With A Certain Level of Employability: Work and Volunteer Jobs

I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. Eskasoni hasn't been kind to me to a degree. I know that it's my hometown but I didn't have one flourishing, good and right relationship in my lifetime in Eskasoni. Yes, I have benefits there and I could move back but what's the worth? Every dreams, wants and needs are met here and I have a family that supports me whole-heartedly to stay in We'koqma'q community, at Mawita'mk Society's Ni'kinen house. I know that I could get a good thriving and well developed life in We'koqma'q community. They have businesses here, they have a Provincial Building in Port Hawkesbury, I got my ALP diploma. I got my college trade and Unama'ki Driving Certificate. I am heading towards mental health professions. All my life I was living as a reject in Eskasoni, nobody wanting me to succeed or accomplish anything. I was living like a lost lover who only wanted dysfunctional friendships and family relationships. 

I've been learning that I had bad memories in Eskasoni and no, I didn't have any chances to thrive in Eskasoni when I was young. In We'koqma'q community, I took every opportunity to get my education, trainings,  college trade credentials and Unama'ki Driving Certificate. I've been doing really well in We'koqma'q community, living a happy sober life and thinking about getting my own place eventually. I know that I have healthy, meaningful and impactful relationships in We'koqma'q community. This community has problems in grief and traumas and control issues. I am needed, useful, active, thriving, connecting and networking in We'koqma'q community. 

I could say I am well developing in We'koqma'q community, not at full fruition yet. Where I want to be is driving in We'koqma'q community, to Port Hawkesbury and walking a little more. Three times a day, with trainings coming up and my fifteen years worth of happy memories and birthdays. I know that I am getting better in We'koqma'q community because I know that my bloodline family and step family is supporting me to lose weight in We'koqma'q community, accomplish many things in We'koqma'q community, published many works and if possible, patent things that I have created. And do much as I can with volunteer jobs, part-time work, Mawita'mk Work Program jobs and pop bottle collections. I do need the money and hopefully, I can spend my money on what I need, want and look forward to. 

Every morning I look forward to talking with Mike MacInnis, Norma Gould and others. I know that I need to start admitting to myself; no! I didn't did too well in Eskasoni. I am entrepreneurial but that's because I had to be. Progress-focused has been the start and healthy foundation of my lifetime in We'koqma'q.

I had a few bad days in We'koqma'q community but the positivity, perks, benefits, opportunities, pros and good experiences in We'koqma'q community outweighs the few bad days I did had. Home is where you could make it as, as long as I could stay busy and run my own life in a direction of We'koqma'q successes and personal accomplishments. I hope to eventually find trust in We'koqma'q Band Office and change my Band Status. But what about my benefits from Eskasoni? What are those? 

Home is where the heart is at. Hopefully, I can get accredited for all my goals. I know that I am more successful in We'koqma'q community because this community is paradise. The Ideal paradise I am living in, is the ideal living home conditions and "safe" environment where I have a bunch of staff members ready to help out any way they can. Instead of remembering Eskasoni this way or that, I should spend my energies focused on my current state of well-being, overall health and constructive self development stages. And the relationships in my life that are thriving. 

I know that when I started, I had a Eskasoni Rehab Certificate and job experiences from Eskasoni. I know that I was left off with a good leaving note, that way I won't have any bad feelings leaving Eskasoni-my first hometown community. Learning that I have a level of education, training and Certifications that I could move back home and work. But I'll need part-time employment in a donated place for a happy group home. Mawita'mk Society has been looking at the options of expanding into Eskasoni. If I could live that long to move back to Eskasoni, I might have a good chance. But as I am trying to give myself 5-years worth of goal-oriented and with past accomplishments boost, I hope to lose the weight in less in two years. 

