Ta Improve On My Current Living Situation

In real life we don't get to choose our hells. But we choose our companions and companies in life. I know that I'd moved away from Eskasoni 13 years ago. Got accomplished and had success in my life. Ta improve on my life I have to work towards physical improvements continually and steadily. And work towards physical fitness until I can get a handle on my drinking again. Grief seems like an common, strong sometimes and sadden feeling. The emptiness of losing out on opportunities to make a good relationship, is something that I always lose out on. My real dad didn't want to take responsibility for his actions.

I wasn't worth dying for or fixing the relationship. My family is the Morrison family and Jown family. My real dad didn't fix the relationship between me and him. All he had to do was apologize for forcing me out of my place, punching me in my face.

And taking my money on me since I was living my life in Cape Breton. And not helping me to get my GST checks and Christmas bonus. Yes he was trying to get me glasses but he wasn't sticking to the plan and I went hungry at home. I know that he used my money for weed and he couldn't afford it. Learning that he was using my glasses money for himself, I wanted out. Now? I just need to use money for myself and nobody else. Canada Climate Action money every once in a while and double GST direct deposits. I know that my life is good because I have Mawita'mk Society at my side.

But sometimes I hate Mawita'mk Society because of regulations and anti-franternization. But that's the definition of professionalism and I know that. But I know that if I can stay behind I would want to improve on my physical health and driving level of GLD.

I get to go for cruises with certain workers and have my day full of outings every Friday. I have my appointments met and regular appointments like doctor's appointments, dental works, vision and dialysis. But I could have all this in Eskasoni. Have Eskasoni Communication Company set up my WiFi for disability reasons. And have Eskasoni Health Center set up my rides to appointments in Sydney, and other places around Nova Scotia. To have my appointments met through Eskasoni Medical Transportation Clerk. 

Nobody told me that I had choices like that. Mawita'mk Society isn't teaching me the system. Nobody was until my cousins got a hold of it.

Everyone kept on interfering with my dealings because my dealings was dealing with my appointments that nobody wanted to handle. Learning how Eskasoni operates I think I can get my hands on some kind of apartment.

I know that I want my old place, when I'd first gotten my First Apartment in Eskasoni. But my friend Rob Shipley might move up and I might have an apartment in Eskasoni. But I know that I have it good here, I just need to visit friends in Eskasoni. Feeling proud that I got this far in my life I know that I could start walking again. I have the proper support workers here and have a lot of good reasons to stay here. Ta improve on where I live, I have to get my second transplant kidney. Get my fitness and walking endurance back up. Have a good fitness session in Ni'kinen Group House. Learning that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. I just have to focus on myself and grow into a fitter person of myself. I know that I am becoming the person I was meant to be.

Directed, motivated and determined in my life to build a fitness plan. I know that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community.

But I want to continually grow and improve in my home. I know that love can help out but I have to better myself to get a good lady. My home-base and home team is Mawita'mk Society and Ni'kinen support workers. I know that with Rob Shipley and Marques I could get into shape by re-gaining my walking endurance with them and Mawita'mk Support System. I know that I'm passed my prime and no, I did not reach my goal at a certain age. I know that I want to move back home when I do have my second transplant kidney. I am on the list and hoping to get my own place before I get my full driver's license and car.

I have motivated amd determined direction in my life. I want to get enough credentials hanging in my bedroom wall that I have a Teo Walls of Credentials hanging in my bedroom. I want to be employable in ways of educational and professional developments and successes.

I want to get my Retail Council of Canada courses, my ISSA-CANADA Cleaning Management Institute courses, my NSCC Horticulture and Landscape Technology diploma programs and NSCC Carpentry courses. And get my Expert and Red Seal Certifications in all that and then get my Nova Scotia Firefighter School courses and Judo courses for special Referee. I know that I'll have safety courses done up in all those classes and I know that I will have a good portfolio and rèsumè, Facebook and LinkedIn and Wix online portfolio. I want to live an active volunteering and working lifestyle where I'm an earner, worker and graduate of many programs, Schools, Colleges and Universities.

In today's society you'll have to have a level of education, training and driving experience in this economic side of life and infrastructure that I have to earn my level of education.

I have to be productive in ways of being sober ontologically speaking. I have to be that hard and tough, smart earner who works hard and dedicatedly that I know that I have a good home in Mawita'mk Society. Or I have a level of education, training, professional development and driving level that I have my full driver's license, credentials and licenses. I know that I have a lot of good reasons to stay here and I want to continually make memories, meaning and value out of my skills set. Cleaning professionally and practice safe Cleaning. Practice safe everything, I could get my hands on. I should be able to learn safety from all my programmings.

I should be able to learn more business and sales techniques in Retail Council of Canada courses and We'koqma'q Tim Hortons. Be a Sales Associate in We'koqma'q One Stop and Tim Hortons.

