My New Year Resolutions: 2024 late coming

Understand that I want to keep reading, writing and figuring stuff out. I have this Mawita'mk lifestyle where I could get in shape by my renal diet nutrition and physical fitness. Knowing that I've chosen myself, the foods that are fattening me up. I have to choose better. Eat better. 

I know that through Jennifer I could get back on track. And through Mawita'mk Society I could get gym membership or workout in the sunroom. I should get the membership and have a good deal of support there. Yeah like there is any support. Learning that I have to have a Go-getter instinct, meaning a competitive spirit. I have a Can-do attitude and a Growth Mindset. 

I want to look sexy and well taken care from Mawita'mk staff. I want to look attractive, meaning I want to be in shape, well bathed and dressed, well groomed and cleaned. But I have my own sense of fashion and I hope that I could get better at fashion. I want to be well fed, have a muscular physical fitness, be active and thriving in my future. And have a shared future with Mawita'mk Society doing stuff like graduating with my BA degree, double major in addictions and psychology. 

They've fed me well and I know that I made a fluff about it. I just got to work either my realm of knowledge, experience and schooling I have for renal diet nutrition and physical fitness, or shut the fuck up and give up and keep languishing. I want to lift weights, do some push-ups and bike longer hours on my stationary bike. 

Knowing that I have a lot of business goals in my life. I hope that I could work harder at these two trades: carpentry and landscaping. I hope that I could get fit enough for walking long distance with a certain speedy walking endurance. I want to work on my cardio endurance and muscular strength.

My muscular endurance and muscular strength can be worked on by weight training, stationary bike training and curling weight training in my bedroom and Mawita'mk sunroom. And I could do calisthenics like Push-ups or Sit-ups. I have a book of Calisthenics and I could do the rest of my exercises with my body weight. 

I have plenty of reasons to get in shape: 1. Crush my enemies and bullies. 2. Look more attractive and good. 3. Have better focus, improved moods and more healthy picture look to me. 4. Better appearance. 5. A general happy feeling I've gotten muscles and endurance. 6. Better relationships and better influences. 7. Better endurance and strength. 8. Overall muscular general fitness. 

I want to dress better and get ready at 5. Since I have a good deal of safety at Mawita'mk Society. And financial opportunities to save up my money just in case I have to make payments for a car. That would be a few improvements in my life: 1. Become fully licensed driver. 2. Get a job and a truck. 3. Get my BA degree. 4. Get my own place after I get my goals done up. 5. Get in shape and get my second transplant kidney. 6. Recover from major operation. 

Liberty is a tricky thing. The freedom to abuse and discriminate versus the Ideal living conditions. Learning that people in Eskasoni is willing to discriminate and humiliate me without consequences. I know that I don't have any liberty in Eskasoni, by law. Learning that I was that fool for the Morrison family. I know that I was taught to be submissive and not fight back. The Morrison family have the powers of adult influences over the years. While Dodo put the God of fear into, he had his own personal happiness by cheating me out of food while I'd lived in Eskasoni.

I cannot stop their supremacy or stop them from dominating my life. I have no older brother looking out for me. Dodo don't want to be responsible for his relational influences over the years. Learning that I've been through hells and never found a chick in my addictions. I know that I needed to exercise forgiveness and self acceptance. I know that Dodo pillaged and put salt on the wounds. 

It's bittersweet to be here. Well actually it's pretty sweet. I have Mawita'mk Society and have an accountant because I am a Mawita'mk member. I get seasonal clothing and shoes or boots checks. I get three meals a day, I get to do a Cooking N' Baking program at Mawita'mk kitchens. That's a life skills education program. I know that Mawita'mk Society teaches life skills education and a good deal of safe medicines. Mawita'mk Society supports me in my cooking and baking. 

Anything I want to learn I could do with the assistance of Mawita'mk staff. I know that I want to eat oat pancakes. And cook ham or something with it, with a good cup of tea and toast. I know that I used to be an Inventory Clerk, knowing where everything is. I want to get more Spice it Up Renal diet meals booklets.

Looking at the www.Myspiceitup.ca I am learning that I could have drinks with my breakfast. I could try that Tropical Mocktail drink or something. I get grumpy when I don't eat when I got wicked hunger. But I know that I've been learning to live ideally with Mawita'mk Society. Mawita'mk Society has been taking good care of me and yeah, I'm thankful and love Mawita'mk staff. 

I know that those oat pancakes would taste pretty good and I could save them in the freezer. I know that I don't have any self respect because I would've been weight training during my time at Mawita'mk Society. Hopefully I can get a couple of side chicks somewhere. I could enjoy my solitude but I don't think I'm that attractive because they'd would've been all over me. Even with muscles I don't think I'll be attractive. It's worth a shot though. 