I know that Eskasoni has been unchanging towards me. I know that I didn't want to explore sexuality with men but that's what's interpreted by Dodo and others. I wanted to get a good woman and live my life. Hometown hell didn't have any mercy on me. I know that I've been hated when I did showed strength. Knowing that I have a healthy foundation- core traditional masculine strengths and virtues, and core principles, values, merits, values, standards, beliefs, boundaries and goals in life. With an inner framework of family tenets and ethics, or morality or code. I know that I could move back in 5 years and hopefully, have my operation less than 3 years. 

I know that I have been enjoying my life with a bunch of wonderful memories in ways. I felt that I had to move and change my scenery, in order to have a changed perspective. I know that mental health is important and there are mental health stigmas that is in the community. I know that I love in so many ways. 

I know that through forgiveness; I've accepted that I can forgive and have personal agency in my own way. Learning how meaning, values and beliefs work for certain people. I know that I've faced many obstacles and issues in Eskasoni. I cannot thrive in Eskasoni because Eskasoni needs a lot of healing. But than again, I am learning mental health language, knowledge systems and skills. Hopefully, I can use them properly when needed. Hopefully, if and when I do move back home to my hometown, I hope to build a good life there, have a Eskasoni Mental Health Supports Portfolio like AA, NA, Al-non, SMART Recovery program, Eskasoni Mental Health Peer Discussions and Understanding group. 

I am valuable, useful and thriving in We'koqma'q community where a strong sense of contentment, well-being, belonging and purpose have made me realized that I have a good life in We'koqma'q community. I know that I could have a dignity of labor with my volunteer jobs, my part-time job and my pop bottle small business. I am enrichened in ways where I have a level of education, trainings, Unama'ki Driving Certificate and College trade credentials. I know that I am safe with Mawita'mk Society, just thinking that I have way more potential on my own. Considering that I could get my BA degree online through a University or college. 

With the right support in my life; I am valued, valuable, loved and I belong to a community where I can make a good support system in We'koqma'q community. I know that I have a lot of good reasons to thrive in We'koqma'q community, obeying my authority bias and having trust in Mawita'mk Society. 

So, this is what certain people want me to say. I know that I had a strong sense of community spirit, community-mindedness and cultural community from Eskasoni. I know that I had this kind of understanding, where I had to explain my mental status because people in the community are woefully ignorant of mental health. I hope that I could explore another community's resources, conditions for a cozy home and what makes a hometown home a home. I am learning how certain mannerism, etiquette and manners, customs and values that each community upholds. Nobody says that they don't know about their community/family traditions, tenets and principles in a community unless you are willing to learn.

Every community has a drunk and town idiot. Which at couple moments of my life I've been both because of my cousin Ray. He kind of picked on me as a joke, nothing too seriously. I know that I had thick skin and in that I've been learning to face my problems with a sense of humor, acceptance of my addictions and a thick skin. I know what masculine traditional strength is supposed to be. The kind that don't give up and keep on fighting, arguing and making stances. I know that I had a lot of hope to create and build a happy home of my own. Considering that people doubt me and say that I'll never get a home. I know that I have been learning their view points of my Hometown Cultural Community.

I know that I've talked a lot about the traumas and tried to analyze and explain certain conditions. I know that I had a cultural relevancy in a way where I needed to heal, redeem and accept my life's terms. Because Dodo had been a drunkard who hadn't earned his ways in the socioeconomic sector of the community. He sucks as a carpenter and anything else. Well, that's because he didn't practiced enough in his trade. I know that in his temporary psychosis he has been trying to force his points of views on me because he has a Father's Complex. In Jungian psychology it's similar to "Daddy's Issues" but is related and on familiar grounds as Oedipus Complex. Father Complex is where a person has a positive relationship with a authoritative father figures or negative. If negative there is a deep-seated anxiety, fear, distrust and worry to form relationships with others and father figures. If positive than admiration and masculine traditional strength from a fatherly figures, or desire and respect for the guidance and support from fatherly figures provides.