I know that I have a portfolio but I just want to keep adding credentials in my portfolio instead of hanging them up. Hopefully I can pay for my own level of education, training and driving level soon enough. I hope that I could use my own money and have a good use of my money or save it up for educational purposes. If I could get a full-time employment and couple jobs out of We'koqma'q community. Just to save quicker and have better chances at educational assistance. I know that I have been learning that I got no personal leadership yet. I am still learning from books. I'm 38 years old and I haven't really proven myself in ways of working a long time like a 10-year career with each jobs available.

If I could get my second transplant kidney and fitness going, I could live my life more fully, richly and more satisfying. I know that I could learn a lot with everything I took.

Employability is the ability to gain full-time employment, to keep said employment and to obtain future employment opportunities. It's a set of skills, knowledge and experience you have in the business world as an employee that you have a professional reputation about you. You have transferable skills, job skills and milestones with this business world. A business world is the workforce organism in your community or hometown that you live in. 

Money is one incentive of the job, you'll have job satisfaction, take pride in your work and develop workethic in your occupational realm. You could have common sense and a good sensible operational leadership.

If I could get Certificates from Tim Horton's programs I might be able to use their type of efficiency into my workethic and develop a stronger workethic from a few jobs in We'koqma'q community. I know that I don't have any woman to take care of.

I know that I have Eskasoni Health Center's Medical Transportation Clerk arranging my rides, accommodations and hotels if there was an appointment far away. And close by, the sociocultural values, beliefs and knowledge of family has been truly ingrained in children. And their flaws have been widely ignored if family is toxic. If talking was an toxic addiction these nurses at dialysis would be addicts. I know that toxicity comes in many forms and styles. One of them is how they treat a native man like me. I cannot fuck with these ladies because they have jobs. And getting cookies and tea is from their generosity.

I know that because Maugit is gone there isn't any respect for me. They could talk their way out of anything. Not accepting responsibility for their talking. Discriminatory treatment towards my dignity, respect and me trying to do this stuff respectfully has been ignored.

Humiliations comes in many forms and styles too. Laughter, treatment and unappreciated care and love for those kinds of small acts of cookies and tea. Talking is the issues of having my treatment good. People can humiliate me or discriminate me but I know that talking is an issue because they don't respect authority. Especially since it's intellectual authority. I know that talking is an addiction and it wakes me up because they get into talking that it wakes me up. These women don't have any respectability for silnce or quietness when I'm sleeping. Yeah they could whisper but they'll get into talking again.

Being an Indigenous survivor of traumas over the years, I'd had the displeasure of being humiliated and powerless. I know that I wanted vengeance. Motivated by humiliations and discriminations, I know that my hometown has affected me in ways.

My hometown experience with traumas and humiliations have been about my powerlessness to defend myself. Learning how my bullies(or enemies) wanted my life to be they walked all over me and kept me powerless. I know that talking is an issue because people can talk their way out of anything and have their say. They'd all talked about measurable deterioration of slow descend into incel's hell. I know that I'm hated by my hometown but I cannot believe in my own innocence because my enemies have disabled that. Thirteen years away from Eskasoni I've made measurable progress in my life and had considerable influence in my life. Not with anyone but with myself.

Hyper-independence has been a trauma response. So have impacts of a dysregulated mind. Respect of routine has to be discussed, the power of talking has to be discussed and my experiences. I know that I'm alone in this.
The powers and faculties of personal leadership has been questionable at best because I am diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I had my head torn off, I've been yelled at all those years by my stepfather. Talking hasn't solved nothing. And I know that verbal commands could mean disrespectfulness. Learning how my Indigenous experiences in my life have been, I know that I am trapped in my own head. 

Stinking thinking and other styles of negative thinking patterns I usually fall into. But I know when I have to be patient. I hate the fact that I spund like I don't approve of talking. Just discuss the power of talking and how people get excited and raise their voices. That's all I ask of them, keep it down.

Talking can be a productive thing. I know that I appreciate the power of talking because I could talk with anything with certain cousins of mine.

I could approach the subject with Freudian talking cure or Jungian talking cure, depending what style of psychology and psychoanalysis you see. As you could see I appreciate talking and sometimes it's like background noises. Like YouTube background sounds. I know that I'm sorry that I added my Indigenous descendant experience in it. But sometimes I know that I get stinking thinking, which is a term used for thinking is that kind of thinking that makes you think that you'll fail; that bad things will happen to you: or that you are not a very good person. In this context I have believed in rude talking.

Post-truth realities could be weighed here. More educational reading on their part. I know that I have been limited to certain knowledge and I have to be creatively thinking. I think that I'm alone and sober, learning that this is a lonely road to begin. Ta improve on my living situation I have to be more optimistic, more appreciative, more happy and more ideally enjoying my life with Mawita'mk Society. I know that hopes of making mh physical fitness improvements have been about grief and losses. I'd lost my father and yes, that have affected me in ways.