Then again I just need to lose weight. I know that I am living according to my New Year Resolutions. A platform of goals, objectives, aims, targets and ends. I want to continually improve in my life where I could be goal-minded and have an Can-do attitude about my targets, have a Go-getter's instinct and direct myself to a platform of business, economic and financial resources I could have at Mawita'mk Society. My problem would be my family...

Learning that the Morrison have held me back for so long. I know that I don't want them to take credit for my good deeds. Selfish bitches and pricks that want to deconstruct my resolve to live independently. I know that Mawita'mk Society has demoralized me in ways and kept my morale up to a manageable level where I shouldn't cause any ruckus. I know that I'm put away because I don't have any real powers over my own life. Fiercely debated choices and powers, The Morrison doesn't want to accept their relationship quality or effects as corruptive. They refuse to give up. 

Of course I couldn't defend myself because I don't have any muscles. And the Victor tells the narratives. With absolute power comes absolute corruption absolutely. And the Morrison family wanted my life under their thumb because they knew that I was hated. I am hated because I am an Syliboy/Jown family bloodline. I know that I don't have any respect for my powers in my own life because I would've worked on my own apartmental goals. 

I would've made good with that behind 74th street, Horseshoe Drive address. I know that I was hated there because everyone kept on bothering me. If I do move back it would be repeats in my life; now more than ever because I cannot defend my own home apparently. Lance Denny is one asshole I don't want to let back into my place. Him and others who have taught me how toxic they are. 

I am not part of any cliques in Eskasoni. So if I did moved back I would be deeper levels of hatred and discriminations than ever. Where abuses would happen and people stealing, lying, cheating, manipulating and other mistreatments I would have to go through while I'm in Eskasoni. Learning that I'm that hated, I know that I did not get that much fucks in my life because they usually come with prices. 

In my life I don't have much to do here. I cannot join Judo or Firefighter Departments, I cannot be a First Aider or a construction worker, I cannot exercise because I just have to do cardio. Mawita'mk Society has managed my expectations, directions and goals I wanted to do. So what do I have for all those prospects in terms of involvements with the community? Nothing! 

I am this sick kid again. I seem I cannot control what I want to do because of Mawita'mk management. I cannot start a small business, I cannot go school, and I cannot work. The kind of work that have full-time employment, perks and physical/mental benefits, have fringe benefits and possibilities to work. I cannot get involved with the community by doing volunteer work, or organized sports. 

Self control wasn't an option, nor self moderation or self modulation. Learning that Dodo has to have control over my mind. He forces me to figure out stuff when I already have but denies me that sense of powers. Thinking that he wanted my emotional darken struggles to drive me to that point in his hypersexuality. I know that I wasn't going to protect my interests because my cousins already picked the girls I wanted, had relationships with and I cannot get a good fuck by myself. 

I am not that attractive. And learning that racism and racial colorism has something to do with my body. I know that I didn't have any chances to get laid by women I wanted. Learning that people wants me to suffer more often than usual. I know that neuroethically nobody wants me to figure out myself. Ownership of my personal leadership is neuroethically questionable because it's not forced. 

Strength-base approaches, or research versus deficit-based approaches, or research. Strength-based approaches is the identifying of strengths, goals, solutions and objects of a community or person. Learning about what strengths and powers they have, working with that and coming up with useful beliefs and positive thoughts. I know that I want to use good, useful suggestions instead of bad suggestions. The power of suggestions can be something good or bad.

Negative and unresourceful beliefs and bad suggestions have been part of deficit-based approaches, or research. Learning that they don't know solutions-based, it identifies weaknesses and issues with unresourceful beliefs and negative suggestions, keeps that self-perpetuating issues and beliefs in a cycle or routine. 

Now resourceful beliefs are useful beliefs and suggestions in your arsenal of coping skills, solutions-based approaches and reinforcements or empowerment of choices. They could claim that they have issues with strength-based researches and approaches, knowing that most people hate me. And Billie Jean wants me powerless or useless or something. The Morrison haven't really proven that they want me to live an independent life. Or Mawita'mk Society hasn't approved or proven they want me to live a true independent thinker's lifestyle. 

Resourceful and useful beliefs are beliefs that works for my habitual thinking. We all have this habitual thinking and an on-going dialog in our heads. It just depends on what you identified as a good, resourceful beliefs are good because they create good resourceful practices. I've been abused and discriminated against by Donald J. Morrison and Charles Morrison because they have created an environment of crimes and beatdowns. 

Well okay, I hate the guy for fucking my biological mother. And I am disappointed in her for breaking her vows. But they both, with Chuck and Dad, taught me well about doing stuff. What seems possible is an illusion sometimes. You could have the resourceful belief and self confidence to check the viability, workability and sturdiness or solutionability of something. Like a puzzle or game. 