I know that I had this deep-seated, deep-rooted anxiety-trauma related experience, fear and distrust of mothers and father figures, worry that people would want me to accept cheaters in my life. And not set healthy boundaries and standards for myself. Learning that people hate me because everyone wants to fight me; small muscles and no teenage boxing skills or martial art skills. I know that I've faced disablism and ableism (relying on abled bodies). I felt that I couldn't really gain any advantage or strengths because my stepfamily hated me in ways. 

I am not trained or disciplined (formally trained) in sports, weight lifting, martial arts, boxing. I was trained or disciplined in punching techniques, speed bag rhythm, biking, calisthenics, fitness to a degree and walking n' pickin' pop bottles. And making a swamp into a lawn with the guidance and support of my stepfather. I know that I couldn't work in my twenties or thirties because I had to move here. I could've done a janitor job with WHMIS and OHS safety tickets, get a job at We'koqma'q Band Office or somewhere. 

With ASIST, SafeTALK and Mental Health First Aid First Nation, I have to have some kind of hyperviligance (I think) because I know that I am learning to moderate my vigilance versus hyperviligance. I know that I don't have any respect because I haven't suffered enough. People want to overshadow, belittle and diminish my experience to a small extent. I've had a lot of losses, traumas, addictions and negligence on my part. I didn't know about mental health language or positive language in my writing mental state. I know that people want to hear the dirt, dirty and shit all over it.

Learning that I have a impact on this community. I know that people want me to suffer for their pettiful hatred. I feel like I needed a good move and in that reflect, introspect and retrospect in ways, I know that in both communities I am loved, valued, valuable, useful with a strong sense of community spirit, community-mindedness and cultural hometown. I know in my hometown I am loved and valued in ways. The Morrison didn't want me to recover or redeem myself from certain addictional darkness. If I return I know the same stages that they want me at; is where they want to start with me. With me, they want to keep me the same mental health conditions as I left. They don't believe in my drug-related psychosis. And they have tendencies towards Family Disablism and Ableism. 

With A certain level of employability in another community where I am volunteering for We'koqma'q Mental Health and Addiction services, Bereaved Families of NS's Living with Grief Program, volunteering for We'koqma'q Mental Health Peer Support Group, Maritime Al-non group, NA and AA, and trying to bring SMART Recovery meetings to this community. I believe that I'm doing pretty good because I have Norma Gould (RSW, BSW, CCAC, RS- Community Social Worker). I want to be like Norma but with John Peter Syliboy (BA, CAC II, CGC, CTRC, BSW, CGSC, CSIC, CCRC). 

I hope that I could get Accreditations from CCPC Global and Certifications from Dalhousie's programs, Unama'ki College's programs and CBU's Programs. I know to an extent what the biomechanics of the neurochemistry in addictions are like. I've experienced the drugs, chemicals and alcoholism that people need me to say. They assume because they don't believe in themselves to use Neurolinguistic Programming, DBT and other therapies that could work. 

I want to be Certified in Neurolinguistic Programming by NLP Canada Inc., and hopefully, become a Practitioner through my volunteer jobs in We'koqma'q community. I just gotta tell my RBC bank that I am going for Mental Health skills like NLP Certificate, Dalhousie's Certificate program in Counseling Skills Level 1 and Level 2, Accreditations and stuff like that. I want to build a safer, more mental health aware and well trained in community addictions and traumas. 

With personal agency, you could follow and interpret meaning, understand and create meaning, control your own tonality, timbre and other tones of your voice. You could have confidence, self-assurance and a belief In independence. Self-sufficiency is managing your own finances, personal affairs and home. That's what single independence mean. The freedom to bring a woman, with her permission and all night or partly night charming her (with or without alcohol), and drive her to your place. It's controlling your own life in ways where you are obeying rules you set forth. 

Ideal homebody is enjoying the comforts of my own home, a home that I've invested in from years of work and volunteer. I know that Mi'kmaq women don't like staying home but putting self future projections into work/home life balance is something I want. I know that my stepfather taught me to enjoy my own home and his home. Mawita'mk Society isn't my forever home but I know to be emotionally invested into making memories worthy enough to call this community-my second hometown.

