properly.

I feel rich with opportunities, options and choices. I know that I could give my 100 percent and work my hardest at Mawita'mk Society. I'll be in training while I eat properly and have my medicine. I know to balance our my meals with fitness.

I know that I have a good sense of hopefulness in the current level of Reconciliationary progressive baby steps we have with Prime Minister Justin Trudeau. I know that I want our lives better with federal and provincial situations. And I want anti-colonial writings and other things happening in a good sense of hopefulness of reality in Reconciliationary progressive baby steps. 

Are we at any level of Reconciliationary progressive baby steps with my people? Are we doing something with First Nations? Are we going somewhere with the non-native culture and ideologies? Are we going somewhere with the non-native communities and governments? This post-truth dystopia reality where we haven't told our side of the story was getting a little old quickly. My God I wanted to tell! I know that I'm loyal to my blood families and step family. 

I just needed one Dignitary to talk to from United Nations. I knew that I wasn't going for fame or fortune. But what was already told and what was already out there! Rita Joe told the world and so did Isabel Knockwood. I wanted to exposed the truths of my past badly. They haven't let me live a normal life because they wanted control over my emotions.