The Morrison/Jown have taught me respect, appreciate the resourceful beliefs or workable beliefs, and use whatever psychological works I can do with myself. Ownership of my personal leadership is neuroethically questionable because I am diagnosed Paranoid schizophrenic. But I know that if I start to accept my new home I could learn to have resourceful beliefs and useful suggestions. 

Not that I had any problems with the ideas and models of my old beliefs. It's just not working out and I know that discrimination works within the natures of each belief systems. Learning the new structure of certainty I know that strength-based researches and approaches, useful practices and resourceful beliefs can be used on me. I could be running my own mind because everyone seems to have an opinion about it. 

Discrimination is the prejudicial distinctions and treatments according to the stereotypes and social stigmas. A man being powerless in sex instead of empowering the choices and thoughts is something that have been a failure of the Morrison/Jown family. 

But with their structures of belief systems, I'd learnt to handle myself according to their beliefs and values. Epistemologically how my resourceful beliefs in this family have taught me how the procedural memory works, how intellectually relevant my culture is, and how I should learn skills and mental acumen from them. Everyone knew that useful beliefs can be something like having a good deal of safe medicines, a good life and a good sensible way to live and control myself. 

I know that discrimination doesn't work, the repeats of criminalism is recidivistic offenders. And learning what works for me was from therapy and learning coping skills, identifying resourceful beliefs and useful suggestions for myself regarding the culture. Individualism and social situations, with social stigmas would lead to repeated offenses.

What's ideally living for me? I know that I want to enjoy my life with a good deal of available sex partners. I know that I have a lot of good reasons to live at Mawita'mk Society but I know there is negative suggestions, unresourceful beliefs and deficit-based approaches, or researches. Learning about my options nobody wants me to have experience strength-based approaches, researches and useful practices. Knowing that I don't inspire a lot of love and respectability. I know that the people treating me would treat me with less enthusiasm, sense of humor and good senses. 

Well those that are angry. I know that I have to appreciate and respect the ones that do help out with my blogs. Knowing that I have a lot of good people in my corner; I know that I'm valued, appreciated, cared for and loved. Respected and accepted. Here I am valuable in ways where I do have influences and a good deal of safe family. I know that I don't have that much self-efficacy or self-confidence, but I know that I love and I want to be self-confident, self-motivated and self-directed and determined to make changes in my life. 

Mawita'mk Society is right, I have to make changes and work on my self restraint. I know that Mawita'mk Society cooks, cleans and supports me; not only me but everyone here at Ni'kinen Group House. Learning that this is a shared house I have to pick up my weight and carry it with the Support Workers. I am an able-bodied man. 

Re-learning the significance, meaning and value in life through volunteerism, and other means of incomes. I know that with a good day's work I could appreciate this place better by working in their Mawita'mk Work Program, counting my bottles and learning patience for the jobs at Mawita'mk Work Center. I am learning beadwork and knowing how to make certain beadworks through handiworks, I am learning arts and crafts through Mawita'mk Work Program. It's necessary because I have a sense of purpose, job satisfaction and feeling of contribution to this kind of job. 

I know that with resourceful beliefs, or useful beliefs. I can have a belief that I have all the resources in my hometown apartment, to have an independent life. The practices with this is having a Group Chat called Supporting John Peter. Add certain people and have a conversation about the possibility of moving back home. 

The Morrison doesn't want me to run my own brain. Learning that they have discriminated and abused me in so many ways through manipulations or straight beatdowns. I know that I have a good life here but I want my own place to bring dates and fucks. People don't control me and I know that I don't want the same apartment; I was talking about possibilities I could do with that Horseshoe Drive Apartment. But I know that Rosie wouldn't respect me as a tenant bringing dates home.

Than again safety is the biggest issues when bringing dates and fucks home. I mean I could fuck at her place. Ah! I should focus on losing weight and maybe build muscles. I want to have a full body workout throughout the week. If I can get a full body workout maybe I could learn to accept certain people in my life. Instead of ruminating on it or overthinking. 

Unwillingly I came to Mawita'mk Society in 2010. Not knowing what kind of treatment I would receive, the new workers that have came and caused me anxiety. Now familiar people that have been treating me good. I am way too spoiled here; I have luxuries or home services like WiFi and homephone, that I could learn to accept and appreciate this place as paradise. We'koqma'q community had became my second home, a home that wanted me and values me. Accepts me and appreciates me. 

Learning to appreciate my books and the useful suggestions, resourceful beliefs and hard core values I could use in my life. I know that I love Mawita'mk Society as a safe place. And I have a lot of good, useful reasons to stay in We'koqma'q community. People grow attached to their unuseful suggestions, unresourceful beliefs and negative thoughts. People have made a hell their homes and my two icons are the reason why. You'll have to get too sick and tired, to a point where you let go and have been cured through talking cure.