I know that I want to have my own home where I've made a firepit for a furnace, or a wood stove, or a heat pump. I know that I want to make my home out of my own full-time employment. I am 40 now, with no job or money saved up because my sisters and Mawita'mk residents sniff out when I have money. I don't mind Wayne asking me for money because he pays me back. 

I am not anti-social, I just enjoy staying home and relaxing. I know right now I have no job and in that I don't need to work on my own home just yet-I have to work on my fitness. I know that I want to build three homes in Eskasoni where I want to give to my sister and baby brother. But as I learn that my sister Katt has a home; I'll take a home for myself and hopefully, have my own personal home in Eskasoni. I've been through a lot of bad, a lot of good, a lot of ugly and beautiful. I've been right while on the wrong side of heaven, sometimes it was aligned with the right side of heaven. I've been on the right, and wrong side of hell. I'd moved away and had my space before, I know that landlords made it difficult to make money to buy stuff for my place-particularly my first two landlords. One in Sydney, the other on Horseshoe Drive Apartment. 

If my goal is to have a Big Return. I hope that I could start working out and enjoy myself in Mawita'mk Society. In Ni'kinen house bedroom. I know that I am not allowed to save my money in today's society because so many people are scamming, lying, financially abusing in so many ways. That I cannot choose what I want to save up for. I know that I don't have family support, faith or trust to live my own life properly. 

I know that these Mawita'mk workers don't have to live with these people. Rosie and Jennifer and others believe that I cannot live by myself. So, does family and friends. Independent life isn't suited for me because they've constructed constructs, barriers and fears of living by myself. Well, I should have some worries because last time I was languishing and growing fatter. I wasn't living healthy and learning that I don't have any good reasons to move back home. This is the extend of how much they want me to stay in We'koqma'q community, at Mawita'mk Society's Ni'kinen house. 

I know that I could thrive because I am not an active addict or drunkard. I miss living by myself because I had sex. Learning that I could get my own place, I say that I started long ago and doing pretty good at losing weight. Learning that sufficient self-righteousness can come about in forms of tyranny, abuse in words, regressing to the dark side of the Child Ego-state, manipulating for Pettiness and Self-righteousness. Which suggests that I haven't been myself because culturally I am intellectual, the culture of man and boy psychology. Jungian psychology, Freudian psychoanalysis, Dr. Eric Berne's Transactional Analysis and Mi'kmaq culture had me in my Wise Mind with my Ego-states. But I know that anger could swell into self-righteousness. The same Dodo Bird Complex that had me eternally fighting an Mental imagery, a endless possibilities and self-righteousness. 

I could self-analyse the endless hours of scenarios, possibilities and dark intrusive thoughts like I wasn't taught by Eskasoni Mi'kmaw Lodge Treatment Counselors and other people there who have impacted me in various ways. Healing-oriented and goal-oriented has been something that Eskasoni Rehab has been trying to do. Teach people to work on themselves-changes and stages in change. I know that I have been learning that I could have all the knowledge of psychological history, psychological theories and therapies, still I'll need the Mi'kmaq family culture. I am supposed to defend myself, protect my emotional safety and situational safety, and philosophy of ages. 

My family knows that I value my independence from marriage, from financial abusers, from dysfunctional friends (like Clyde), from toxic women and toxic men, and from the deepest depths of emotional language in what they need to be negative with me for. And from disordered people that "need" to be negative with me. Instead of simply accepting me and leaving me alone, they consider that mental health stigmas where I need discipline, a woman to make me an honest man and a marriage where fathers are powerless. I think I need to have my life together as a single uncle. And keep progressing like that because I have a workloads of books to read, research and study. 

The thing about culture, is intergenerational stereotypes, curses and legacy where they don't teach independence (the ability to critically think for yourself, or myself), choose my own path without external forces, situational forces, collective hegemony and dependency and obedience to a degree of not learning lifelong; reading, researching and studying-self-sufficiency. Yes, to a degree I have to obey certain people in my life and in that, I know people think I don't see what they are doing when it comes to Intergenerational Interdependent external influences. They want me to submit to their beliefs and values when it comes to cultural ageism. A form of discrimination and generational stereotypes where they want me to not think for myself. Where I choose to learn and grow, where I nurture myself into emotional and private safetyto read, learn and have my own independent understanding. They believe that morality doesn't come from within, that I cannot create my own headspace and protect it. 

Independence is where they don't want me to be. Progress-focused and reading daily for myself, that's been their worries and fears that they've been projecting on me. Empty gestures and empty promises, they don't want me to have independent thought or understanding because they refused to admit their relational influences and persuasions, crimes and abuses. 

But I've relied on family for so long that I hope to get their approval, acceptance and help in moving back home. I know that Billie Jean doesn't want me to have my full driver's license and truck because safety issues from RCMP, DFO and other law enforcement agencies that are discriminatory. I know that I don't have any real power because the safest place I could be is at Mawita'mk Society. Considering that anyone could visit me and take anything they wish. I know that certain dysfunctional friends have stolen things from me, created unsafe culture, atmosphere and environment in my place. And certain family members didn't respect my wishes because they lied about money, leaving me alone, letting me get full-time employment and enjoying my cigarettes when I had my First Transplant Kidney.

Plus safety issues like people disappearing, getting killed, (me possibly) reverting back to addictive stages, forgetting my injections, struggling to have groceries in my place, struggling to have anything safe in my care. And learning that people don't respect me as me, or accept me as me. Empty, superficial judgments and empty, superficial social imagery. So many factors and true dangers of life. Men tend to have the most ignored violence happened to them. And I know that the racism we face is daily. We cannot take a break and make any mistakes in a safe way. Since Colonization, Indian Act, INAC Chief and Council, Shubenacadie Indian Residential School, Indian Day School. Since the Pass System and Permission Slips to hunt and fish, or to simply check the traps. Just to get off the community, we were stripped of status when we went to college or became a lawyers, we even value Indian Status like we don't believe in our genes, blood and family. 

Employable versatility is able to adapt and change to job markets, organizational needs shifts and job changes. It's an openness to constructive criticism, it's ready at the helms and always pro-active and continously learning. I have a passion for learning as long as I can do something. Being not shy or afraid of work or to perform a wide range of tasks and roles in a business, organization, trade, profession, service, occupation, work and volunteer work. I know that in my lifetime I've worked what I could and changed jobs, did odd jobs, repair work, chores, errands and outdoor jobs. Until I came across mental health skills and Certifications, that's when I said I could do two volunteer jobs in We'koqma'q community, while doing pop bottles and beadwork. 

Firearm Safety courses I want to take with somebody. But I am in a regulated place and I cannot do much because I am under somebody's rules, regulations and policies. That's couple of downfalls of living in a group home, I cannot make this place a homey place; only in a certain way. There are angles and areas that they could work on and in that claim that they are the best of the best. I know that I want to have my Non-Restricted Firearm Safety course and Restricted Firearm Safety course. If I want to do certain things in my life, I have to deal with a board committee about my personal life, what I get to work on, and how I should live my life.

Comfort is the enemy of growth. And I know that I do need rest and be comforted at home. Relational versatility is able to adapt my communication styles to different situations and people, another words talking to their level and style. Adaptability is is changing to new situations, different conditions, changing circumstances and unexpected living arrangements. I know that I have been flexible because at a young age I'd learned coping skills and styles of good thinking. 

My brain likes to think of nothing. This seems to irritate the female staff in my life, or some female staff members in We'koqma'q community because I have a particular focus on nothing but vibing to music and thinking of nothing when I comes home. With women who has anxiety issues, this seems to worry them because I have to see that everything I'd interconnected, connected and I have to think, worry and be fearful like a woman. When I do come from work, or from volunteering, it seems that women needs me to see this in plain understanding. 

Apparently I have to see that everything is connected, Interdependent and interconnected. I know that certain men have been hanging around with certain women way too much. Because they want me to be a woman's mind. I tolerate them because I got no choices; I cannot move or change who I hang with because work has to be connected to something. The idea that I need to think of everything is a shame because nobody knows inner peace, emotional harmony and regulation, thinking of absolutely nothing. I always have to think because of certain women who are toxic in their attitudinal qualities and principles. 

My balance and moderation of thinking while at work is minimal. I try to keep it that way because women wants me to have hyper-worries, overthinking paralysis and stuck in certain ways. I know this is toxic because it burdens the person into sleepless nights and overanalysis paralysis. My balance is thinking moderately and enough to defend my stance against certain cultural blocks, cultural ageism and a good deal of shared overthinking efforts. This is months and months of work; this post and mostly all my posts. I know that I have thought of nothing before and had a balance of flow of music into vibing. My therapy is thinking of nothing, fantasizing when I'm alone and other things I do for my own benefits, relief and grieving about the nostalgic possibilities of doing something in my old apartments. 

I could function (out of habit, routine or regimen), to function with a focus to do stuff. I know that I've enjoyed most of my life by thinking of nothing but if and when required to think, I would because I don't have that missed focused moments in my life. That kind of thought process belongs to ADHD, Dyslexia or other disabilities like dyscalcalia. I know that minor learning disabilities are disabilities all the same. And there are methods and techniques to teach general skills from schooling teachers. I think I might have a learning disability called Auditory Processing Disorder, I haven't figured it out; it was my half-blooded sister Billie Jean who pointed that out

I know that I dill lose the weight to an ideal weight, hopefully, I won't get operated on by the wrong doctor. I know that there is a lot of incompetence these days in the health care system with certain individuals, than you have the overt, blatant and open racism with others who don't like their job, or any job for that matter.

Good that I have Mawita'mk Society as a ideal support system, family hegemony and other things. But common knowledge bias could create generational, disability or other stereotypes that could lead to psychological warfare tactics from discrimination and prejudice where abuses breeds, breathes in that volatile atmosphere and unsafe environment. I know that safety culture is where I want to be. I could see that shared information bias could lead into groupthink and miseducation where people want control over my narratives and want to lie. They believed in their own bullshit that way they could be comfortable numb to the truth. Nobody is a biographical alethiologist.

I know things will change, in this universe or any universe, the only constant is change. The cultural paradigm and perception is limited to a degree because we don't have any real insights to get our hands dirty. Learning to deal with losses, pains and grief with layers of different things like discriminations, addictions and disabilities, through more and more of mental health history, psychological theories and therapies, psychological history in what worked for people, the nature and scope of perception, what healed or motivated people with a sense of purpose to read and work on themselves. To learn alternative teaching methods, and to delve into literary epinoia. 

Now I can live off of the Multiverse I have imagined in my head, where I believe- in this reality and my Indigenous Multiverse, multiple forms of intelligence in a relationship, social settings and family. 

And epinoia is the creative, active and intelligent imaginations of any intellectual. I believe, in reality and my fantasies, a psychological histories of different intelligentsia in this world and a National Intergenerational, Interdependent Intelligentsia of Alethiology that I could live off of in Eskasoni, any First Nation communities and in my fantasies. If we were naturally thriving off of it's own electronics and technology. And an it's own innovations and multiculturally connected, politically interconnected and Interdependent of each other. 

A National Intergenerational, Interdependent Intelligentsia of Alethiology and Forgiviness would be a healing thing. The Seven districts governed by Mi'kmaq Grand Council and Hereditary Chiefs and Councils with a social understanding of European society and sociology, culturology and psychology. The Intercultural Council of European Culturology and Diseases, had its scientific impacts on our Treaties and Rights and Titles. I know that I have been learning to be patient to let my Indigenous story grow because of the addicted among my people. In this story we have the Real Peace Officers and Security Officers of the Grand Council, Hereditary Chiefs and Councils and, of Anti-Discriminatory Practices and Bigoted Treatments Peace Officers, or the Elder's Practitioners. Mi'kmaw Nation dealing with other natives, native-governed districts or territories, of Turle Island are the Assistant Chiefs and Councils. And those dealing with Digital Amathia with bigotry are Cultural Relevant Council. 

If we listened to our seers and other prophets, we would've had, in this Indigenous universe a more of Traditional history with other seers and prophets of other cultures by the Peace Officers known as Culturologists. And more and more traditional Treaties, of other nations and The Pale Faces. We choose through our own immigration process system, through Culturologist Officers, who to pick for our sovereignty. 

And understanding that we need technology to go to space because we are naturally curious to see what others seen. The Treaties of Europeans Indigenous people of Asia, and other nations, would be something of a technological influence, innovations and more discipline of hurdles and setbacks. I think we would've had Space Exploration Centers and protective Practices Of Treaties. 

But that's an in Indigenous story universe left to tell. I know that we have been learning our steepness of our national conscious depths that Setters' Colonialism have impacted us. We have learned to discriminate, instead of choosing mental health, addictions, instead of healing. We only want the victim to self-perpetuate into a downward spiral of addictions, criminality and self abuses. And still be normal. Mental health isn't the option and we don't want to unlearn that natural like judgment instinct. 

I know that if I settle for We'koqma'q community I would have more training, benefits and educational & employment opportunities in We'koqma'q community. I know that I am young still, well, kind of young. I was born in 1985 and I always had pro-active parents who was always doing something. It's here that I am happy here; at Mawita'mk Society because I have memorable experiences here over the sixteen years I've been here. I know it would cause great grief to move back to my hometown group home (if they ever make that), with all this education, training and Certifications I have since I've gotten here. I would cry a "see ya'll later cry" because I try to live the best life I can.

Good mornings here, looking forward to waking up and starting my year here. Having all the access I could possibly need for all my needs, especially with work's sense of purpose. I have spent many happy years here, with some frictions and some good friendships. I know that Mawita'mk Society made a family heart here. And they are doing the best they can in staffing circumstances. 

Because We'koqma'q community showed me so much love, I want to show them my great gratitude and ideas of inspiring people, if they want it, through Mental Health and Addiction services people, and tradesmen's connections, if I had any. I want to connect and try to build a bridge between trades, safety and mental health but I think they've done that anyways. So, I guess my role is to learn all the safety tickets and mental health skills in English language. 

I know that in Eskasoni they are playing catchup with other First Nation communities. But too, Eskasoni has been developing their infrastructure and economy in ways that are self-sustainably self-reliant and independent in ways where they are prospering in ways of Fisheries and other First Nation businesses. I could see that my hometown is become self-reliant, self-sustainable and self-governing in ways of healing, First Nation businesses and developing their own Eskasoni Tribal Police. Hopefully, they finish certain projects in my lifetime where they've developed a Eskasoni Dialysis Unit, Eskasoni Group Home and Supported Apartments, Eskasoni Support Services Portfolio, Eskasoni Mental Health Peer Support Group, Chiefs' And Grand Chief's Association of Mi'kmaq Rights and Treaties, & Sovereignty. A connection between independent Band and Grand Council. 

I want to approach We'koqma'q Mental Health and Addiction services with safety/mental health language skills, level of safety creativity and support energy, mental health safety awareness and psychological health care. I am at a stage in my sobriety, recovery and mental health where I am learning mental health skills and the rope of the field, kind of. 

I've done many traveling, training, workshops, courses and classes that I have over the years I've spent at Mawita'mk Society, with a level of education, Certifications and driving level where I could work on my life anywhere. I could get into a good lifestyle where I can do stuff, be peo-active in my goals and driving level goals. I know that I am not allowed to leave any time I want because they love me so... professionally speaking. They care in a way that would affect them if I did left.